You Are a Bright Star Soul

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You Are Glam Sexy You live for flaunting your sexiness, and you totally work it.Why not? You've got the goods - you might as well use them.You're 100% woman, and you never go out without looking your best.After all, you never can tell when you might bump into Mr. Perfect! What Kind of Sexy Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

er... saw this quiz wen goin thru sum blogs... wif nothing beter to do, i tried it out. wows, so i'm Glam Sexy. so wad do i do wif it? :*l

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3:22 PM;;

have no choice but to blog cuz.... Ser was sayin "eeyer u neva blog" to me... both ching n her blogged bout our outing ydae xcept mi u c :x

yawnz... i'm so tired. daily routine. i slept ard 5plus6 n ser wld wake mi up at 11plus in e morning.. tis an unearthly hr to be awake man. but i'm going swimmin wif Ser later so... zZz...

hmm... ydae... went outt wif ching n ser lohz... went town cuz i wuz plannin to ged sumtin fer sumbody... cant sae hu or wad cuz its a surprise n wad eve e person juz stumble on my blog? *no way* hahaz... so i bought sum stuffs fer e person n went on... actualli we went out to ged our pays (i mean, ser n i. ching no pay. wahahahaha. she muz be fuming now.) from e company. dey finalli gave it to us aft delaying it fer more than a wk. i received a cheque fer $642 :*) haiyo... i cant rem wad happened ydae alr... sld have blogged ydae... erm... oh yea, ching finalli got her shoe at far east! *unlike me hu hasnt gotten my bag* nonetheless, i bought other items. *smiles*
1) top from Baleno
2) earrings
3) settled my craving fer sum heavenly ice-cream at Andersens
wanted to ged another top from Samuel n Kevin but Ser wanted to look at her shoes n both of dem were lookin at other stuff n not ard at e dressings room wen i wanted opinions... so... *shrugs* nah... its not ur fault Ser :*) i forgive u tho? haha... btw, e Andersens ice-cream wuz realli yummilicious! i bought e Belgian chocolate 1 wif caramel topping... wanted to ged hershey n cream but ching suggested
: ged e chocolate 1 lar... u c tt 1 lyke a lot ppl eat so goin to no more. muz be nice. so ged tt!
**gd point taken so i gott tt**
but aft purchasing i thot again. n said
:erm, wad eve e other tubs dey have refilled cuz a lot of ppl buy whereas fer e chocolate 1 nobody buy so up till now dey neva refill?
*laughs*

oh n i had e ice cream at PS... we walked all e wae dere cuz... i wanted my top from Baleno den lucky plaza dere gott no more stock... so i asked dem to check fer mi n dey booked 1 dere fer mi... its size M tho.. no choice, better than L? so we went over much to e dislike of Ser hu cldnt go to her Borders anymore (sorry ger)... n we gott dere... n e person said...
"we don have any more M sizes" ^&%$*$#*^&*(&^%*%^&(&^$##$#&^%*&^
ser: u sae u called?
me: *counting 1, 2 3...*
me: erm, but i asked e salesperson to call over n check earlier on n we came all e wae here?
salesperson:oh wait i check again
lalalalalalala
salesperson:oh yea, have. nah *thrusts e top to me*

*grr*

walked ard PS... rem my 1st dae at work dere -______________-" Terence (pri sch gd fren) asked mi out ydae so he called mi n we found out tt... he's workin at PS! went to look fer him, said hi n all... he gave mi a twist... haha... feelin kinda bad... he has a break once a wk n he asked mi out but i dint reply... *i have this habit of not replying or using hp since my hp gott ever so irritating* wonder eve he's found ppl to go out wif todae... heex... bad of mi :x anywae, we saw sum cool earrings wen we were leaving... 3 pairs fer 10bucks n ching saw sum nice ones... so i suggested we ged 1 each since it wld be quite cheap n we bought :*) ching now owe mi lyke $6+... haha...

i tink it wuz quite a productive dae thou i dint ged my bag... as i've finally gotten e prezzie i wanted to buy... n ate my ice-cream... ching got her shoe... xcept fer Ser hu dint ged anytin xcept e earrings... lolx... rather tired i sld sae. legs aching n all tt crap. n i'm still having this stoopid cold n sore throat...

okie, this my entry fer ydae's outing wif Ser n Ching. Serene, u can read alr... happy? *sarcasm drippin in my words* hahaz... i'm goin swimmmmmmmmming!

