:*( i'm gettin' rather sick of e kind of life i've been leading recently.

not doing much xcept go to places like lot 1 n such. i juz feel like i'm rotting away at home. cant stan being cooped up at home with nothing else to do besides watchin tv, using comp, reading novels or chatting. n there is only so much i can cook till i get bored too. e way i figure it? i've spent more(far more) than enuff Quality time with myself.

i dont noe whats e problem. or maybe i do. i have friends, yea of cuz i do. they're either in jc or rp or workin or dont like sports what-nots. i want to go out n have fun! no malls, they're sucha bore. so here's e problem. i cant seem to get anybody(suitable) or any thing(suitable) to do out.

n what i myself don understand is tt... i seem to shut out certain(well, most?) ppl recently. like everybody(most of 'em) seems to be rubbing me e wrong way! certain things they say or such turns on my "i-dislike-u-radar"; even those who r trying to get into my gd graces.

i feel so bad :*( so mean :*( n i so do not want to diss ppl like tt *esp in times like this wen i need a friend(well, some) to go out with me n all*

or maybe i'm juz too hard to please. But i wasnt like tt in e past? not as xtreme as i am now but still, i wasnt this way. :*(

i make myself seem, n feel so pathetic like there's nothing to do n i have no friend n all but when ppl ask me out or talk to me, i reject and tune 'em out again. i tell u, pretty soon imma gonna turn everyone off.

sigh~ what a walking contradiction. *:(

- feels like i've got so much more on my chest tt are begging to be let out yet i cant even seem to xpress myself in simple terms. argh!


p.s: those who dont really like me can now point ur index fingers at me n go "yes! hahaha! u're not happy now! i am SO happy!" yes yes, i'm turning into a sadist.

her
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2:58 PM;;

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then - in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life - was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

Edgar Allan Poe

her
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2:55 PM;;

-edited on tuesday. mon after midnight actually. juz added some stuff i fergot to mention, right at e bottom. juz scroll down kae? or u can choose not to. u can choose not to even read at all. really.-

actually its not really 'cause i've decided to stop procrastinating. not entirely tt. its just that, (coincidentally), there's absolutely nuttin fer mi to do, at home, on e net etc etc n also nuttin worthwhile on tv fer mi to watch. no new junk food fer mi to munch on on e couch either. nothing. nought. zilch. nada. zero! so conveniently, i'm here to stop procrastinating n blog bout last Friday, which is actually 3 days back.

went to town with Ain dearest. we wanted to go rock climbing or East Coast or some sort instead of rotting in e same old malls but it was too late fer those n i thot if we planned earlier n had more ppl, it wld be more fun (funnier? :x) so off we went to town~

e day started out quite well...


i looked nicer in another photo (ain said so x)) but ain deleted it cuz she dint like how she looked. haha. anyhow, i look weird. think its my new n shorter fringe? whatever. who cares?

we window-shopped :x, *i seem to have forgotten all e details. tts e bad part of putting things off. oh well* talked n so on. it was quite a productive window-shopping thou *i know u're wondering how productive it can be cuz its window-shopping but it can* saw some potential bags i might want to ged fer school. but i felt quite proud of myself tt day 'coz i wasnt buying on impulse (like what i always do). i put 'em all on my mind n told myself to sit down n think thru carefully b4 acquiring anything.

remember me mentioning tt e day started out quite well? in between it got bad. i think it was cuz of this $&#^%*$^&%&)($%&$&# *curse n swear* uncle.

he came to us holding out this badge thingy (like those officers or wad to prove their identity) n asked if we noe bout wad CIP or wadeva crap. acted like he's one of those officers juz taking surveys from youngsters to help out n such. he stood in front of us, n cut us abruptly, in a way wherby we cld not help but stop. he started off by asking if we smoke n all n den "Congratulations u dont!!" n shook our hands. n e similar things went on like "Are ur parents divorced? no? Congrats! u live in a normal family!!!" n shook our hands. Ain was like smiling while i was lookin uncertain so he went on with e hand-shaking n thanked Ain fer her Beautiful Smile fer him n me, fer being Pretty. asked fer our e-mails n sirnames *we figured we werent gonna get tricked into paying or wad cuz its juz e-mail so wth n anyway, he wasnt give us any leeway to NOT do what he wants us to. u wont understand cuz u have to be dere*

he spoke really really fast n u have to take an xtra moment to digest whatever he's saying. den he thrusted some Merlion badge thing to us each n talked bout foreigners having to buy it fer $9.90 but DONT WORRY, he's not asking tt of us. at tt instant, we were feelings a li'l confused at whats actually going on. btw, we were juz done with writing down our e-mails n i stared at tt piece of paper. n saw sumtin like "e sales person will get $2 out of every..." n i was in a state of, u might say, shock.

it really came as a shock when e guy stopped talking n said "ok, FIVE DOLLARS each" he wasn't like "5dollars please" or those other normal salesperson "donate lah.. 5dollars only.. can lar.. u 2 share lah..." NONONONONO! he was "FIVE DOLLARS EACH". no please, no nothing. n he had e AUDACIY to look at us expectantly. he also wasnt any like e normal salesperson wherby u cld try n walk away. sumhow, he was like Forcing us to give him our money n wont let us go if we dont give it to him. *really u wldnt understand... like my dad? u wld all think, juz walk away lah. but he's like THERE n we were these 2 shocked l'il girls*

so we gave him e money n walked away, dumbfounded. ppl ard us were like giving us "THE LOOK". we were in e mrt area at Taka sumore. we felt SO CHEATED. i mean u wld sae "5bucks only what". e thing is not bout e money, *well maybe a li'l BUT*, its bout being Cheated. after crapping so much, we had no idea WHAT we were donating fer! OR IS IT NOT EVEN A DONATION?! n i bet tt badge/id thingy was fake or totally irrelevant!

