wows... veri long dint use wholivesnearyou den i went ta check outt my pg... have a lot of msgs... most wanted my icq, msn or contact... so i juz said "i dunch use icq alr, n msn's full. contact nxt time bahx... sorry" hahaz... a bit cold rite? den i saw tiz guy hu put under his blog name chenzhexun.multiply.com... n i wuz lyke "eh... ttz multiply nott blog?" so i went ta check outt his pg too... n wuz kinda stunned... he wrote alot stuffs dere... n a poem too... he's a freelance photographer n lykes ta write poem too i guess... kinda admire him yea... go check outt his journal at multiply... n tiz e poem i like.... entitled "it rained."

It rained
My heart has reached an end where I no
longer know what is pain.
My nights were slept with tears flowing on
my soft soft pillow.
I'm one with the night and its ever loneliness.
Where memories fight back the tears like
clouds holding back the rain.
I can't be happy knowing that days are
nights to come and reminded me constantly of
the fear that crippled my dream.

I've became one with the sadness that if my
bleeding heart should dry, I'll be gone.
The one that loves you unknowingly when
shall I be gone.
Rainy days will become clear for my
heart has stopped crying been set free.
The rain shall clear and the sunshine will shine.
No one will remembered it rained.

zhexun (oct 2002)

i noe... copyright mah... so i putt his name... lolx... nice wor? kind of dark... juz e kind of poems i lyke... remember my poem entitled "things wld neva be e same again" in my first few entries? first i tink.. Wei Sheng putt it in his blog too...

hahz... saw e poem n cant hold back myself, i juz had ta blog tiz in... now conferencin wif bee, chenmin n ching again... hmm... till tml... heex... tiz time fer real...

ps: anibody wan ta donate clothes ta e ppl hu suffered from e tsunami waves? (dont noe how ta spell) i'm gonna rummage thru my stuff ta c wad i can gib... my bro n his frenz goin down ta donate dem i tink :*)

her
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6:47 PM;;

hmm... gettin' lazy ta blog alr... ttz y ydae neva blog n tadae... hahz...

wells, e nite b4 ydae we conferenced till quite late so ydae slept in... den at nite went outt ta meet bee... slacked at lot 1 fer a bit... went home ard 12... *actualli i have forgotten wad i did* hahz... conferenced again wif bee, ser, ching n linzhe... a weird guy called mi... quite sum times alr... called n kept quiet n dont noe y my hp kept having the word "retrieving" on it... so i msged e person...

me:hu r u
him: i sld be e 1 askin hu r u instead rite? i mean, u msged mi first?
me: *stunned* huh? u check ur call log. u hab called my no. quite a few times alr.

den he called. wa, nice voice... it wuz 4plus am aniwae... hahz... he wuz quite apologetic n stuffs... asked fer my name n so on... ehh... btw, he's italian chineze... name's Ben xie... wow... hahaz... quite fast too... he wuz lyke "so, i'm 19, u? have a bf? wanna tok?" eh... lyke a bit despo eh? hahaz... hmm..

aniwae, met up wif bee n ser tadae ta go bugis n town... met up chenmin too... went up ta her hse... veri nice... her dog, WOW... lyke e nippon paint dog... itz realli big n cuddli... lyke my metoyou bear, butt bigger maybe? *weiyang mite be thinking "wa, bigger than ur bear possible meh?" lolx... den cannot c eyes de... took sum pics wif dee dee... in bee's fone lah... n dont noe how ta putt in my blog so..... :*( went ta walk walk n stuff... den went on ta orchard... serene's main aim wus ta shop at Zara's, Bee wuz ta ged shoes n me, a handbag... ended up onli Ser gott wad she wanted... n tempted mi ta buy a jacket at Zara too... 30bucks, pretty nice... liked the brown 1 butt realli too mani brown accessories alr i tink... *Sighs* later all brown lyke wad lydat... so i gott e maroon 1... nott bad lah huh... saw Hankee workin at ba pin too... she highlighted her hair... quite nice bahz, though a bit weird bee dey all said... i tink cuz her hair's too short perhaps? hmm... sld i do sumtin ta my hair too??? oh, n i bought sum brown leather bracelet at heeren... bro intro mi de... pretty nice... n cheap, $4 onli :*)