p/s: huiching thot tt an organiser is sumtin to do wif organs! *evil smile*

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5:31 AM;;

geez... i'm gettin' sooo lazy to blog... but at least my last entry wasnt too long ago... :*l

hmm... few tings on my mind... juz recentli i seem to have lost respect fer sumbody whom i used to have a lot of respect fer, n whom i look up to. as i've stumbled on some stuff tt i sldnt have n wish i hadnt. <--?is dere such a word? *wadeva but i'm sidetracking* back to e topic... yeap... haven told anyone bout tiz... its kind of eating me alive... but i noe i sldnt spill e beans to anyone... seem to be contradictin as i'm saying it here... but nobody noes hu or wad i'm talkin bout so... *shrugs* no harm done. hai... n cuz of tt, i've lost hope in certain things n ppl as well.

n also thinkin bout somebody too.. not actualli thinkin bout e person but i guess e thing itself. dont noe eve i sld go back to e past, give things another try, give another chance. perhaps it wld be fer e better but who knows? it mite not work out again. so y put ourselves in all tt misery n regret all over again. tiz sld be a new yr, a new chapter fer mi. not some recollection of e past or wad. dont noe lar. *sighs*

everybody's been so busy these daes. realize its gettin' hard to find just 1 person to accompany u when u do need somebody. or maybe there is but e person is not suitable. or perhaps its juz me? its alwaez been like that. questions n questions w/o answers. so sick of it all. n i mizz sch so much it hurts. sec sch life is e best... really do hate changes.

but lookin back, i also found out that my past few yrs in life have been utter childishness. what i thot was true, wasnt. sld stop wasting my time away like that n start growing up. just really really hope that i can.

p/s: hope to ged my pay tml. they've been delaying it fer quite some time now. grr...

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5:15 PM;;

all this pent up frustration i needed to let out. or maybe its not frustration, perhaps just some thots of mine ttz bottled up too long. far too long.

all these thots were ignited once again ydae wen i went fer e ngeeann openhse. i let tt lil nagging notion slip my mind in all the bliss. but suddenly something someone said dashed everything. all my hopes, my confidence. i noe tt e person is just playing a fool but e person had no idea how much effect those few words had on me. i may appear confident, lyke i dare to approach ppl fer example. lyke daring to speak up in front of crowds. lyke i'm e functions head in class. but who actually really knows, tt its all nuttin but a Facade?

i envy those ppl hu r confident. n why not? those ppl hu have e right to be i mean. Coincidentally, i chanced upon tiz primary sch fren of mine, her frenstar pg. i still remember she's rich, has e perfect family, e perfect frenz, right now e perfect bf, a gd figure n no speaking problem. u ged e drift, she has it all. y sldnt sum1 like that be confident? hers doesnt seem to be a facade thou.

yea, no speaking prob. ttz wad actually makes my confidence a facade. its not that i have major speaking problems but its huge enuff to demoralise mi completely. When i speak, certain strangers have absolutely no idea what i'm talking about. n its not wen i'm spouting nonsense here. a fren of mine actualli took a yr to understand what i'm saying. its just sumtin i wuz born with. i seem to bite back on certain words lyke perhaps, words wif e letter Z. i wld stress on sum parts. friends n family members dont even realize this becuz dey have been talking to me way too long to even notice tiz flaw of mine. but strangers do. n sum others too. lyke my customers fer my work or sum sch frenz. i rem i had this compere's prog. its a public-speaking course our Eng teachers elected sum of us gd in Eng to be in. e lecturer wuz Uncle Sanath, he's one of the best ppl i've even met in my life. n i confided in him bout tiz fear/worry of mine. as i had wanted to be a radio deejay(notice e word "had" as i've sort of lost all hopes.)

me: uncle sanath, can u understand what i'm saying? do u hear e way i bite back on certain words that make ppl not understand me?
him: hmm... no? i find ur speaking normal.
me: oh, cuz juz some ppl dont ged what i'm saying at times n it affects me a lot. n i dont tink i can be a dj like that; when ppl dont ged me at all.
him: why Care bout what others say? i believe u can do it. what dey sae aint impt at all.

i tried to make him understand its not that i wanted to care bout what others sae. i always make it seem lyke it doesnt bother me at all. but it does.

me: its not that i wan to care. but eve i wan to be sumbody lyke a dj, they have to understand mi. i'm not saying tt dey wld look down on me, but dey cant help it eve dey doesnt understand. n aft interviews, maybe eve i ged elected, 1 out of 10 audience wldnt understan me. dey cant help it.
him: u have to have trust in urself. u just dont care bout dem. just be what u wanted to be n dey'll see it. really.

i wld neva forget this conversation with him. (tt wuz i tink a few yrs back, 2002) he's an inspiration himself. my bro told mi bout another inspirational story juz ydae wen i told him how i felt bout this matter.