at first we really thot its some Voluntary work thingy. like do social work lah. maybe a grp of Teens go help out ppl or wad. n juz not sure y ppl ard us kept giving us "THE LOOK". we so wanted to complaint to e Mrt personnels becuz we were sure they are not supposed to do tt in mrt areas but yea, its juz 5dollars so we let e FREAK getaway. *i shudder when i think of him going on to 20dollars or such* aft tt i was thinking i sld have said i have no money on me or sumtin but we were really too flabbergusted to think lah can?! *u really wldnt understand...*

i used to get those donation-ppl cuming to me n asking mi to donate but i have never felt so cheated. after my job as a credit card promoter(cuz i c e diff ways ppl ignore/reject me?), i have learnt how to reject these ppl. i noe how to walk away n/or snub them just e right way or juz smile n say a polite "thanks but nah" to those who appear nice. BUT tt %*$^%(*&^*%$$ UNCLE! i was so pissed at myself n him. but really.

i'm even too pissed at him to take a picture of tt *darn* Merlion thing n post it here.

n tts what turned our day into a dark one. we were restless n unhappy. went to Delifrance n e service was REALLY slow tt day. they dint even have e garlic bread fer my soup *ran out of it so gave me a plain bread. pointless, i wld say* but after our meal we got into a better mood cuz we played wif e food :X. Ain cld sumhow turn her leftovers into a butterfly. talk bout TALENT. haha. no lah, we did it together. we both have TALENT. *smirks* hahaha. i am so Deluded.

while playing, i thot bout all e stuff i've seen n contemplated on what to buy, finally settling on a bikini top at NewUrbanMale. hahz. half e store is fer males while e other fer females lah *what were u thinking?* its onli 15bucks anyway. e matching shorts costed 30bucks. dint geddit so i wonder what i'm gonna match e top with. something is disturbing me. hahz. e tag on it was "bra top". found out last night n was like "wth?!" but i guess they juz call it tt thou its obviously a bikini? i mean, juz look at e store. its so "beach-y". y wld dey sell lingerie in dere? e rest of e stuffs r all swimsuits n all..... *but a nagging thot keeps reminding me "can u imagine if u were actually buying a bra? tts y e man in e shop acted weirdly"* but i think i'm being paranoid. i'm always paranoid anyway *shrugs* but yea, e store consisted of only Men really. n they really acted weirdly. *Ain said they r potential sissies(plural fer sissy?)* well-built n gd-lookin sissies i might say. lol.

fergot what else happened tt day lahs but i managed to have a nice day (no thanks to e &^%$%$$Uncle) on e way back... *ard 9/10 if i'm not wrong. to think i wanted to be home really early cuz my kor's booking out n i haven seen him fer quite some time. but its still considered early as compared to e time i normally go home :x*


waitin fer e train... lalalalaa dodododoo~


what were we thinking?!

juz realized most of my entry is bout e stupid Uncle(btw, Ain was cursing e uncle all tt day). grr.. cldnt help it. all e stuff juz flowed out like that *snap fingers* nono, sld be *types furiously* ok nvm. :*l

since this entry is bout going out with Ain, i might as well mention my Hiphop classes since i take' 'em with her n Von.


my ex-dance studio. sobs :*( tts ain's hands btw.

yup, had my last class 2 wks back. time really flies.... *look dazed fer a moment* hmm~ learnt quite some stuff dere but i have forgotten almost Everything. such a waste of $ right?! if onli i had a Camcorder or sth i cld have recorded it down. but nvm, i'm sure it will help mi groove to e music some day :*p


found this in my images so wth, i sent in in too. taken on dunno-what-day.
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1 other foto i took with Ain. i think its our next-to-last HipHop lesson n we were waiting fer e train while listening to her mp3 or sth.

ok i'm almost done *smiles happily* actually i'm not all that happy :*(

'cuz i want to go out. i want to go Sentosa. i want to go swimming. i want to go East Coast n cycle/rollerblade. i want to have fun. i dont want to be cooped up at home with nuttin to do besides eating junk food on e couch, reading novels, watchin tv, blogging or chattin on e net. i wan to 'njoy e rest of my short holiday left b4 sch starts. but i aint got a friend to do it with......

*sigh* its not tt i dont want to go out with or am discriminating my outside or not-so-close frens, but i hate awkward moments n am afraid tt it wldnt be fun or as crazy with 'em. *u think i'd rather stay home n rot?* hell no, i'd rather go out with anybody. but no, i hate awkward moments! *Look left, under my dislikes. go ahead, i urge u to. or even under my profile in frenstar. -i juz realized its not under my blog hates. gonna add tt in soon but go check my frenstar lah. i tink i wrote bout it dere. i really think so-*

hai~ my other friends are either 1)in jc, or 2)in rp, or 3)still in sec sch or 4)working or 5)doesnt do sports n stuff. tell me, am i going to rot at home staring at e LuoHan beside me everyday? n no. please dont tell me to go out alone. i'm not one of those ppl. i cant stand being alone; *check under my dislikes again* there's nobody to talk to, luff with, or share thoughts with. i feel pathetic n friend-less when i eat alone (tts what i really hate to do; EAT ALONE) or walk ard w/o a fren. a shadow just doesnt qualify as a friend u know? oh n when i eat alone, ppl ard me tend to all be couples n grps of frens anyway. do u know how alone tt feels? huh? do u do u do u?! i wld juz end up yakking on my hp all day n look equally pathetic.

this blog is finally feeling like a real diary to me. i'm talking bout my insecurities? or is it just letting out what i'm thinking all these while? wth, i dont care, but it feels rather gd to let it off my chest. that's it. too much fer a day.


ps: i bet u can tell tt i'm trying different colors fer my text n it turned out drastically... worst. i am so bad at colors. i shall stick to my normal colors e next entry onwards. really. i think.


