RESULTS out tml. finally i'm feeling e heat. i'm nervous, Scared, worried, afraid, terrified, morrified, feeling e jitters, having butterflies in my stomach, uneasy, n many more other adjectives.

there's error with my Singpass to add on to my worries. i took too long to think of a new password so e pg was expired ydae. den i checked in again today n they keep saying i have e wrong singpass+singpass id. n we have only 5 working days to choose our courses right?! if its still not working tonight, i might have to go down to e counter to do a new one. grr. darn.

please please Dont let me cry in front of everybody tml. pls let me pass all subs. pls let me ged A for English. if i did badly for Eng i wld surely be vvv.sad. where wld i go next?

sigh. wld have regrets tml, no doubt. in fact, i am alr regreting now. even after e papers or while doing e papers. please dont let me cry tml.

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10:30 AM;;

i am so pissed can. i decided to stop procrastinating n look what happens. i bluetoothed all the photos into "Hello!" n aft its all done, e cable wire came loose. n e connection was cut lah, what no live connection. &*%%$#(**&# i counted to 10 n restart my comp cause the Hello! program became v.laggy n the bloggerbot will go"i forgot e name of e file pls send again" GRR...! n this time i even typed in All e captions fer e photos n i accidentally kicked e wires again. n Hello! got retarded as usual. Hell broke loose in me n so far, i dont even have e mood to count from 1 to 3 anymore.

only lucky thing was i saved e blog entry so i shall juz join it in with wadeva i feel like blogging tml, which will be totally out of point becoz i said things like "my hand is so tired now" which wldnt be true as its tired on thur night n not fri night. whatever. *throwing my keyboard into e fishtank beside me* yeah yeah ttz true n i am typing with my hand in e water right this moment. GRR...! like who will understand what i'm saying. like who even reads my blog anyway. *curses*

p/s: of cause e time of this entry is fake. its 3.20am now. GRR...!

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3:59 AM;;

i am such a Procrastinator. now i have so much i need to blog but cant do all at e same time cause it wld be awfully long n there wld be way too mani pictures. these r e fotos when i went back to sch on cheer comp n also a few taken while visiting fer CNY :*)


1 of my fav. teachers, Ms Tham n meee.

Major Chong (pe time!) n muh *dunno i so cheer fer wad*

alvin n me. (out of pt lah but wth, got foto den post loh) friends nia dunch anyhow think pls.

Mr Raj n me (on cloud nine)

gosh, here is nr Sexay again. pardon e darkness.

younger bro, e cutey pie, Guo Xing.

elder bro, e mischievious 1, Guo Ming.

now together, e brothers! (wif my cousin's hand clutching Guo Xing)

my lil nephew, Max. doesnt he look like tt smiley thingy?? when he smiles it really does :*p

ah wells... more photos on my outing with ain plus outing wif bee n e rest soon. :*)

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10:25 AM;;

ydae was okay. forgot 1 impt point :*( i imagined all e couples as frogs making out but forgot about e roses.. so i just pretended not to see them. hahz.. e only roses i received was graphic ones in e form of smses n in msn. better than nothing right? *sour grapes?* hahz.. was supposed to ged a from a pri sch guyfren but ended up not meeting as yin n i felt it wld be awkward if 2 guys tag along.. so it was only 2 two of us frolicking around... bumped into dong n joleen at at mall (bugis). realized how long we've lost contact.. walked ard together but i had to go find e dance studio n dey had to get prezzies for ppl so we parted. cldnt find e dance studio :x guess i wld just hafta go down again tml...

e day b4 this guy from sch msged me. wanted to meet up with me n give me something. rejected at first but he said he was just hoping.. so i thot.. if i cld make his day, y not? (i emphasize, 'm not trying to act nice here) but i wld definitely not want to give any wrong impressions so i told him tt he need not do tt actually or in future n we r just meeting up as friends. were supposed to meet ard 7 but yin n i saw a new manicure shop (Hollywood nails) so we went in. *i urged her to, actually* finally did my much-awaited manicure (sorry ser :*( will do pedicure with u) for only 18bucks.. spent a long time in there thou. yin dint think it was very worth it.. well, perhaps. i think my nails look like fake barbie-doll-ones.


this is how it looks like.. shiny eh?