went home ard 11plus, saw jonathan on e train... yea, dunch realli lyke him last time... butt he's a gentleman i muz sae... insisted on sendin mi back ta c tt i'm safe n stuff... so... yeap... walked mi ta my lift... nott bad lah him... a bit egolistic n loud butt overall he's nott a bad person :*) stepped home ard 12plus i tink... den slacked a bit... watched homerun wif my mom n dad.. till now... 145 alr den finsih watchin... quite nice... butt i tink e original version wuz nicer, more real bahz... nott so much exaggeration<--? hahz... fergott e title of e original one though... hmm... tink will be conferencin later... Raul called, thinks he wan ta conference... hmm...

tml's New Year's eve... wonder wad i'm gonna do... *sighs* no plan... wan ta go countdown de...... n heard tt e live telecast on #5 ish cancelled... sianz... till tml, ciaoz'

her
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5:50 PM;;

shag. so tired man... ydae conference till 6plus ching fell aslp wen bee hung up fer awhile... woke up tiz mornin wif e earpiece still on my ear... cool? hahz... n woke up ard 11... my mom putt e sausage mcmuffin on my chair n e aroma juz force mi ta wake... heex... have been craving fer it fer e 2nd dae ard mah :*p hmm... met up wif ching at cck... waited fer her fer bout half an hr... it wuz ard 3 wen we finalli left cck fer Sentosa... gott dere at ard 430... wuz so drenched...

e "chalet" wuz actualli a cozy lil shack, or hut? itz even smaller than muh bedroom... lolx... derez juz enuff space fer a double decker n nuttin else... no tv, bathroom, no nuttin... butt its realli cozy i guess... n its juz fer Mabel n Siwei both so i tink it sld be juz nice... aw... how sweet..... Ser, Ching, Mab, Fah, Shrutz, Siwei, Farzil n i crapped in da room fer time ta pass n e rain ta stop... it wuz fun :*) we were clappin n shouting to bascialli nuttin n everything... hahaz... wen e rain became smaller, we went outt ta start e bbq. Far, Ching n i spent quite sum time at da pit b4 we gott e charcoals hot n ready fer cooking... A bit later, Laiping n Anita came ta join us... we barbecued n eat, barbecued n eat, repeatin e process fer uite sum time till we were full... e potatoes were v.nice wif da butter *yum* all e while we were crapping n laughing... *sigh* gonna mizz thoze pipiz... we fed e cats too... were quite a few cats dere meowing n meowing... we shared our food wif dem... dey gobbled up da food pretty fast :*)

wen it wuz ard 9, we washed up n gott ready ta go ta e beach... Anita n Laiping left. we ran all e wae to Siloso beach... as we gott dere, we played wif firestick?(yan huo lah), candles, etc... e candles onli floated outt to e sea fer a bit, dint ged v.far :*( butt it wuz a nice sight..... btw, derez theze rehearsal at e beach... tink itz fer e countdown on fridae (wished i cld go...) so we went forward ta check it outt... dey looked pretty messy :x butt overall their dance looked okie... dunch tink dey were veri frenli though, cuz we clapped n stuff at e end of 1 rehearsel n dey sort of snubbed us... beside us were 3 Caucasians(1 wuz quite hot, haha) n dey clapped along wif us... aft which we took sum pics n gott back ta e cozy lil hut... took our stuff n prepared ta leave as Mab n Siwei went ta bathe... we caught e last Blue line bus ta e arrival station n took another bus ta harbourfront staion... den we proceeded ta take 188... wa, e bus wuz super duper cold! gott home ard 1240, juz as 1 of my fav. shows recentli wuz ending :*( butt neva mind, e outing wuz worth it :*) i'll realli mizz those guyz man.... n hmm, wonder wad ta do wif muh hair... cut? dye? no idea.. Shrutz n Fah said i sld cut a lil n highlight brown... i've neva realli liked e idea of changing my hair color...... dont know eve i sld change tt thinking..... dunch like changes... butt... hmmm....