(lazy to color)
fergot to mention, i got to know this weird guy when i went out with Ain. name's Chris. yea, he's really weird. like e way he talks n stuff. looks too? hmm~ but yea, we went to Sports Connection cuz Ain wanted to check out tents den he juz kept on talking to me. a lot qns n all. when Ain was on e fone he kept askin fer my no. but i was like "er, dont need lah". Ain wasnt of any help cuz she thot i was helping her bargian -_________-" n when she put down e fone n it dawned on her tt e guy wanted my number, she juz blurted it all out. so... yea *Shrugs* (btw e guy was like.. u going poly right? *he knew this from e many qns he threw at me* also will make frens mah den now also making fren same what..) he called me tt night anyway. i made some silly xcuse n put down e fone. my bad.

yea, n since i'm on this topic, i got to noe another guy from kbox. i know what u're thinking but no, i dint give my no. to him. somebody else did. or so i thought. said he's Q.F's fren n all so i figured qf kept my no. w/o asking me. den ydae qf msged me n i was sayin y dint he ask i n such but he was really confused. said he dint n was like "wtf. tt idiot take my hp n steal number" oh well, aft knowing this, i felt a li'l disgusted with e new guy, lets call him wh. i mean, juz taking a no. w/o asking is so stealing n wrong n he even led me to think he Asked fer my no. confronted him lahs n he was kinda shocked i asked him tt so he seemed really messy(u noe like not sure what to say n such). den sae he get from another guy called steven which i dont even noe hu. n said he tink steven Asked from qf. bah! n whats worse, qn said he saw my foto in his hp. i mean, wth is MY foto doing in HIS hp? swimming? i dint even sent him my picture. think he dl from frenstar or wad. a li'l sick, no? oh crap. nw i'm afraid he wld c all these i typed out. heck. yea anyway i'm not really replyin him alr so *shrugs*

tts e problem with blogs. bah~!

her
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9:02 AM;;

guess what? i came in here n i..... DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING! whoopeedee whoopeedoo! i shall blog tml or sumtin! btw, i'm in Sports Camp e White-Tee-Shirt grp! crap. ok, i shall blog another day! whoopeewhoopeewhoopeedee, whoopeewhoopeewhoopeedoo. <--*dont even think tt that's easy to type. its not. so lenghty. hahz.*

anyway its 3am now. n my korkor is slpin at home. n e luohan beside mi is still swimming. this is gettin' ridiculous. bubbye!

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2:57 PM;;

wahahahaha! isnt tt cute? hahaha.. dont say no *giggles nervously* lol. i mean e baby :x its funny right? same angle tilte, same xpression, eyebags... realized tt if onli i bit back my lips, wore blue contact lens n face front a li'l bit more it wld be even more alike. wahahaha

pardon e light n stuff on e picture of e baby. u have to understand how hard it was to take tt foto when its in a supermarket wif ppl walking here n dere. tt poster was situated near e cashier sumore n tt cashier is a cute malay guy. haha. Ching was like "wa lau e guy dere loh" n she even thot it was embarrassing to TAKE e picture. so how embarrassing do u think it was to actually be e one POSING fer e picture? but it turned out quite well actually, n we only took it ONCE. *beams proudly* man i'm easily pleased. lol.

ok now tt e picture has gotten ur attention, i'm going to go on with e less interesting details of my life. er, day. went out with Ching today *like duh* she accompanied me to Sunshine place to get MY x-ray result n also JONATHAN's. bleah.

he said he's rather busy these days n all so ask mi to help. contacted him after i have gotten his document n he was..... at home! my my, busy man huh? :x he wanted to get it from me (how i wish i cld give it to him. a punch i mean) wen we go back to lot1 so i have to call him again. got to lot 1 n he fergot bout me (!) n went back alr. said person wanted to ged it from me after i go causeway pt so ok I will contact HIM AGAIN. got back from der, contacted him a few times but to no avail. guess when he called me back? few hrs after i got home. n he was like "y u sound so pissed? (i was like duh) i tml not free den.. haiya i think i get it from u on e 1st day of sch or wad loh." ^%#$*^%&*$#@ *curse curse swear swear* u mean i have to bring it out? to sch sumore? grr... ok perhaps u wont understand y i dont realli want to bring it ard.


no, its not e whole thing. tts just e sticker on e document

-SHEESH! only after viewing my blog entry did i realize tt MY hp number was so obvious on e sticker n i posted it on e net juz like tt. dumb of me. *slaps forehead* n i had to edit e picture (crossing out my ic no. as well), repost 'em from Hello!, re-blog. e only thing i can be glad fer is tt i can copy+paste e text. but fer e bold-ing, italic-ing, coloring n spacing btween paragraphs, i have to re-do 'em, try n ged e same colors again. so much time spent on this entry man.-edited on tuesday


this is e actual size... cant c how big it actually is?


fret not, tis' e size when compared to me bearbear


what? u still think e size is ok? u noe how big e bear is? compare it to e apple on its head. go ahead. its like e size of e nose. imagine an apple e size of e head. imagine it being squashed into a sheet. imagine u carrying it ard? haha. i shall stop my nonsense

but wait. u juz think lah, my petite size, carrying that... THAT! ok i'm making a big fuss over nothing. haha...

i'm digressing. actually i'm digressing away from what i was actually digressing away from. er. i mean, i was tokin bout going out with Ching right n i digressed n talked bout e x-ray tingy. den i digressed n went on to photos n my MeToYou bear. geddit? uh, ferget it. maybe u can spend e time counting e no. of times i mentioned e word "digress" instead. *dont go smart on me. i mean all forms of e word, be it adjective or verb etc etc"

as i was saying b4 i was rudely interrupted, oh i wasnt? *roll eyes* i even fergot what i was toking bout. let mi juz scroll up..... oh yea, so aft gettin my x-ray thingy, Ching n i went to eat. love e Kway Chup dere. *slllurrrpps* e iced holicks not cold wan. here i go again... hahz.. den we went to cut our hair. trim actually. after which we went Causeway pt...