i used to think tt since i'm born like that, i sldnt change it. this is y i'm unique, n tt y we r all individuals. lyke i alwaes think tt i wldnt hav a tattoo or change my hair color or most impt of all, i wldnt go to e hospital to ged this speaking problem of mine fixed. becuz dey wld change me. since i'm born like that, i wld go like that. n eve ppl cant accept mi fer mi, so be it. ged away from mi. far, far awae. but above this 3, i've done one. changed my hair color. it felt lyke i wuz going against myself, goin against my own beliefs. i felt lyke i'm a betrayal to myself. but i did it because i've come to such terms which i've yet let anyone know. Changing myself physically doesnt mean changing myself emotionally. i can still hold e same thots n all but deep down, i'm still me. honest-to-gdness, me. ttz y i did what i did to my hair as i wanted a change. e other 2 things, a tattoo i don tink i wld do it, but hu noes in e future? n my speaking prob. it alwaes comes down to this. a chinese physician told me it doesnt hurt n takes onli a few secs to slit sumtin ttz under my tongue. but e thing i'm afraid of wasnt all of e above. i'm afraid of it changing me n how others think of me. eve ppl can accept me fer this prob, i noe tt dey're true. but eve i don have this flaw, how wld i noe? how wld i find true frens lyke ching n bee? tink i'm gonna cry.

but its just tt. e course i've alwaes wanted n still do, is mass comm. e impt thing is bout public speaking n all n i'm afraid i wun be able to do well in tt sector. n how can i fight wif so mani others huz so confident n great in every aspect? to add on, mass comm is a really popular course ttz overwhelming wif ppl. this ger at e mass comm. tour told me tt she believe i cld do it. as long as i have e passion dey can c it. i really do hope so. hai.

all my confidence are gone out e window. *poof* all my hopes, dashed. so u c, all tt is just a Facade, a mask i put on. i'm not tt confident aft all. n i'm not tt strong either. i breakdown easily. this has been a really long post. sorry that u guys find it boring, but i really needed to let it out. n ttz what a blog's fer, isnt it? n aint it great? ppl hu cum by my blog wld now imagine mi wif a major speaking prob which aint realli e case, its just in e mind. *shrugs* what can i do? so those tt now noe all these n start to feel demselves taller up even by a bit n lookin down at me alr, i want u to go away. ged awae from me. please. dun act gallant or anything n i dont need ur sympathy either. i hate facades. go away!

*sigh* i'm going krazy.

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10:28 AM;;

farzil n i at sentosa.. forgot i wuz pointing at his belly or e ting he's holding... *i look so mischievious* qn-aint farzil (shrek-lookalike) cute???- ans-yes yes yes he is. hurhur... looks so huggable too-
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3:20 PM;;

initialli i made tiz pic smaller cuz i looked awful. but ultimately decided to show u guys my uglier side *notice its uglier, not ugly which means i'm ugly in e 1st place* oh n i hab no idea y mab n i were luffin'

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3:00 PM;;

okie, tiz is even worse than e 2nd 1 cuz i seemed to be e only one luffin' my head off (maybe farzil too but i'm more obvious) show alr also pai seh but nvm, heck le la.
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i really really dont noe y... hahaz.. i wuz luffin' my *arse* off in every foto n all my poses kinda suc*ed too.. derez tiz other 1 which i bet u can find in Ser's or Ching's blog.. my pose wuz realli attention-getting, criticism-attracting, laughter-asking etc etc (u ged my drift). i dint show it here cuz i believe i have given myself enuff embarrassment fer a dae. s'nuff said. *blush*

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2:30 PM;;

yeap, ttz rite... its been sum time since i last blogged.. so i'm too lazy to update alr...

juz to sum up, tiz few daes i've been workin'. e project wuz once again HSBC n e roadshow's at Tampines. under Tricia. *ugh* butt recentli ching joined e company n did e roadshow together so derez sumbody dere to share certain feelings bout certain things..... *hor ching?* reached home ard 12 plus each dae...

since Sunday, i have been slackin :*), makin use of my few daes break.. till maybe 21st. so i wld be goin to ngee ann's open hse i guess? *sighs* also cant ged into mass comm. alr dont noe i wan to go fer wad. heard tt results r in Feb or sumtin n seriousli, i'm dreading it.

oh, n been readin sum gd novels recently. "Mr Perfect", "Caribbean Cruising" n "Wired".