feels so tired... n kept thinkin how sweet it is... Mab n Siwei's relationship i mean... Siwei booked e lil hut ard june... juz e two of dem stayin fer 3daes n 2 nites... hurhur... wad kinda shenanigans mite dey be up to? nah... dey're a cute couple n will behave demselves... eee! so sweeeeeeeet.....! *envy* hope dey last fer a looong looong time :*)

btw, i've been gettin a lot of stomaches since ydae or e dae b4... arg, feels lyke hell. hafta go ta e toiletn stuffs... wonder wad i ate?

hmm... n conferenced wif Raul (fren from sentosa) ydae... told us(bee n ching n i) quite a lot of stuffs... said sum things which made mi think too... wuz quite a nice chat... felt tt i've learnt something n matured a lil bit more... heh heh...

oh n also saw sumbodi hu looked a lot lyke Danny tadae... tiz aft which waitin fer bus 188... he's a malay though... hmm... n kept thinking of all e What ifs........ do u tink? ....neh... hmm... what if i gave him another chance? arg... perish e thought... he's too beng fer mi... n i sldnt be lookin backwards. wadeva.

wadeva wadeva.

wonder eve we'll conference tanite... Bro's playin mahjong wif Wei yang... sianz... i wan ta go fer countdown on fridae........ hahz... tink i shall stop here'

ps:Melvin dint ferged bout mi! he bought chocos fer mi from Japan! ttz sweet of ya, thank u! heex... feels so bad tt i wuz telling bee "eeyer Melvin fergot bout mi no buy anitin fer mi" paiseh leh... :*)

her
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6:06 PM;;

i cant believe it... record fer e longest conference session ever! 8 hrs! from 1am midnite ta 9am in e morning... i tink we're krazy... all e while bee n ching n i were on e line... we tried lookin fer ppl huz awake ta call in... so........ i msged 1 person, bee msged 1 n so did ching... Eugene wuz e first ta call in i tink... he's e 1 i msged... junlin need ta go sch in e mornin so i dint call... den aft tt bee's fren, Edwin from outside called in... so 5 of us chatted n chatted in e wee hrs of e nite... aft awhile Edwin went ta slp... awhile more, it wuz Eugene's turn... n we were wonderin hu ta call again.. i guess tt wuz perhaps 6plus? observe e conversation:

ching: eh u all make mi feel veri buay on leh cuz i neva call anibody in
me: yea lah alwaez i call de now ur turn lah
bee: yea call e clementi de
ching: siao, thoze neve contact fer veri long time how can
me: y cannot? u all alwaez ask mi to do tt mah?!!!
ching :ok loh

before long, a guy called Seng called in... another of bee's fren.. tt wuz confusing... dunno how dey knew each other man... sumbodi said she wuz bee n gave e guy bee's number... haha... n he called in ta chat... he dint slp either... i tink he's e lamest of e ppl hu called in... he repeats everyting he saes, fer instance "huh huh huh huh huh" or "yea yea yea" crapped fer a bit till light fell n he hung up ta do his tutorial...

aft a while...

ching: eh i msged Eugene(another one lah) n he replied
me n bee: ask him call in, btw, huz tt
ching: i also dunno how i noe him...

-_____________-"

ps:we were talkin in chinese aniwae :x

n so we TOT e guy called in... turns outt... it wuz our sch Eugene... cuz bee told mi ta msg him ta c eve he's awake... n e first ting he did he called back... oh yeah, e nite b4 i also onli msg him n he called back.. lolx... tt wuz damn embarrassing... cuz we all TOT it wuz ching's fren Eugene... n bee kept saein "eh y he sound lyke our sch Eugene" n ching wuz lyke "wei tok leh u wher gott so shy wan" a lot of confusion dere... aft sumtime, ching asked e guy wher he is in sms n he said pasir ris... n we were shocked... butt e guy on e fone said he's at home, juz woke up... n den he said 1 line

Eugene:i wher gott sae i at pasir ris, i onli msg Shir wad

n den we went -___________-" shit! all e while we tot he wuz sumbodi else n crap so much... so pai seh fer us all... gd ting wuz, Eugene wuz still drowsy tt kind... blur blur cuz juz woken up n dunno wad we were talkin bout... lolx... den ard 8plus Eugene spoke up wen all slp alr. n he woke mi up... DEN, he fell back aslp... at tt time i wuz craving fer Mcdonalds sausage mcmuffin so i told my mom ta help mi buy (butt she got mi mchicken, lolx) n wen i picked up my hp again, all wuz silent...