shopped a bit... i bought a bag from Espirit... hmm.. 1 side of e bag is like er, cute. too cute in fact. e other is stripes. *dont noe y i'm so into s/t/r/i/p/e/s suddenly. ever since.. i wanted a striped skirt.. have a picture of it, but nxt time. heex...* bought a striped top too. a li'l too big fer mi but wth. dont noe what i spent on lah, juz noe i spent quite some money.

cooked my own dindin *act cute* today. btw dindin = dinner. :x


Macaroni + Baked Potatoes with Cheddar and Bacon bits :*) ok i noe e picture doesnt look really appetizing but it is, sompa!

i cheated. used e sauce from those canned ones. Campbell's i think. so i only actually boiled e macaroni n heat e sauce n cook 'em together. lol. *u guys sldnt be knowing tt so pls, now ferget it n think tt i'm a really gd cook*

hmm...

yet another picture of me :x took this i think last wk.. in a cabin of e train, on e way to j.e fer my x-ray. with jonathan's phone? :XXX curse tt strand of hair sticking out under my left ear

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ok i'm done :*) brother coming back soon. 2 more days to be exact. 3 if u consider e day he'll be back.

oh, n i'm okay over e FSV issue (previous entry) alr i guess.. decided i prefer ECH... n wld rather stick to it than change.. a bit wasted thou but.. who cares. n i'm so not going to care about those ppl who think nothing of my course. e ppl tt go "HAHA. funny course. y u go tt course? y u even choose it? ur results not gd meh?" i wld emphasize again tt i chose it cuz i like kids n stuff n i put it as my 4th choice. n i actually did better than most of u guys (who think my course is crap) fer e Os. wont bother or mention this again after this time.


p.s: heard + saw Jesse McCartney's latest song/mtv on yahoo launch. titled She's No You. not bad. *nods* not bad at all. rem i saw Mtv channel on TRL they featured (do u sae featured fer tv?) Jesse McCartney. he went on Locker-raiding (e actual show is room raider wherby a guy *fer example* raids 3 rooms of 3 girls n eliminate 2 of 'em by their lockers, w/o knowing which room belongs to which girl) of 3 girls from a certain HighSchool. den e locker he chose wld be e winner. e girl actually. she wld be in Jesse McCartney's next video so i guess it was her i saw in it. lucky girl. Jesse kizzed her. lol. *dont u think tt Jesse resembles *gush* Aaron Carter? but e former is not as cute/boyish i think :x too white? but still, cute.* ~i dont wan another pretty face, i dont wan just any1 to hold~~~

pps: i know, my p.s is so long right? tsk tsk *wags finger* hao3 lah, zai jian! take care! ...

her
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2:57 PM;;

i'm in a state of shock now. crap. received a call tt was way too sudden fer my brain to digest. apparently somebody from NP called n asked if i'm still keen in film, sound and video. all along i wasnt sure btween this n Ech. den she called n asked. so i was like asking her if its possible fer mi to switch over cuz i;m in Ech alr. but she took it e wrong way n thot i was juz sure i'm more keen in Ech. she was like:

NPlady: oh so i think u're more keen in Ech i guess. juz wanted to check because fer some others they're like die die want go FSV.

me: oh.. cuz i'm not veri sure yet.. as i'm in Ech thru jae alr. like do i need to do anitin? or can i juz switch over?

NPlady: u're still not sure ar.. so i think u're not tt interested in FSV.. yea, i juz wanted to check lah so i can give e seat to some other ppl who wants it more. ok thank you!


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in a state of shock. i gave away my "might-be" seat away juz *snaps fingers* like that! to think i did e written test, interview n all?! i dint even think properly. cuz i was afraid if i tell her "yea if given a chance i wld definitely want e course" n i wld ged de course.. but ultimately i give it up n choose ECH n i wld take away somebody elses' chance. i sld have been more selfish. n saved tt seat fer myself! think thru carefully n if ultimately i still wan Ech i can still give it away! they learn media law right? i like it? these's film? yea i do! sound? of cuz! omg.. what have i juz done. i need to bang my head against e wall right now if u'll xcuse fer a minute. thanks.

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5:54 AM;;

wells.. been so lazy to blog x) now conferencing.. hmm.. went to pick mom up *sounds like i drive den pick her up right? haha. ok not funny * after work (not i work, is her) since my dad not fetching her tonight. accompany her home loh :*) den got home, mopped e floor and such.. nothing much.. hahz.. what a meaningless entry.

kor called juz now. oh dint mention e other time.. his hp was stolen soon after he was enlisted. helped him call up m1 n suspend e line fer 2 wks so there's e tiny flicker of hope tt he may ged back his hp n continue e line. otherwise, it will terminate after 2 wks. yup... so he can onli use public fone or borrow from his frens to call back... but now it got worse cuz apparently after reporting, e officers were like telling every1 if nobody owns up, all of 'em are gonna stay behind on e 22nd. wont be able to book out. so everyone is kinda pissed at him alr. pls lor?! its not my bro's fault can???! its e culprit! den now it got worse cuz e officers checked everybodys' stuff n confiscated all e handphones. so nobody has a hp now. they'll only get 'em back at e end of e 2wks. every1 will hafta use public fones n stuff. sth like tt.

i'm juz afraid e others who r pissed at him will sabotage him. hope not man.

yea ok dunno what to blog liaosh. bb!