In addition to my dreary life, Danny msged mi again. tiz time wif my name in full.. u noe, as in Shirley Ang ___ _____ n askin wad he did wrong, y i dun reply n eve i noe how he feels not n such. still have absoluteli no idea, nada, zilch, nought, how to reply him so i dint again. dun really wan to think bout it.

yea, bascially ttz all. nuttin much blog worthy but wad-e-heck. nxt few daes i wld probably juz go to e openhse, go office to collect my pay, etc etc. Sue asked eve we wan to go Sentosa since she's back fer a few daes.. dont noe hows it going.. till then'

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8:58 AM;;

hmm... gonna start work again tml... guess ttz e end of my social life once more :*(

anywaes, i wuz readin e famous xiaxue's blog.. n read 1 entry of hers bout city harvest christians.. hahz... quite agree wif wad she said :x some of e comments too. heres e link yea http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2005/01/belated-christmas-post.html#comments derez lyke over 200 comments... hmm... itz nott tt i dunch lyke christians, butt its e wae sum of dem seem so full of demselves n wantin to convert every1 else. have been approached by mani christians esp city harvest ones ttz y. no offence to christians wor.. i lyke mani of dem too ar, lyke evon n such.. cuz she doesnt look down on other religions or think tt hers is e best n stuff.. hahz, shallnt comment anymore. :*

hmm... wonder wher i'll be doin my roadshow tml... n hu i'll be workin wif... n also wad project... eeyer.. Tricia. arg! e last 2 daes of work she dint note down fer us n submitted e forms alr. so my pay will have bout 100bucks less! ^$*^&%^$ *curses* *swears* ^%*$(&% hai, dunno wad ta do. hmmph~

n oh, ydae terence sent me a mario game... pretty cute... hurhur... supposed ta go swimmin wif Evon in e mornin butt it wuz too cold... n i slept onli at 7 lydat so dint go... den dint meet Melvin fer my choco also... den at nite he cant... so i guess, nxt time again lorz... hahz...

wuz wonderin eve i'm goin outt tadae... guess i dun hafta wonder animore cuz itz too late alr... hai. worried bout my results. mass comm. *sighs* haiya, later'

~*Beautiful Soul*~

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11:45 AM;;

i'm super duper afraid n worried rite now. so i hafta pen tiz down.

Recoyl called n talked a lil bout poly stuff.. so i asked bout mass comm.. need lyke 14ptz? i realli dint noe it wuz so hard ta ged into. onli ting i knew wuz tt my language has ta be gd. i'm nott tt worried bout my English butt wad bout e overall pts i need?! tink i gott lyke 20 or sumtin fer prelims nohx. n i tink i did beta fer prelims than fer Os. cuz i wasnt in e mood ta study fer my Os. my Science. Maths. alr dunch tink can make it. so wad eve i ged more than 20ptz? or wad, 17? 18? wads e use? i wun be able ta ged into mass comm, which is lyke e onli course i'm iterested in.

so regret. i sld have studied earlier. n sldnt have been too engrossed in other much useless stuff. lyke relationships fer starters. how well tt turned outt aniwae. :*

-feelin' ever so dumb. fightin back tears of fear n regret.-

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5:50 PM;;

i cant stan it... tiz pup is ever so cute... hahahaz... feel lyke luffin every time i c it :*) don u tink so too? *smiles*

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1:54 PM;;

feelin kind of worried.. heard sumbody, i tink it wuz ida, tellin mi tt mass comm needs lyke wad 15 ptz? fer ngeeann i tink. den i stumbled on tiz frenstar pg http://friendster.com/user.php?uid=2930655 fer sp media comm. saez sumtin bout need ta ged 13pts. mass comm's lyke e onli ting i'm interested in other than journalism n law, which are even harder ta ged into. so i have absoluteli no idea wher i'm goin. wen i ged my results, i wun even noe eve i sld be happy or sad cuz i noe nuts bout wad i need to ged in order to ged to e course i want. juz great.

oh, n i also went ta check outt danny's frenstar pg. den saw tiz ger's tesimonial fer him. feelin ever so 3 8, i checked her pg too. n on i went ta her blog. i tink she's danny's gf now..? den y does he still keep contactin mi? juz lyke 2 daes ago he msged mi n asked izzit eve he change den he can ged mi back n stuffs. i dint reply him of cuz. juz dont noe wad guys r thinking. i mean, seriousli, what do u want?!

i dont noe y i'm lettin myself ged into this. perhaps i'm juz curious? wadeva.

i'm also feelin lyke a pig. slp a lot, eat a lot. of junk food. realli A LOT. first n last ting while i'm conscious n also in between meals plus every now n den. my hse's gott a lot of junk food btw. n i'm nott exercising at all. doubt i can wear ani more tight fitting tops nxt time :x

damn. in such a shitty mood rite now. worryin bout wher ta go, n wonderin what to believe n what not to believe. what can i sae? life's juz great. another great ting too, Tricia msged mi ta change my work date from e 14th to e 12th. yay, lesser play time. man, i feel so gd.

her
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7:15 PM;;

tiz is mi :*) first time puttin fotos in my blog... so try outt nohx.. 

her
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1:37 AM;;

hmm... seed of chucky failed quite miserably...