me: bee suan!!! bee!!!
no response
me:huichinghuichinghuichinghuichinghuiching
no response
me: EUGENE!!!
Eugene: huh.... (he wuz lyke slp talkin, sumtin which ching did mani times)

den at ard 9, bee hung up w/o a word... Eugene said he had ta go n bathe n go outt so he hung up too... leaving mi n ching on e line... aft shoutin fer mani times, i hung up on her... pengz... n i slept fer a bit n wake up, slept fer a bit n wake up... man... feels so krazy... wei yang n jun lin both said tt we were krazy... up till now, ching havent even woken up... itz 730 fer heavens sake... haha... n bee wuz lyke "wei tonite again huh" haha...

yea i noe, nice life rite?

her
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11:35 AM;;

hmm... ydae conference wif bee, ching n jinxuan... hang up ard 5plus6... woke up ard 5... hahaz... my nite has becum my dae n vice versa... slack in front of e comp fer a bit, chattin n lame-ing wif junlin... den Marc called... asked mi outt fer coffee...

met him up ard 830... slacked at coffeebean... *again* den i went ta ged Yami yoghurt *again* raspberry flavor wif oreo toppings... *yum* i am oh-so-not-addicted... hahaz...

oh man.. tiz boring... derez nuttin more ta blog bout... hahaz... gonna conference again later... wonder wif hu... oh n btw, Andy told mi he moved hse :*( y all moved outt of sunshine place area??? hai... he also no choice lah same ash mi... *saded* he moved ta redhill alr... hmm...

n teck ish tagather wif sooyin alr... happi fer dem both... both r nice peepz... n teck's has enuff of his share of unavailable gerz too.. finalli he's gott sumbody... n sooyin ish lyke 1 of e nicest gerz ard... sincere n such... tink dey wld make a gd couple... :*) hope dey last... aw... sweeet!

wen is it my turn??? hahaz... sianz... update wen derez more interestin stuff goin on.... ciiiiaoz'

her
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3:45 PM;;

okies, update on ydae first... ydae wuz e 24th, christmas eve. wad did i do... hmm... oh... woke up n Nizam wuz at my place, playin winning eleven wif bro. i played wif him fer a bit den he went back.. bro n i went ta Mambo (timah) ta meet my frenz-bee,ching,ser,hongsiong,brian n his frenz-weiyang,justin,n whats-his-name... hahz... ard evening, my bro n his frenz went over ta Shu ping's ta parrrty n my frenz n i went ta j.e. we cldnt ged e kbox at lot1 cuz itz fully booked. we onli booked on e 23rd n gott j.e, time slot 8-12... ching dint go cuz she's broke n cant stay outt late :*( we went ta lot 1 first though... cuz i wanted ta ged sum stuff fer my family n ged yami yoghurt fer myself... :*) gott my yami yoghurt n saw teck, guozhan, haoping! wei ann n zixuan... guess dey were waitin fer sia n sooyin... went up ta seiyu ta sae a few "hi"s n off we went ta j.e. arrived dere a wee bit earli n checked in first. hongsiong n bee went ta pack food up fer us... we half ate n sang at kbox... it wuz kinda krazy... hongsiong wuz pickin all e oldies n we were lyke "hey! i noe tiz song!" yea, dey chose a lot of chinese songs... i sang e few english ones dey hab n attempted ta sing a few chineze ones :*p ard 1145 e person told us "last song" n we sang "jungle bell rock" n sum chineze techno... horsing ard... btw, derez tiz middle aged ppl in e room opp. us n dey were drunk... dey were shakin their butts n stuff... eewl... hahaz... we kept peekin over.. gott outt of kbox n realized e place had quite a lot of ppl.. derez tiz santa claus (hu wuz our waiter at first) n he came by ta shake hands... *shake shake* n i shouted merry xmas ta everybody i saw... hahaz.. saw tiz security guard n... (observe our conversation)

me: mr security guard!
guard turned in my direction
me: merry xmas!!!
guard smiled
guard: merry xmas to u too! bye bye!