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2:58 PM;;

aw.... crap. i'm so lazy. so dont feel lyke bloggin after sendin in all these pictures. but if i juz leave 'em here its like so no meaning lah so.... yea. *shrugs*

did a BLOOD TEST today. i had to be JABBED with a NEEDLE! :*(((((((((( what i fear most in my life

1) injections
2) stomaches (sounds dumb riiight. but its not, seriously. hahz. i have really bad stomaches often. weak stomach u might say. *think it has gotta do with me always swallowing huge gulps of air-con in e past.* u noe like go gai2 gai2 <--or is tt hokkien too? or maybe go walk walk in English. in hokkien they call it "jia3 hong1". direst translation, swallow wind? yea, so as dumb as i've always been, i used to stand up on e chairs in my dad's bus n try n swallow as much air-con as possible.) wth. good fer u if u geddit cuz i'm confusing myself too :*p anyway i'm digressing.

Still, my number 1 fear is injections. actually i just really fear pain :*( n i had to take e whole body checkup fer my course, ECH. urine test :x, blood test, vision test, color vision test, x-ray, etc etc. i was really dreadin e blood test. went to e clinics at batok. 1 refused to help us send while e other listed clinic was super packed with teenagers all holding e orangey NP enrollment package. asked e nurse n she said "medical checkup? come back at 6" it was about 12 then -_________-" sighs~ most peeps i saw were juz dere fer e color vision test. went DBS n OCBC all tt crap. aft tt to Sunshine Place. how i miss tt place. still feels so "homey" to me now thou i've shifted fer bout 3 yrs. how time flies..........

oh yea, Ching accompanied me fer my Checkup. Thhhannnksss so muchie worchie *whateer tt means* i tink we started waitin aft Ching ate lunch at ard 130. stayed dere till ard 4. hahz. those hu came after me were even faster than me. cuz i had to do so many checkups.

e doc had a grim xpression n i was so scared. but wen i went in fer my jab, he was really nice :*) sensed my fear n told me to relax, to look e other direction n all tt *cuz i sorta whimpered while i saw e syringe-needle thingy. btw, do humans whimper?* he pricked like twice n we're done :*) hurt a lil, not as bad as i thot. thou i closed my eyes n tears came out by e side :x i'm such a scaredy-cat.


tiny li'l dot only. how big u expect it to be??! u think those ultra think needles meh? i can kill e doc *who happens to be really nice despite hi grim xpression...* alr :x

oh actually i took this picture 1st. do u tink i asked e doctor to wait while i snap a picture fer ma blog b4 i allow him to put e plaster? yea so tt li'l dot was after e plaster have been removed.

yup, n i was sooooooo glad when e blood test was done n over with. now i can move on with my life. *er, nvm tt*

e nurse asked what i saw during e color-vision test. in 1 pg i saw a no.3, while e other, letters R and Y. nothing else. n she kept asking "what else u see" so i was like hmm... "3 n 5 looks quite alike" so i juz sae "maybe a 5" n she went "er tt's a 3" !!! wonder if tt wld affect my results fer e test. i juz anyhow piang a 5 cuz i saw nuttin else.

turns out she wanted me to say what colors i saw *slaps forehead* most other teenagers said they saw nuttin too n asked e nurse wad exactly she wan us to say. (i mean i noe its a color vision test but... we alr sae e main object in a single color inside mah. hard to xplain, u hafta be dere lahs) she sld sae like "ok n wad colors r dere?" mah. like if i show u a handphone. u will sae "i c a handphone" n not start to define e colors on it mah like "oh i c silver, blue.." so when most teens prompt e nurse wad she's asking she was pretty attitute -_______-" she went:

*this was e loudest conversation heard*

nurse: u r here fer e test. not me. u sld noe.
teen : i see a chicken (its true 1 guy saw a chicken)
nurse: u sae e chicken 3 times alr! what else?!
teen : what else? have meh?
nurse: u asking me? i help u how u pass e test?
teen : ok ok OK!
nurse: haiya u dont c colors meh?!
teen :....

normally when she get dere we realized tt we're supposed to name e colors we c... lol. other than tt e nurse is ok actually :*)

n btw, i haven done e x-ray at Jurong. rushed dere with Jonathan :x but e machine is spoiled. n tts e only place available to do x-rays i think. hafta check back tml or what. which reminds me of my hiphop class tml. sighs~ never note down e steps or wad, ferget so many alr. :*(

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n now, kbox day! oh man. this is so exhausting. so lazy to blog. ugh. :x

went kbox bout 3 days back i think. Friday night. got dere, Q.F saw us n waited at e side to bring us to our room. lol. we got... Room no...... 1!!!!!! freaking 1!!!!! n no, tts not a gd news. its right in front n everybody walking by will peep in den whatever we sing cld be heard very clearly at e main reception dere! so at first Bee, Ching n i juz stone dere. watched e Mtvs n such. dint sing. cldnt change rooms cuz they were all packed too :*(

after sometime we were like "wth, play n sing loud loud also lah, doesnt matter"so we started our havoc again. i remember Q.F ushering us in e room n asked what drinks we want. n Ching n i were like "oh, cannot drink beer, will niao3 chuan2." fwahahhaha! (cuz his bro, hu happens to be my pri sch fren, told me he wetted his bed on e night he was drunk) tt time on e fone i kept going "mamymamymamymamy mamy poko pants!" LOL! embarrassed him somewhat.

i want to complain! their watermelon juice suc*ed! its like they never blend well loh. e whole drink is like 1/3 liquid e rest still solid. like with each sip (if u can sip tt is) u can get e huge pieces of watermelon in ur mouth. u can chew it urself n puke out e seeds too. its THAT bad. i drank some only i think. i mean ate.

n also, they removed e songs "Unbreak my heart" n "Zombie"!!! these 2 are sooo nice to sing can?! its my fav.songs to sing in KBox! apparently they went thru all e songs n put in more Chinese songs. Like we need more Chinese songs?! even took out some original English Mtvs n changed 'em into those ppl walking in e parks. WTH! ^%%$*%*^)&%$#%^(^% *curse curse swear swear*