1) it is kinda r.a-ed
2) aft watchin, u'll ask "so, whats e point of e show?"
3) it is lame
4) it contains a lot of &*%#$^%(% (if u ged my drift)
5) it isnt scary (tiz a first fer mi. cuz to me, all horror shows r scary)

**Melvin wuz lyke "i told u so** hmmph~

n as fer y i watched it instead of London Voodoo, dere isnt ani London Voodoo in cck :* Bee checked e papers butt it wuz in chinese so we thot it wuz London Voodoo.. turned outt it wuz seed of chucky :* lolx... i thot so myself... yeah, pretty dumb of us i noe -_____________-"

nevertheless, (okie tiz mite sound lyke a contradiction but it aint) i dunch realli regret watchin e show. Becuz, i knew tt no matter how matter ppl tell mi tt its nott a nice movie, i wld still want to watch it juz fer curiousity. eve i missed it in e theatres, i wld probably ged e vcd too. thats juz me :* nice or not, eve i'd wanted ta watch e show in e first place, i wld. lolx... butt i don realli tink $8.50's worth it.. (here i go again, contradicting) ferget it, juz plain ferget it. :*

so aft e show, Bee n i walked round lot 1. yea, i mean round. rounds actualli. we walked ard lot 1 lyke 3 times? as in from e door at mcdonalds all e wae pass e bus station, 7-11 n back ta e front door n so on... too bored lahs... saw Recoyl n Royston(danny's lil bro)... on e 3rd round, i treated Bee ta sum marigold jelly :*) den my mom called.. met her at mcdonalds cuz she haven eaten dinner. ordered e meal fer her... etc..

reached home n played games on e comp :x bro's back from camp.. he dint notice my hair :*

mi: kor ar, c my hair (cuz he dint notice at first)
bro: aiyo, u girls hor, cut hair lyke neva cut, still same length, waste $
mi: **wonderin if he's fer real** erm, i mean, e color?
bro: huh? orh.. u turn.
**i turned**
bro: also lyke neva dye lydat. onli top part, front can c... how much?
mi:55 fer highlight, 9 fer cut, 10 fer cream.
bro: u waste $ dye lydat.
-__________________________________________-"

perfect example fer different scenarios, same ending. <waste $>

neva mind, i still lurve him :*) eewl, gettin' mushy... sigh. juz cant imagine him leavin fer army in april. okie ferged tt too...

hmm... goin ta conference wif Bee dey all pretty soon i tink... till nxt time'

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7:58 PM;;

hmm... feelin realli tired... thursdae nite i played comp (those stoopid online games) till ard 3 plus... den ate junk food n read my novels... ard 4, i planned ta slp... butt ching smsed n asked eve i wanted ta conference... so i thot "maybe fer awhile lohz" butt i sld have guessed tt a conference session is never short...

Ching, Wayne n i chatted from 4 to 10plus in e mornin... supposedli. cuz ard 7 i wanted ta rest a bit... hafta meet ida at 9am ta go swimmin n tanning mahz... butt sumhow i cldnt ged ta slp.. ended yp both ching n wayne fell aslp... wuz veri bored, entertainin myself with their crap... dey were both blabberin nonsense... wayne cld juz go "choochoochoochoochoo" outt of e blue.. or wen i asked him ta wake ching up he wld go "chinggg... wake up" den i asked him ta wake himself up n he went "wayneee... wake up" *pengzZz* as fer huiching, she wld wake up every now n den n sae "huh?? no lah i neva slp... zzzZzzz"

ard 8 i called ida ta wake her up... she joined in e conference n talked nonsense wif us... hung up ard 10plus n i gott ready ta meet ida... NEVER SLP AT ALL :*( wen i met up wif Ida, it wuz ard 1130 n i wuza walking zombie; closin my eyes fer a rest whenever i cld. btw, Ida n i went ta crash Regent hts... arrived dere butt e pool wasnt functioning... hafta wait awhile.. wen it did function, e sun wuz covered up by clouds. lost 1 of my earings in e pool too :*( tt alwaez happens.. ida n i dint close e bathroom fer a shower butt instead went in n outt, bathed wif our two-piece on... she applied conditioner fer mi (hahz.. 1st time using a conditioner).. itz pretty gd fer muh hair esp aft highlighting, tink i sld ged 1 too... aft which we left regent hts ta go e coffeeshop near westmall fer eats. took a cab back ($7.20 man) home n changed inta pants..