sorry for digressing. hahaz.. so after our nails were done it was ard 8 alr.. felt guilty as e guy n his fren reached cck alr but we were still in Bugis. Yin still wanted to shop more as she figured it wasnt really our fault that he wanted to meet. i cldnt help e guilt thou, so we got out of Bugis asap. msged my apologies a few times.. and found out that *gasp* they were going to catch the movie with us! n after rejecting my pri sch fren! had no faintest idea that they were joinning us but i cldnt possibly turn them down by saying "sorry, yin n i just want some girl time alone. n thanks for ur gift, u may go now?" we were afraid of things being awkward too. ttz y. oh, it did turn out to be awkward -__________-" i took e seat in e corner :x so only Yin sat beside me then e 2 guys on her side.. (didnt want to mention all these but some irritating person tagged at my tagboard u see, saying that i sld be happy; got 2 guy hands to hold. geez, grow up, will ya?)

saw Enhua, my sista.. n i saw Eddie also, my former gd guyfren. wasnt too glad to see each other. dont know what e heck was wrong with him. darn. aft which, saw Danny. being him, said things like "thot u dont wanna stead.. haiz.." n being me too, i was enraged as i cant stan it when ppl had to think tt guys n girls together = stead. he asked fer patch again. dint respond aft saying no.

walked home with 'em. was v.awkward. yin came over my place.. pretty much all.. maybe going out later so.. adios'

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12:00 PM;;

doesnt we look all healthy n cheery here? definitely 1 of my fav. pics :*)

look more sickly here, but doesnt it have e word fun written all over our faces?

behold! e babes of summer! meaning van n ida of cuz :x n best body award goes to van!

n on to the toilet scenes, mi n aina

me n sweeeeeeyin

still in da toilet, e trio again! van, u do look gorgeous! grrr... how can u look gorgeous in my blog??? haha..

out to e departing place at Sentosa

on e blueline i think..

now at Harbourfront mrt station with best pal van

me in e gadget-size world at Harbourfront Mall :*p dont u realize that all e fotos include me? sue me fer being vain! nah, actually we took fotos wif all our hps n palmtop(ida's) but i only bluetoothed those with me n put it here. if not, y is it called MY blog?

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11:00 AM;;

its VALENTINES day! (at this point in time it is actually 1245, but being me, i will fake e timing)

fer couples, this may seem to be e gosh-perfect-day to celebrate their affection in public. for singletons.... it is a whole diff story altogether. some may choose to stay home n dwell in misery n hide away from e world.. others like urs truly, me, will heck e world n enjoy tml wif a fellow singleton girlfriend :*) (thou i may not even ged a dead rose on this very rosy day *sobs*)

shallnt be bhb but.. have a few ppl asking fer dates. not interested thou.. right now only interested in friendships... have put a gap bwteen myself n guys recently.. as i've realized how childish guys my age n e relationships are. not to say i'm mature or that All are lydat lah(just some,ok,most), cuz i'm still quite childish.. but... really. fer gracious sake, u gotta admit tt alot ppl dont know what love is. once again i emphasize tt i i'm not claiming to know what love is either.

whatever it is, i'm just gonna imagine tt all e couples are simply frogs (or any weird creature tt comes to mind) making out :*) n just have a good laugh out of it. then enjoy e day with my sweeyin. (did i say MY sweeyin? haha.. i mean my gdfren sweeyin) perhaps go chong yi chong myself lyke ged my much-awaited manicure or shop fer clothes... anywae, i'm going down to bugis to check out e hip-hop class at e dance studio.. 120bucks fer 7lessons.. hmm.. kk.. lastly,

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

p/s: i watched "a cinderella story" today. cried. its a pretty nice chick flick :*) Trent Ford rocks my world :*p oh n... thou i might appear so nonchalant bout this day, it doesnt mean that i am 100% happy bout it :*( its quite a dreaded day. i shall thus call it Dalentines Day :x

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3:58 PM;;

grr... dont know y e photos that i want to upload is a diff type of file.. bitmap or sumtin n cldnt be uploaded. grrr... rented 2 vcds today: A cinderella story n Slap her, she's French. watched e 2nd one todae. n..... EEEEEEEE! Trent Ford is SUPER GORGEOUS! went on e net to find out more bout him n found out tt he acted in "How to deal" as well. ttz y he looked so familiar! oh, Smallville too!!! he's soooo charming! n has tt smug one-sided smile! (simply adore guys hu can pull off tt look. wonbin can too) EEEEE! n i cant upload e pics here! arg! nvm, i will find back e link first. hmmph~
http://fan-sites.org/trent-ford/gallery/thumbnails.php?album=38
*gosh* hahz.. *fantasizing*. in chinese they call it "hua chi" (i never understood y. flower eat?!) right? aw... oh n keep seeing this guy at e cck mrt. 3 times alr. he looks lyke Trent Ford but is e Asian version. a bit malay/chi. *sighs* eeyer... cant stand myself alr. have some pics (sentosa, gathering in bvss fer cheer comp n new year) to put here but still havent figured out how to upload all in a single entry...