*breathes* (as if normal time i'm not breathing) calm down first... grrr... i typed way too much, need to take a rest. Meanwhile, u may look at all e crappy pictures we took. quite a lot X)

we started our with normal photos; normal smiles all tt:


Ching n me. wad e? y u do tt act cute + act innocent Cyndi Wang look???! u noe i cant stan her! ok no ur eyelashes are not tt bad :X n u're not pouting so... yea. only 40% Cyndi Wang *which is actually, bad enuff*

hao peng yous. geex X) i stole e limelight *wth its my hp! hurhurhur*

Ching with e i-am-not-a-nerd-but-i-try-to-act-like-one-cause-its-quite-trendy-now glasses. (which belongs to Bee btw)

and Shirley-e-Crap goes into act...

then we went on to crappy/ugly poses:


omg. omfg. haha. we both look so deh~ wad a face man Ching. bet u dint think i was gonna save this pic n put it in ma blog. LOL! *if it makes u feel any better, i dont look all tt gd either. haha. 2 morons. OooOoppPs!*

and then e rightful owner took charge. wahahahha. omg BEE!

n u thot it cldnt get worse... nice lips bee :X

after lookin at Bee, we decided to act dumb ourselves.

n back to not-so-bad ones: *notice i say not-so-bad instead of nice*


much proper picture. thou i had no idea y my tongue prefers to go e other direction. eve not i think it wld look so cute X) like "woooAh" den e waves or wad all gone in 1 direction. ok ignore me.

and then i.....

"director! thot i say ask all e Extras to go out?" crap. haha. yet another picture with a funny backgrd? i can start a photo album entitled" pictures with funny backgrds, starring shirley" oh whatever lah huh. bu2 yao4 li2 wo3 bah.

i'm getting so zi4 lian4. so sue me.
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*have photoshop n all tt already, thanks to GSP :*) but i never go n play ard n learn how to edit my pictures. wth, ugly photos den ugly loh. my blog whats :*p*

oh man i'm so freaking tired. hands are cramped alr. (e results of being too lazy to blog n hafta blog all at 1 go) still need to add, i went to apply fer a job at Cck Cheers tt KBox night. might start work next wk :x lazy to go into details le................ ciao! its 2.55am!


p/s: i remember GSP saying my previous entry has veri few text den wad "i'm not gonna pay fer this issue!" lol. crap. but this time, u can have ur money's worth. hahz, like real u're paying. bb!

pps: actually fer e above pictures fer KBox right, i was crapping. they're not in order. we dint like smile properly first, act dumb next.. haha.. i juz re-arranged it n stuff :x n tt KBox day wasnt as fun. think perhaps e mood wasnt dere n tt room... yea... okok.315am liaos'

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my dear korkor is now in Army! he's a Man now! lol. *crap* its actually called BMTC-Basic Military Training Camp i think. he'll be gone ard 15 days den he'll be back every weekend.


took this on e ferry.. like no point but.. yea, juz felt like taking lohs. still can c a plane seh -_____-"

oh yea, tis' e ferry called Penguin Tekong or something:

e ferry that brought us to Pulau Tekong. *stole this picture from Xiaohan's blog :X*

my dear brother and me... do my eyes look watery? hahz.. not really bahs.. ok nvm. :x

my dear brother n mom :*) mummy's eyes Are watery. *sad*

korkor, mummy n me :*) happy family! plus my dad of cuz, but he cldnt take off from work. *my mom has droopy puppy eyes eh? lol* (stole this from Xiaohan too x))

when it was time to leave, mummy started to weep arhs.. *aw....* tears actually did fill up my eyes too but i dint let 'em drop. told myself i wld control my tears since some time back n yea, i sld be there for my mom instead of crying with her isnt it? but i was really sad lahs. i wld much rather my bro be home to snatch e comp n phone with me than him not being here at all. *thot bout tis' when Xiaohan asked if i'm happy he's leaving fer camp cuz there wldnt be anyone ard to snatch e comp n phone*

took this on e way back.... back w/o korkor :*( crap. he's onli gone fer bout 15 days lah huh.... so sad fer what? right? yea...

yet another picture of e scenary.
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eeks! seems like there r too much emotions fer this topic. but still, i've gotta say that.. i'm alr starting to feel uneasy. cuz my brother has always been dere fer me. i got my enrollment package on thur night n normally i wld turn to him fer help in such matters-ask him to help in my forms, what to do first, etc etc. now i'm all by myself. gotta learn to be independent n not rely on others. i'm a BIG GIRL! he's a MAN! *beams proudly* but when he called back on thur night, i told him bout e package. lol. okok enuff of such stuff. *bleah*

btw e camp was quite nice actually. hahz.. had our dinner dere too. lazy to go into details. hope my brother is all right inside camp :*)


p/s: next entry bout kbox i guess. up really soon (if i'm not too lazy again) *:)

pps: i fergot to mention bout e oath-taking part. it was super funny i tell u, Xiaohan n i were falling aslp n suddenli e officer went "I" n e enlistees echoed after him "I". ok its easier this way:

e page on e screen : I, (state ur full name)____, of, (nric number)____ will blah blah blah...

what we heard:

officer: I!
enlistees: I!
officer: State ur full name!
enlistees: ghfgdkfghuregyerh! (full name)
officer: of!
enlistees: of!
enlistees: 7uihrgh7ghgye54hugh! (ic number)

its not veri clear or funny here lahs. its one of those you-have-to-be-there stuff. they juz started at e same time, mumbled a lot, n ended together. veri messy, very funny. xiaohan n i juz laughed n laughed. lol. okok end-

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that's my 4th finger can? not 3rd yea? n ma lovely MeToYou to make e picture nicer n more interesting :x