rushed outt within mins.. went ta meet Ching ta go ta sch fer e orientation campfire.. kept talkin rubbish n laughin wif Bee, Chenmin n gang.. saw e new principal, Mrs tan or sumtin... she seemed lyke sum welfare teacher or as bee said "office lady" mor than a principal.. our grp, along wif Vanessa Chan's grp n Sakinah n gang, sat togather at e side. We sang along, cheered, n had loads of fun... i had to sae tiz, e teacher (mr tan?) hu led e campfire wif his singing kind of failed :* we echoed aft each line he sang.. hahaz... in turn, we lost our voice :x aft tt, we juz went ta westmall fer eats n gott home ard 11...

gott home n "plak" i slept :*) tadae's sat... goin fer movie wif Bee later... hope tt all goes well :*) oh yeah, danny msged mi a few times butt i dint reply. feelin bad butt, i realli dont noe wad ta do. hai. okie. later'

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7:51 AM;;

juz gott back from lot 1... rushed ta e library at e last min n borrowed 3 novels :*) so happi... hahaz... yea, i'm easily satisfied :x shopped a bit wif Marc den went ta coffeebean... gettin' sick of coffee...

gott home n caught e ending of e bachelor... now watchin wolf ger... gettin addicted ta games... lolx... ching n i been playin every nite... hmm...

dunch noe wad ta blog alr... nuttin interestin goin on... ***hor linz*** hahaz...

ps:oh yea, i saw e juying sec guy ydae at jp... he noticed mi too... ching said he wuz giving e wide eye look... alwaez c him at bb mrt in e past wen goin ta sch... now no more *saded* lolx...

her
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3:22 PM;;

dint wa ta update now actualli... butt somebody called linz tagged at my tagboard... obviousli tryin ta spoil my mood... butt........... hahaz... u dint succeed :*) tsk tsk, sum ppl nowadays... whers ur upbringing? juz criticise others' blog... geez, ged a life will ya? cuz eve u've gott 1, u wun be wanderin ard other's blogs, readin n den criticising :*) my heart bleeds fer u.

Marc asked mi outt, think goin ta coffeebean or sumtin... :*) ciaoz'

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11:05 AM;;

eeyeapsh... highlighted my hair tadae... wonder how tt came about? hahz... i'm lyke going against myself cuz i neva liked e idea of changing hair color... conferenced wif ching n wayne till bout 6plus ydae... slept ard 7am... my intention wuz juz ta cut muh hair wif ching n her mom... so i woke up ard 12... told my mom bout it:

me:mummy ar, i go cut hair wif huiching n her mom wor, dey going ta dye hair
her:go lor
me:hmm, dunno nxt time wan dye hair nott leh
her:aiya u mite as well go dye togather
me:-______________-"
me:realli ar, or i tink nxt time lah i tink first loh
her:faster todae go lah i gib u $$$ eve nott new yr more ex liao
me: .

n so.... i went wif ching n her mummy... cut my hair first... e person said cut v, den front wld be veri short... i veri gan jiong man... butt end up juz said "ok u quick cut dunch ask mi liao" den i clozed my eyes... n ended up. gott cut, lyke neva cut. hahaz... onli fringe shorter bah... butt i lett down sho cant c de loh... so... lyke neva cut lydat... hahaz... rubbishy... n went on... sld i dye or highlight? once again i asked e hairdresser fer her opinion...

she kept going "eh... its up to u de loh" (hahaz... butt she's v.nice i think :*) )
her again: i think black hair nice, u urs v.healthy.. i dyed brown den regret cuz dye back weird weird... ur one v.healthy. eve i'm u i wun dye de loh...
me: oh... so wad u trying to tell mi? (hahaz... i wuz thinking "gott business u dunch wan ar?")

she hesitated fer a while... n concluded.

her: u hightlight a bit... juz a few strands here n dere loh...
me: wa u lydat i gan jiong leh... okie loh...

she did a lot of stuffs... clippin my hair, addin sum gooey paste, washing, etc... n... tada! ***i cldnt c e difference in my hair!*** n meanwhile... huiching's hair wuz super highlighted... veri blonde... hahz... butt mi... e fringe dere quite obvious... BUTT. e bottom part n e back part wasnt obvious at all... need ta look closely den hab... lyke a bit waste $$$ leh cannot c de... wells... hope its nice lah huh... Evon juz called... asked mi ta go swimming tml... i want!!! butt... scare ar my hair later e tiny bit of color also gone... haha... think too much liao... butt... realli scare leh... how seh... hai. or i go tann, don swim? ttz rubbish... eeyerrrrrrr... how how how.?!. we'll c tml. :*

aft goin ta e salon, ching n i went ta jp... walked ard... den ta lot 1... wanted ta go library butt it wuz closed wen we gott dere :*( den i went ta ged yami yoghurt... Mango flavor wif choco rice ash toppings... :*) gott home ard 10plus... hmm... pretty tired... slept fer onli bout 5hrs n less...

