and when she speaks
Saturday, February 23, 2008
maybe this is the best way.
Im willing to keep trying.
and i'll continue hoping.
Just one week. Things might be very different after that. but i hope i never judge wrongly. because i've given my all. because i believe in you. because i believe in us. and most importantly because. i love you so.i realized i have stopped blogging about my outings and all happy things since a long time ago. not sure if i should start blogging about those stuff again. There are definitely happy things going on but everytime i come to this dead blog, i think of sad stuff :( hopefully that'll change (:
Im a busy busy "sister" today (fri) at my cousin's wedding! It was such a huge eye opener to me to see all these traditonal, cultural stuff. and it was indeed very touching. Tml is part 2 (they have 2 wedding dinners) so im gg to continue to be busy fer awhile. and im gg back to dance tml. i hope i didnt deprove :/ and i know that this entry is super random so i'll blog another day. goodnight world, im getting my 2 days' worth of rest and sleep.-it scuks to be sick. with a fever.
her
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7:24 PM;;
Monday, February 18, 2008
i just really need somebody there for me. somebody who can take me seriously and not dismiss my worries, my bad dreams just like that. Listen to me, talk to me. there's this constant sadness somewhere deep inside and i dont know how to make it go away.
am i asking too much?
her
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9:22 AM;;
Friday, February 15, 2008
headache. What's going to be my career 5 years down the road? I would like to stop thinking about Uni applications. sigh.
I know im totally digressing, but
Happy V-Day people! (: and
Happy One Year to my babylove. We have such a cliche-d anniversary date. and time
really flies. HOLYCOW it's been a year. okay don't feel like walking down the memory lane today so i wont reminisce. Im just looking forward to our actual celebration after ur papers and my cousin's wedding. hmm. Hope the camp-out happens. alrighty, much loves to the world (:
-it's always 9pm in our world.
her
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1:00 PM;;
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
i miss your simple callings. don't you realize you dont use 'em anymore? the msn chats, pictures, nicks or comments. i miss 'em all. screw such thinking. -slaps self-
her
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5:14 PM;;
Friday, February 08, 2008
That's our last project. We had a gathering outside RTRC last monday to hand up our final assignment. Which means, i've graduated... I've graduated?! Aw... that's real real real fast. 3 years, just like that. i am so not keen to get to my next birthday because i'll hit 2 already. Anyws, i rem daniel shouting to Sarah, Yann and I when we were in school for the final time on Monday to hand in our 2nd last project. He said, "Hey, it's over!" and we shouted "IT'S OVER!!!" Yeah, it was that loud in school at the middle of Np "Orchard Road". Rather invigorating, actually. But now when i think of school, step into school or meet up w my ech clique, I think of things in terms of "the last time we step into school as a poly np student/ the last time we have lessons as a poly np student/ the last time we hang out in town after school/ the last time we sing kbox...." Sigh. Im such a sentimental ol' fuddy daddy. er, lady. Things are definitely going to change. I still rememberly clearly back in Year 1, when we first got to know who our classmates are. The teacher was saying "well look around. like it or not, these are your classmates for the next 3 years" GOSH. It's like a movie with the caption underneath - 3 Years Later. 3 years just gone by like that. Im going to miss a lot of things.I'm going to miss the feeling of waking up late and hurrying, thinking of what to wear, cabbing to school. I'm going to miss the feeling of reaching school late and sliding into class and gossiping w my mates. Im going to miss buying Honey Red Bubble Tea w pearl & jelly + nuggets w my mates. Im even going to miss presentations w my mates (we've done every presentation really well, havent we? except maybe fer OB...). Im going to miss going out to Vivo during 3 hr lunch breaks or our Friday after-school Vivo days. Im going to miss our hundreds of sleepovers to finish projects. Eeks. I miss so many things already. ..
Above all, i'm going to miss all of you guys. Nique, Sarah, Ange. We've been a clique since year1 and we've learnt to accomodate each other. I can't imagine what poly life would be like w/o you guys. It's been fun bullying nique. HAHA. but as you know, bullying you is our way of showing that we love you! Alicia and Yann. We've been part of a clique but actually only got closer in Year 3. IEP drew us together and now im glad to have you guys, er girls, with us (: There are so many of you wonderful people in ECH too. my dearest same working style girl, syafiqah. Your random notes and smses are really sweet, i'll miss you too! (: Daniel, thanks for always being there to talk and entertain (: Jacob for all my queries about projects and cracks about height (: Ok I can't possibly name everybody. Now why am i sounding like I'm closing a chapter in my life? We'll be going off to be doing different things, i know. But we'll still keep in contact. We'll still meet up and sing kbox, stare at ppl and comment, gossip, drink, mahjong together. Maybe the time spent is lesser but I wldnt want to lose contact. I mean, you guys would sure miss me a lot so you know... ahha :/ We'll all turn out great and there definitely will be a gathering at Ange's wedding! tee-hee. Few years later, Nique might be in Business or rather doing your break lining for ships. Lol. Ange will be a teacher w a family! Alicia might be majoring in Art therapy, Yann your air stewarding? or maybe working alongside Sarah and I, though i have no idea what we will be doing. but Sarah, you'll get a career la dont worry. haha. i forgot our Xiaoxiao. She'll be a tai-tai. lol. Maybe in 5 years time i wld be thinking back on this day and wondering about how 5 years went by that fast. what a creepy thought. Anyw, i've been ranting for so long now. I guess the future holds many surprises for us. It's scary but exciting at the same time. Im sure we'll all turn out great and be friends till the end. I'll miss spending every weekday with you girls :( Let's meet up often and please, take care. I love you guys (: and all the kids that have been taught by us, you taught us alot. ECH has been a great experience and now i need to look fer a new direction. A gap year? NUS? No idea as of now. We'll see. Im thankful to have my family, my boy, my 17385 and many others who have accompanied me thus far. I am so blessed. Love (:
P.S: Send me all the photos we took! I only have this 2 for like, the whole of year 3? Im exaggerating. and i didnt upload mine too. hahs (:
her
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5:53 PM;;
Sunday, February 03, 2008
i'm tired. There are too many smiles on false pretence. Hope things change for the better soon.
her
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8:46 PM;;
Saturday, February 02, 2008
note to self:
don't give up, shirley. i don't know where you've gone to anymore.
her
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6:19 PM;;