AloHa! THAT was to capture ur attention so tt if u happen to stumble onto my blog, u wldnt klick on quickly to e next blog! *smart right. cant stan myself. lol* tts my FOURTH finger in e picture. hurt myself while cooking fer my family... :*( dont noe how either. got painful after i cut e chilli fer e gravy fer Sweet and Sour fish. it felt like really really hot inside but when i touch it with my other hand, its normal.


here's another photo to show e difference in my fingers. no, there's not a demented one. difference in e shades of color i mean.

that's clearer right? yea, apparently it was so painful i cldnt bathe well after cooking. as in, i cldnt use my right hand to wash my hair n stuff (dont create e image of me bathing lahs. haha). yes, it was THAT painful n hot. felt even worse when it touches e warm water fer bathing (yea i dont bathe w/o e heater) .

nonetheless, e meal came out well. *:)


from e left, mary, tim, me... sheesh! out of point. 3-dish-meal! with e rice will be 4 lah but who wants to see a picture of a plate of Plain Rice? huh huh tell me who?

doesnt tt look appetizing? c'mon, hire me as ur chef :*p


upclose- Sweet and Sour fish! *most troublesome dish* (and i tink e dish tt hurt my poor 4th finger. boohoo!)


upclose- Sweet Corn Soup! (with meat n chinese mushrooms) *sllluurrpp*


Fried Broccoli and Prawns! (supposed to be Fried Broccoli n Liver but yecks, i dont like liver. so i edited e dish... u dont sae "edit" fer food right? but i fergot whats e other word :x )

this was my dad's favourite dish cuz its spicy. i added a teaspoon of chillie paste n my mom added another again. lol. sumhow i cooked till e broccoli was soft n absorbed in e gravy so there wasnt much veggie taste so i liked e broccoli even. *3 cheers fer me who doesnt eat veggie!*

hmm~ e meal was supposed to be a 5-dish-meal, with Orange Wedges ( this is a really cool dish which requires quite some effort cuz u hafta clean out e orange from e skin till e skin is like, nice. den u squeeze e juice out n turn it into orange agar-agar. den u strain 'em into e empty orange skin so it looks like plain cut-up oranges but its actually orange agar-agar ). geddit? hahz.. forget it if u dont. i cooked this 5-course-meal fer my f&n coursework last yr n have been procrastinating since den. cuz i promised myself i was gonna cook it fer my family who dint try it b4. after like wad, 5 mths? i finally did it. LOL.

yea, i went groceries shopping with Ching on Friday n cooked tt very evening. Met my mom at e supermarket so we ended up shopping together. my mom was pretty crappy (lame) tt day till even Ching cldnt stand her :x we saw some ladders (which were like onli e height of my legs or even shorter. n u noe how short i am) of by e side, which is like fer e staff to climb up to ged certain stocks piled up high. n she went :

my mom: if u wan commit suicide u climb up, den jump down can liao. (once again i emphasize tt e ladders were onli e height of my legs or shorter. e kind wher u wldnt even break ur leg if u jumped from there. so.. yea, she was being crappy.)

Ching: ...

me: *shakes head* mummy ar, wo3 bu4 tai4 xiang3 li2 ni3 leh..

LOL. n i walked off. haha.. hilarious scene lahs.

oh n btw, i spent bout 2 n a 1/2 hrs cooking e meal! :X

OooOoops! fergot to mention tt my poor bro dint ged to eat what i cooked :*( bought e ingredients n settled everything on Friday, onli to realize tt my bro wld be back from camp (he's working as those camp leader) on sat night. so i was like, wth, cook first, next time then cook fer him again bahs. yea.... he's leaving fer army soon.. this Thursday to be exact :*( hais.

ok, next topic.. hahz.. ydae i planned to TRY n slp early again instead of my usual 6plus7, i was gonna go fer a 3am. but this fren of mine called to talk as he cldnt ged to slp. n needed to confide in somebody n stuffs so... yea. we talked till like 4plus n i asked Ching to call in too :x he actually had sch e following day (which is today) so he did not, i repeat, DID NOT, slp a wink! he hung up once to bathe fer sch n another to get ready to leave his hse. den on e way to sch he called back. power!

all e while Ching n i were craving fer some food. *shrugs* we usually get hungry ard 3 or 4am. She was craving fer 302's Laksa while i was craving fer.... Chwee Kueh! *i think tts how u spell it right?* n i kept going on.. "wah.. i want eat chwee kueh........"

i woke up ard 4pm again(slept at 7plus8). *it seems out of point but realli its not* woke up ard 10 to ask if mom bought chwee kueh fer mi but she dint so i went back to slp :x at ard 3, e guyfren n his other fren(my pri sch fren n e kbox waiter's younger bro) kept calling me. tt krazy guy went to buy Chwee Kueh fer me! was in a dazed state (woke up fer awhile onli) as i walked to my lift n got e 2 boxes of kueh from him at ard 5. he bought 10 chwee kueh. n said he's afraid i wldnt be full. told me to eat all cuz he went everywhere to get tt fer me. *aw...........* went plaza str. aft sch den don have so on e way back from timah he went ten mile to buy it fer me. den came to my place. krazy but realli realli sweet of him lahs. said person mentioned tt we r gd frens mah den i pei him chat so he help mi buy food. but i feel like i owe him another favor now.

i have PROOF!


e remaining 4 chwee kueh after i ate 1 :*)

currentli i have only finished 2 lil chwee kueh, leaving 3 in 1 box n another full box. cuz i ate kuey chap? b4 tt. another of my fav.food. *gosh, i am gettin' fat :x* gave e other box to my bro who's playin mahjong with his frens right now.

........................................................................................................................... n'uff said bout food! let's move on abrubtly to another topic. u noe, jurong east is like a ghost haunt isnt it?