n dunch noe y... my comp all e letterings n stuffs lyke veri big leh... oh i mean e font i tink... weird... ida asked mi ta conference wif zhixing later... hmm... see how bahx... now too concerned bout muh hair onli.. cham leh... so lil highlights onli later bcum none... junlin still can tell mi "nvm lah, u don dye nicer so black better..." waste $ loh lydat... hahz... butt yea, black's nice :*) haiyo... till here bahx... ~*beautiful soul*~

her
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3:15 PM;;

hahz... now fumbling ard wif e comp... hurhur... speed n stuff all much beta le... juz a bit bu xi guan...

hmm... ydae although dint conference i cldnt ged ta slp... use comp n stuff till quite late... slept ard 7am... dunch noe y keep feeli'n giddy n wan ta puke... no i'm nott pregnant. hahaz... woke up in e aft... slacked a bit den went ta westmall wif bro ta check outt sum stuffs... came back ard 10pm... now gettin giddy again... it happens wen i'm lookin at e comp, hp n such... lolx...

dont noe wad ta sae alr lah... wan ta check outt my new comp... ciaoz' :*p

her
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5:21 PM;;

hahz... juz spent a lot of time saving my fotos n stuff in my comp... bro's gonna detach alr... first ting mondae mornin... so maybe nxt mondae den gott comp ta use... butt i still have s slighest hope tt it can all be done tml... e fixin of e new comp plus e signin up fer maxonline etc etc... lolx... *pray* i doubt i can take it leh... cuz i use comp lyke everydae or at last every other dae... yeap... n msn contacts n all wld still be e same rite? i'll juz die eve i lose all contacts... n gettin' a bit irritated wif msn too leh... so lil space fer contacts... my msn reached e maximum ages ago... izzit 200? now hafta keep deletin ppl... last time wuz delete those i seldom contact now.... i'm deletin those i hu still tok ta mi often butt r nott my close frenz... den dey sae hi i dont noe hu... *curses*

hmm... recap... sat i woke up quite late cuz of conferencin... den slacked a bit den conferenced again... wif bee, ching, chenmin, ida, eugene(outside) n wayne... chatted till ard 8 in e mornin on sundae... den again i slept lyke a pig till early evenin? slacked sumore n went lot 1 ta ged diskettes... wanted ta borrow sum novels from e library butt ash i stepped in dey switched off e lites n said e place's closed fer e dae... n so i went home...

dint reply a lot of smses... gettin sick of my hp... e msging system ish a bit retarded n stuff... ttz y i'm too lazy ta reply... hahz... feels bad sumhow... esp Ser hu keeps smsing ta ask fer work dates... hmm... n Eddie msged mi... last time we were sisters till he lyked mi... i juz wan a platonic relationship so i stayed awae from him fer awhile till he geds e msg... aft sum time we were frenz again... den tadae he msged mi once more... haiyo. want to go aft mi again.. rem wad he said wuz "officially jio" still gott unofficial n official de ar? so i replied him sayin we've been thru tiz b4, n tt we're juz friends. hai... tink i'm losing this gd fren of mine fer e second time... wonder eve we'll ged back e frenship.... dont noe y guys n gers cant have a simple frenship eh? its wen u ged a bit close den tiz things will happen.. its e same case wif at least 3 other guyfrenz of mine. cant ged too close i guess. juz stay as "okay" frenz den can. ttz y i'm afraid of gettin' cloze wif my guyfrens alr. hmm... neva mind, still have a few... i tink my other buddy(butt) n i will keep our frenship though... haha... Timm will alwaes be my corny guyfren :*)

arg... keep tinkin back on e possibility of nott being able ta use comp fer a wk... n goin back ta work... brings my mood down to negative 100... hahz...

gonna conference wif ching dey all soon... butt dunch feel lyke switchin off my comp :*( one other hand ching will fall aslp soon... hahz... decisions decisions... hmm... a lot of ppl r goin back ta sch n others r goin fer their 3 mths jc... wld be even more boring ard alr... hai.

okie, till nxt time (which mite be pretty long)...... cciaaaoz'

ps:i'm krazy bout this song called "beautiful soul" by Jesse... tiz e song aft "True" its niceeee... go listen ta it peeps!