hahaz... n off we went n i saw a mcdonald worker...

me: mcdonald worker!
*he dint hear mi or perhaps juz tot i wasnt callin him*

lolx... kinda lame... oh! forgot 1 big thing! at 12 in kbox wen we shouted MERRY XMAS! Hong Siong took outt 3 plushies each n gave it ta us! aw... sweet rite??? bee suan gott mashi maro in a bee shirt... haha... ser gott a lil hippo tt cld vibrate n i gott winnie da poo poo in green... it so suited e occasion! bee, ser n i felt so bad cuz we dint ged him anitin......

called my bro n he asked mi ta join Shu ping's party... bee, hongsiong n ser dint mind so we were on our wae ta Ivory heights... saw a 7-11 on da wae... bee, ser n i went in ta ged sumtin fer hongsiong.. i spent 4bucks, bee 4buck n ser 2bucks... we bought peach mochi (itz icecream tt looked lyke glutinous balls) n candles, along wif a doggy plushie... lighted 2 candles on e mochi n gave it ta hong siong... gave him e doggy too... he wuz veri touched he said... :*) finalli we reached ivory heights. e place wuz beautiful... four of us sat at e bench near e door n chatted a bit n stuffs... ard 2 plus bee, ser n hongsiong went off. Jonhson n i walked dem outt n walked back... went inta da house n sat wif Xiao hui... she's v.nice i told ya... dey played bluff (Xiaohui, Weiyang, Weiting n her bf) den we played heart attack aft tt... wif shuping also... bout tt time, Xiaohan, my bro n johnson went ta slp alr... it wuz 3plus i tink...

den at 4 plus a few more slept, leaving Xiaohui, Grace, Shuping, Weiyang, Weiting, Serene, Kaixiang n so on... we went outt ta e playgrd n played on e swings n stuff... hahaz... wen i gott on e swing, Kai xiang kept pushin mi... it wuz supposed ta be a relaxin activity butt turned tiring... lolx... went back inta e hse at ard 5plus... a few more slept... e rest of us chatted at e table n ate sum of e leftover food... too much left over... helped ta clean up also... talked quite a lot... dint feel lyke an outkast :*) butt realized tt i alwaez help ta clean up wen i dint start e mess each time... lolx... tt wuz wad Xiaohui said... cuz tt happened at Johnson's place also... we chatted till 7plus n woke e rest up... aft which, Xiaohan, my bro, Wei yang n i shared a cab back.. reached home n wuz almost 8 alr... finalli i can slp! i slept n slept till...... 7pm!!!!!!!

hahaz... yeah i'm such a pig i noe... too late fer animore celebrations fer xmas... watched tv fer a bit n went ta lot 1 ta ged Yami yoghurt... raspberry flavor wif choco rice ash toppings.. *yum* eddie asked mi ta go over his frenz place butt i dint... Marc asked mi ta catch Kungfu hustle butt i dint also cuz dunno eve my family wants ta watch it tagather notx... n bro dint reply my sms... tink he's busy parrrtying..

aft my yami yoghurt i went over ta bp ta fetch my mom home from work :*) ate da toasted bread n stuff dere too... oh n i bought my mom some cookies fer xmas... e packagin wuz veri nice so i cldnt resist... bought my bro Merci chocos too... even though i am quite broke alr...

wows.. takes so much time ta recollect wad i did in theze 2 days... hmm... yea more ta cum... ydae mornin while waitin fer 307 ta go mambo, i witnessed an accident. e bike rammed inta e van n i saw e bike shatterin inta pieces... dere wuz a loud "boom!" too... bro ran over n called 995 n i wuz bside him.. e ma wuz lying on e road, his head's all bleedin... it wuz rainin too... *pathetic fallacy* wuz kinda scared... a million thoughts ran thru my mind too.. tt veri evenin bro witnessed another accident... tiz mornin on e cab dere wuz another 1...

