be ready fer my ramblings.
im really so stressed i cant take it anymore :*( first time being like that.
my learning corners are only halfway done, my lessons not planned and sent to my supervisor and mentor. my
supervision w field supervisor is on fri. supposed to be
supervised by mentor tue and have my
learning corners set up by monday so the kids know how to use it. but my things are so not ready yet that i broke down n cry :*( i dont do well w
stress. i usually have a plan and follow it so i dont stress. stressed so hard i got a throbbing headache and went to the doctor's just now and skipped attachment. i thought, at least i cld skip today and finish my work. no choice but got to skip training this week (except fer thurs) as well. now i have to go training everyday cause of the full rehearsal of which item i havent really learnt.
calm down, Shirley. i shall
try not to stress again. but it's kind of hard. i just feel like shouting out obscenities and go to sleep after that. wasnt disciplined enough this time. bad Shirley. did not expect a performance to sprout out from nowhere but im not going to give up that. will not give up my studies too. i just got to find a balance and think w a clear mind. i mean,
i can do it. (
right?)im sorry i dont have time fer anything else now besides my work and training. my mind's exploding already, be careful not to step on a piece of it if you happen to stumble on it on your way home.