her
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6:18 PM;;

hmmz... gott home ydae ard 2am in e mornin so wuz too lazy ta blog... yeapsh... e nite b4, which wuz thur nite, we (mi, ching, chenmin, bee, wayne) conferenced till morning again, 7plus i tink... so slpet till aft... woke up n toked ta bee n decided ta go town fer a movie n e countdown... met up ard 8pm... Bee asked jiancheng eve he wanted ta join n he did... i wuz pretty stunnded, dint noe wad ta do cuz jiancheng is a bit... erm... ferged it... hahz... he tagged along wif us fer quite sum time...

supposed ta join buddy Tim n gang butt we went fer e movie first... n ended up... all e tickets were sold outt :* yeah i noe, my bro wld sae "i told u so" lolx... wanted ta catch London voodoo butt cldnt cuz Bee cant watch ani shows aft e countdown... so we went ta eat pastamania... den said ours gdbyes ta jiancheng... took neoprints wif bee :*) n went over ta find Tim n gang...

actualli Eddie called... he wanted ta catch a movie tagather n stuff... butt we were pretty late so... den he wanted ta meet butt i tink i kept delaying so he said he's going downtown east... n on we go ta look fer Tim n gang....... town wuz realli packed n everybody wuz sprayin da gooey stuff everywher... yea, sure tio de mah... left town ta go Esplanade cuz Tim said dey were having a proper celebration dere... juz as we left, gl called bee... asked ta play foam tagather.. guess we sldnt have left town? neh... reached esplanade at 11plus... went dere it wuz equalli packed, or even worse. it wuz stuffy too. finalli caught up wif Tim n gang aft sum time... realized quite a lot of peepz were dere... Tim, jianbing, bingquan, hongseng, chunren, yucheng, lizhi, kelvin ong, kian ngee, ee khoon, ee khoon's bro, etc etc... talked rubbish wif dem dere, Tim especialli...

n turned outt... BEN XIE reali is his elder bro... will wonders neva cease? e worls is realli so small... tim wuz on e fone wif mi n said he bro went "Shirley? is tiz shirley 16, from cck?" wows... such a small world... too coincidental alr i tink... Tim cldnt believe it too... e moment i knew Ben wuz italian chinese, iasked fer his sir name... he said Xie n i wuz wonderin eve it cld be tim's bro... man... n to think sumhow i gott ta noe Ben becuz he keepz dialin my no. accidentalli... (which he keeps saein he dint) ttz e irony i guess... dont noe y i wld keep gettin calls from him n dont noe y he actualli dint... *weird yea?* oh n i tink Tim's second bro Nick ish pretty gd lookin... xcept fer e hair which kind of spoils everything... lolx... cant help it, i juz admire malays, guyz in uniforms n caucasians or mixed bloods :*)

hmm... on e nightrider which costed $3, Tim, Kian ngee, Qikai n i played daidee... lolx... Qikai also showes us sum magic tricks... he's pretty gd at it, fast i sld sae... Jianbing n Bingquan tried ta imitate butt failed n turned outt ta be a comedy act instead... lolx... wuz laughin so hard... oh yea, i also teased Hongseng bout e frenstar thingy... cuz u're supposed ta repost a bulletin in a bulletin board right... instead he sent it as a meaage ta mi... he's new in frenstar mah... hahaha... he wuz tryin ta strangle mi fer luffin at him :*p hmm... gott down e bus at batok... Tim asked us ta join dem fer supper at gombak den crash at Kelvin's butt Bee cldnt n it wasnt nice fer a ger ta be wif so ani guys so.... yeapsh, we took a cab from dere n gott home...

watched tv fer a bit n read my novel... i wuz still thinkin "wa, first time in ages i haven been conferencin... guess i can slp earli....." n at 4 plus ching msged mi... hahaz... Junlin asked mi ta tok on e fone wif him wen he gets home from town too... so i joined Ching in... 3 of us chatted till almost 8 in e morning... talked a lot of rubbish... quite a lot of communication breakdowns too... lolx... woke up in e evening :x too late ta go aniwher, lazy too... so i decided ta stay home n juz slack a bit... aot actualli... heex... watched huanzhu gege... nice :*) ate junk food... my fav. pastime i guess? lolx... *Melvin! wherz my choco???!* hahaz...

now chattin wif neighhh, jinxuan n junlin... eeyer, jinxuan, i noe u do read my blog cuz u tagged at e tagboard... hmm... wherz my free movie? hahz... n seriousli, wadz wrong wif u 2... suddenli tag at my tagboard... sumore juz sae "song bo" hahahaz... tryin ta freak mi outt right... sian leh... later all start sch liaosh... n i start work again soon... no more fun :*( butt now still can play fer a while bah...? or so i hope... hmm.. itz gdbye 2004, hieee 2005... hope itz a great year fer us all :*)

her
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1:48 PM;;