till then, ciaoz' *gush! Trent Ford!*

giggling like a crazy fool,
~*ShiR_*~

p/s: forgot to add.. new year was great i think :*) frenz came my hse bai nian n vice versa. played blackjack wif em on my bed :x n won 7bucks. not bad lar huh? *smiles*

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3:58 PM;;

e drinks stand.

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3:58 PM;;

close up of bee's drink n mine.

e other dae i went to jurong west wif bee to ged my quilt set.. my old hse was in jurong west.. back den i'm just a puny li'l kid hu doesnt noe how to tok much :x its those old places wherby dey still have e old-fashioned medical halls tt sells herbal drinks at only 50cents. used to lurve it wen i was a kiddo. u just give e person e $ n dey'll pour u a cup. those glass-type mugs actually. feeling so nostalgic, i convinced Bee to drink a cup wif me. i drank e ju hua while bee, e luo han guo. it tasted really gd (real hot still *sigh*) n i felt lyke a li'l kiddo once again. said my thanks to e granny n walked off happily :*) -missing those times-

p/s: i'm still trying to learn how to put more than 1 foto in 1 entry. if not i'll hafta post many entries just fer my fotos. anybody know how? :*(

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3:57 AM;;

irritating. i'm so sick of ur i-am-always-in-e-right n i-am-oh-so-mature-unlike-u attitude.

actually these few days were pretty nice. e gathering in sch todae was gd, but e school is so stupid. initialli, they wldnt allow us to enter e school cuz of tinted hair. then they let us in. aft which, dey wldnt let us watch e cheers n tt we can only go up e hall area after it. u think we just go back to breathe e air there? missed bee's n everyone else's cheers. frankly, there wasnt much spirit in e competition. last yr was still e best so far man. teachers r telling us that :*)

then went kbox. go krazy wif chenmin, bee n yin. left in e evening. e place wuz like desserted. i rushed home. went to cousin's place fer reunion dinner. played wif e kiddos n such. tired.

lazy to go into detail. so much stuff undone. happy new year peeps!

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2:30 PM;;

i am so fucking upset n irritated.

whatever i do will never please my brother. i was so freaking right about my hunch tt sumhow sumtin was wrong. i checked with e freaking auntie in e freaking shop n but all she had fer e quilt cover set w/o e mattress thingy inside wuz all cartoons. doreamon n such. n its lyke 69 n above. what he told mi wuz lyke 50. u cant xpect mi to ged e cartoon pattern fer 70bucks right?! so i went to e other shop. asked eve dey had e whole set. even asked bee fer e chinese translation fer quilt. so i asked e auntie eve dey had e quilt cover n all. n she said fer e queen size derez onli e 4 left. n i saw e blue design my Brother was talking about. even called him for confirmation. aft gettin e final nod, literally, i bought e set. n even got it fer a dollar n ninety cheaper. bee was telling mi "wa later he sae u grow up liao can get things urself n all" RIGHT. i wish. or wished.

turns out tt idiotic me got e wrong thing after all. right, so what if it was a steal? or what if i have never bought q quilt cover set b4 so i now nuttin? so what if i brought it home all by myself? so what if i went to e exact place n asked everything? i dont deserve any credit at all of cause. (if he gave me any, i wldnt feel so ^%$$&^ n quarrelled till e end as i wld feel freaking guilty n apologise as he cld understand my predicament) he said he made it idiot proof n wasted a lot of efforts n i still got it wrong. n i dint mutter any apologies. so what if i appear to be guilty? (or izzit u think tt my acting skills r tt great?) or said things like "oh yea hor i never thot of tt. hai i just knew i bought e wrong thing. my gut instinct was right." no all that doesnt matter. because ultimately he is e 100% right one in e quarrel just because it all comes down to this -i dint apologise. n that i am worse than an idiot. as quoted "even a 3-yr-old wld possibly ged it right" so i am even worse than tt. screw e guy hu thot i wuz 21 cause my mentality has not surpassed a 3-yr-old.

i bet u wld never understand just how great it felt for ur brother to tell u that. its so great i'm overwhelmed with water spilling all out my eyes. mind u, dey r definitely tears of happiness.