Me! (at Jurong East. yup, i know i often take pictures with weird backgrds..) its my most new (newest?) picture wor :*p i quite like it. no bad comments, not even if u mention it in ur thoughts, only gd ones! :x
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hurhur.. just felt like showing my face since i haven shown much of my pictures in my blog recently. if only i have adobe photoshop, i cld try n make myself look better, like remove my dark circles underneath my eyes n stuff. but heck lahs, dont look like a ghost can alr.

wells, this entry has been really long-winded. shall stop now *:)

wait! EEEEEE! 1 in a million is on perfect10! my all time favourite song since yr 2001!!! *gasp* *faints* *hyperventilating* omg! i almost lost this whole entry cuz i went krazy when i heard 1 in a million from my bro's hi-fi n proceeded to switch on perfect10's live radio while working on my blog. n there was an error with Explorer! meaning i will lose all info n e pgs i opened on e net. Frantic, i moved e box tellin me bout e error down n saved my text in notepad first. den i saved draft. luckily its still here. *phew* lol. okok, end-

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hah.hhahaaaaaaaCHOO! i'm down with e flu! *or maybe somebody out there is thinking of me too much today?* riiight. been sneezing fer e whole day. *sniff*

wells, i am in a blogging mood today! Weeeeee! (hope i haven lost GSP, my faithful reader. LOL) went to catch e Eye 10 with Ching n erm, wayne today. hahz. its a super crappy show lah. it wasnt scary (ignoring e fact tt i was 1)hiding behind e large popcorn, 2)covering half of my face in ching's...... shirt lah, 3)eyes half closed n 4)with my 2 index fingers stuck in ma ears. pardon me, THATS how i watch horror flicks, be it scary or not. in this case.....) loh. its lame. l-a-m-e. lame. shallnt go into detail.

went to blk 302 behind lot 1 again fer dinner. simply lurve their laksa. *YUM* *sluuuurrrpppp* oh yea, took neoprint b4 tt (yea food sumhow came to my mind first so....) with Ching. a new machine. so dumb can. my pen fer decorating is like not really working again. met up with Jason too. he's my work fren :*) colleague sounds so old. he's stayin in cck fer 2mths or 2wks i fergot. cuz his job as a mechanic is in e west.. while he stays in Toa Payoh. *tts East right? not so sure, i got no fang1 xiang4 gan3, dont noe where is where de lah* yea, so we met up just to sae hi n all..

rushed home at 1030 to catch The O.C!!!!!!! its finally back!!!!!!!! Seth is like WOW again lah, n Ryan (seems to have gotten fatter... no? hmm...) too. dont noe y, i used to like Benjamin Mckenzie (Ryan) a lot but now Adam Brody(Seth) seems much cuter X) Marissa is gorgeous as ever n Summer is still e cheerleader girl. e other girl with short hair called Anna (Samaire Armstrong) is no longer in e show. hope she'll make an appearance sometime cuz i think she's really pretty. she's 1 of e few girls (esp celebrities) i know who can carry off e short-hair-look. e other 1 is Felicia Chin (i think) who acted in "The Champion". btw, click here fer Anna's picture. yup, thats her. i think she's super Cool, with a capital C. come to think of it, tt photo doesnt do her justice, here's another--> Anna . aiya, u hafta watch e show to know how gd she looks. also, she seems to be in e mtv fer this song i like called "Penny and Me" by Hanson.. e mtv is quite small lah but yea, click here. go check it out :*) but do remember to klick back to my blog :x

*sneeze*

oh, its April Fools' today. a fren of mine, Mark called and wanted to trick me. Apparently, i am TOO SMART fer him. *oh maybe cuz i noe Nobody will ever fall fer me? :x BooHooHoo!* haha.. he was like..

Mark: shirley.. do u believe ppl can fall in love after talking fer some time? like don hafta meet? (cuz i never meet him b4 lahs)

me: er.. hmm... depends?

yada yada yada blah blah blah... then...

Mark: den do u believe if i tell u i'm in love with u? *serious tone*

me: ... haha, Happy April Fool yea?

Mark: .. haiyo u no fun wan leh!

LOL. n my primary sch fren Sheng Min (who turned out to be 1 of e kbox waiter's bro) n his fren tried to trick me too. busted by me but still they dint wan to admit. sae wad Sheng Min's mother in NUH ward 24 bed 10.. asked mi to go down. like we veri close? :x haha.. we not veri close if not i MIGHT believe. after some time they gave up n said "yea lah yea lah happy April Fool" wells... e funny ppl in my life *shrugs*

oh n ydae i went to coffeebean to catch up with Uncle Marc. 's been some time since i did tt. crapped as usual, n got to now 2 of his other police frens *hurhur*

*sniff*

ahhhhhhh! fergot what else i wanted to blog bout. nvm, i shall stop here then. (ended up i dint stop here. haha) can edit later or post a new entry.

oh, tml (as in now if u considered e time after 12midnt) i'm gonna go groceries shopping n cook fer ma family. been dragging this meal fer a looong time. hope all goes well *:) *cant wait* *jumping up n down* *grabbing e luohan fish beside me n cutting it up in preparation fer e meal* eeeeee! i am a MURDERER! *roll eyes*

haahhhchoo! who's thinking bout me???! haha.. bu3 yao4 lian3. hmm... perhaps its e GREMLIN! sigh~ e Gremlim dint tag back. i will then remain in shock fer e rest of my life, imaginin a Gremlin sitting by e computer, reading ma blog everyday, paws on e keyboard n ready to tag when it feels like it.


p/s: i want to go KBOX! with my zhu1 peng2 gou3 you3! heex.. some others asked me to.. but i doubt i will be comfy with 'em so surely it wldnt be as much fun so.. as tempted as i was, i declined e invitations :*(

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