so What cld i have done? not buy n end up gettin into e same quarrel because i had to buy todae? or buy e cartoon one tt costed 69bucks? i bet fishes, doraemon n snow white wld look great on my bed. or go to e other shop n buy e single sized set instead of e queen one? it wld all result e same way. n what do u want me to do now? it doesnt matter at all tt my pride has been hurt too of cuz. in my fit of anger n da midst of e argument, i Should have said things like "oh... i'm sorry then" n look glum n apologetic n vow to make amends from now on. that cld have saved everything isnt it?

whatever i do has never pleased u. u're always e smart ass, morally upright n all whereas i wld always be e worse-than-idiot idiot with e mentality of a 3-yr-old or worse. so blame me if i'm dumb or perhaps as what u said to mom, "y did u have to give birth to sum1 like that?" i'm not exactly sure of e exact phrase but its sumwhat along tt line. or wadever. because ultimately i wld still be wrong no matter what u say next.

so blame me, i'm like that. d-u-m-b. or is it that u have done that too as well? nvm, it wld happen again. or why not dont judge me like i'm an express kid(as quoted) or dont even put any hope in me at all? i dont think i want to try my best to please u again cause i never will be able to. better? Thanks fer being so aware of my feelings brother.

n now i hafta step back n let u use e comp because u want to. again. n i wld wait till u're done in e middle of e nite n use when every1's asleep.. den ged scolding from u n mom n dad fer using comp late in e nite. aint i fortunate?

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3:50 AM;;

yawns. tired. back from work (today was Standard Chartered card. gold n Manhattan.) ard 12plus. hope that its my last day with that company man.

can u believe it? asked to go to e washroom also kena. ching heard them talking behind our backs saying things like "go sumore we dock pay alr" what rubbish. DOCK lar! i go 5 mins, let u dock 50cents loh, happy? satisfied? huh huh huh? *roll eyes* everytime understate pay den eat my breaks still like that!!! grr... *i'm so pissed i'm chewing on my keyboard* sumore take away my breaks is per hr kind. everyday minus an hr still dont give break!!! lao yao guai!!!

i shall calm down. 1...2...3... *breathe in.... breathe out.... PUSH!* (er wrong, i mean push out all e bad thots, in with the positive ones lar what r u thinking?)

yea, so u ged my drift. i hope to have nothing more to do with e company immediately. if not sooner. *praying on my knees now* (riiight. as if. can u just imagine me kneeling on e ground n trying to type? i wld be better off typing with my toes)

just a few slight changes in my plan... i went to sentosa wif yin, ida n van. stayed over at yin's n went back thur nite. fri i went sp. sat still work. tml no work :*) stayed at yin's was because.. well, saw somebody n was a lil scared n dint want to go back by myself... he wanted to meet but i insisted on saying "no". from e way i see it, there's really nothing much for us to talk about. right??

dont know why i still feel so messed up when there's absolutely nothing for me to stare blankly about. *shrugs* its like 4am in e morning alr. (nevertheless i wld fake my date n time fer this entry) think i sld ged under the covers now. ciao'

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3:57 PM;;

-be prepared fer a looong entry-

wows... my plans fer these few days r realli gd :*) so far i can onli rem from last sat...

sat-out shoppin wif bee n ser in town. (took neoprints n bought some clothes *bigsmiles*
sun-went out wif family to purchase new hp (6230) den to Mambo in timah wif ida fer pool n den slacked ard lot1. rented a vcd (my girl). wuz veri nice. sad thou.
mon-out wif ser n ching (citylink, suntec). shopped a bit n went fer dinner at Newton. tricia's treat fer gd performance at work. :x
tue(today)- out to town wif yin n later fer jam fest (dance n song items) at NTU.

as fer tml onwards:

wed- sentosa wif girlpals van n yin fer tanning.
thur- SP openhse wif ching n ser i guess?
fri- slacked-at-home day n also preparing-myself-for-work day
sat- work at taka
sun- work at taka.
mon- pedicure n shop in town i suppose.
tue- back to school, sweet school fer cheer comp.

sounds gd? hope it is *prays*

okie, i shall elaborate a lil on today (tue). Smart me decided to wear my heels to town. lil pinkie(toe of cuz, duh, u thot hand?) n sides hurt thruout. but i guess it made mi look mature, as what yin said *hyuk hyuk hyuk* which reminded mi of this funny incident:

i wuz at BK in cineleisure fer lunch. e machine wuz spoilt so we hafta wait fer e fries. n i noticed this guy stealing glances at me. *okie, i'm not trying to be bhb here* wuz munching happily on my fish burger, a guy in a SUIT came over n gave mi a... NAMECARD. **i thot he was e BK manager n wanted to tell mi "sorry ma'am, u cant have fries today. care fer a pie instead?"**

BUT.

man no.1: hi! my friend over there in e striped shirt wld like to know u. tis' his namecard.

**he thrusts e namecard to me**stripedshirtman no.2 came over**

man no.2: hi! nice to know u! i'm derek, u r? sorry my frens' juz playing... yea... but can i have ur no.?

me: er... i'm only 17? ( n thot wuz just his fren playing? )
***u noe wad e friggin' problem is??? they're in SUITS! n dey looked at least 22 (24 as yin said) n dey r giving NAMECARDS??? tis is really new as guys hu want to noe mi juz ask fer contact n hu mightn even noe wad a NAMECARD is. perhaps a thing wif NAME n their PARENTS' company name? but 1 wif their own company??!***

man no.2/derek: er.. so cannot be friends? (while giving me e incredulous look tt goes 17-cannot-be-frens-meh)

**n so i shrugged n gave him my number. since he insisted. :x **

den he msged mi. i didnt really want to reply but i wanted to ged my point across to him again as i dun tink he got it. he asked mi wad institution i'm in. n once again i said. "erm, I AM BARELY 17 n am currrently waiting fer my o lvl results"

with this, yin observed his reaction. as predicted, his eyes went BIG n his head went forward n stared at e luminous of his hp.

BWAHAHAHAHA...!!!

he thot tt i wuz 20-21 n wuz really shocked (yes i do believe him on tt). n said i looked mature(beautiful) fer my age. wif age doesnt necessary comes wisdom. since when did MATURE = BEAUTIFUL?) n maybe cuz of e fact tt i'm tall, he was oh so mistaken.

WeeEEeeee! he said tt i'm TALL! ttz a FIRST fer miz!!! (but sadly, i noe its just e illusion my heels caused) needless to say, i stopped replying his smses. its startin to be quite a trend fer muh.

i shall digress. i went to annex to ged yin's opinion on a handbag which i quite liked. e black one's out of stk n derez onli pink left. Pink is lyke so "lian" n "act cute" :x its too long fer my petite size too. n most of all, e salesperson's attitude suc*ed. big time. n ended up i dint purchase it. Miss Handbag! wher r u? i still need to ged 1 desperately. hope tt i can ged it on mondae when i go fer my pedicure.

aft which i went to e Jam Fest at NTU. xiaohan's dance wuz realli gd but it wuz e onli dance. :*( e other bands (just singing) just gott better n better towards e end! makes mi so interested in University life. *sighs* got home aft 12 actually but will fake a timing fer this entry :*p

okie, this has been a really long entry so i shall stop alr. haha... kip thinking of tt guy in e suit.. fwahahahaha... *faints*

p/s: this song by Natalie Imbruglia called "Torn" keeps goin on in my mind cause a girl in one of e bands sang it earlier. its nice :*) dere were lotsa other old songs lyke "Zombie" n "zi you" too. kk. *waves*

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3:59 AM;;

wa! huiching go n blog e silly conversation bout e butterflee n ciaoz tingy n make mi look so PETTY n childish! *thou i am a lil childish but hey! dont need xuan bu to every1 mah!* ended up u lyke so wei da :*((((

"Well...sorrie shir,i dunoe u use *Butterflee* mahz...e most i dun use lor.Still frens?Merger? "

!!!

LEONG HUI CHING I HATE U!!! (riiight)

i gott tell u at msn i'm lyke sae "wan wan" only loh.. i also got tell u "of cuz playing lar e ciaoz so mani ppl use" n i thot wuz realli from mi mahz, told u to pardon mi eve i'm wrong ler.. cuz i got e butterflee from a childish game i played.. e name wuz dragonflee or sumtin so i started calling butterfly as butterflee.. *pai seh leh*

okie, i shall appear magnanimous now. okie lah, i dun use butterflee anymore, u use kie? fren fren again? *smiles*

***NOTICE***

all those above r totally rubbish. (well, 85%) i just wanted to let my gd fren chingy ged a taste of these n also be lame right back. i still love u, wun worry. :x n all these just proved that i'm really childish. well, we r all v.young at heart, no? :*p

this is a read-n-forget entry. really.

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