i realized how fragile, how vulnerable life is... it cld be gone jus like that, juz wif a snap of one's fingers. i thought of what e man lying on e road mite be thinking. i thought of e ppl he mite be hoping to see... i prayed fer him... prayed fer all e ppl hu gott inta accidents.. i became aware how easy accidents cld happen. i guessed my bro did too. tiz mornin he gott us all ta fasten our seat belts... n ydae i wuz afraid ta cross e roads n such... in da mornin, all i wanted ta do wuz ta ged home, to feel safe. i have witnessed far too much fer mi ta cherish every moment i have wif my loved ones... hmm... life is so vulnerable... sld treasure every moment we have... n nott have regrets... i even thought of wad wld happen eve i juz ged into an accident on e spot... *choy* butt... i realli wondered... eve i wld ged ta blog e whole incident down, n ta do all e tingz i wanted ta do in future, n ta c e ppl i love... n even wondered eve wld be sad... hahz... tink too much butt i juz cldnt help it... wondered how ppl wld refer to me...

now again thinkin bout all e hows n what ifs... if we all juz leave e world 1 dae, wad wld be left... to let ppl know tt we once existed? wher wld we all go? or wld everything juz go on lyke nuttin happened...? hmm.

guess i'm thinkin too much again.. n tiz entry ish veri veri long alr... till tml den......'

ps: received a xmas card from haoping wif a lot of scribblings... he drew n wrote about our time tagather in 3e2 n 4e2... real sweet of him... wuz so touched, still am... sad to separate... lurve u guys from 4e2... lurve ya haoping... :*)

her
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4:30 PM;;

hahaz... now on e fone wif bee, settling wad ta do tml... itz all so messy! n itz 2am now!

hmm... update on ydae first... ydae wuz slack city... at nite conference wif bee, chenmin, ching n recoyl... putt down e fone at ard 6...

woke up tiz morning ta go town... plan wuz ta
1) buy xmas gifts fer my mumi, daddy n bro
2) buy xmas prezzie cum frenship token fer bee, ching, ser n junlin(tt time said he want also)
3) buy levi's jeans
4) buy a few tops
5) buy a handbag

ended up, i bought
1) a purple skirt at heeren ($28.60)
2) levi's 593 jeans (i tink.. costed $101.50)
3) purple off shoulder from Mango (13 bucks onli)
4) brown (again) short sleeved top from Mango ($19)
5) 1 candy cane fer myself (a dollar n 5 cents)

guess i did juz 1 ting? my levis? cham liaosh... spent god knowz how much... oh yea, n loan ching 11bucks... cuz of e Mango larz... krazy sale... all e females were goin krazy... total chaos, yea. e snatchin n throwin... e few males in e store looked so lost! lolx... n dey were lyke havin e wa-i-neva-knew-gers-r-so-powerful look.. even those ladies were snatchin n such... wows, i pity thoze salesppl... e purple skirt! dint plan on gettin it cuz last time it wuz too big n no more stock... den tadae gott new ones... itz straight den opens outt wif a flair... nott bad :*p butt i tink i bought too mani skirts alr. :x e levi's... i tink wuz 593 super super low tite bootcut... e person said i sld ged size 25... butt itz totalli fitting, hope it getz a bit looser... eve nott cham liaosh.. correction... tink i've gott too mani bottoms... e tops from Mango... dint realli lyke dem, butt wuz juz tempted by e cheap cheap prices so bought dem aniwae...

planned ta ged 5 candy canes (fer mi, bee, ching, ser n junlin) hahaz... butt dint cuz budget :x wanted ta do sum handicrafts fer dem n attach it wif e candy cane butt no time also.. actualli i even tot of wad ta do alr... lyke using diff color cards fer each letter of their names n puttin tagather on a black cardboard den wrappin it up n attach a string fer hanging den write merry xmas, frenz fer life bhind... hahaz... u hafta imagine tt... butt butt butt... i dint... feel sho bad :*( n dint ged anitin fer my family... feels even worst...........

oh... n *blush* walked by UOB bank at faber hse also... saw mr policeman... he dint notice mi though... hahaz... i noe wad u're tinkin "buay pai seh" rite... hurhur... overwhelming admiration ish lydat de... i've neva been lydat too :* aft shoppin at Mango, i walked past e bank again, nott deliberateli lah! n i saw e policeman wif e chineze 1 opp... eee.... hahaz... ching also bth mi alr... malays.just.rawk! :*p hu cares bout e chineze policeman? hahaz...

oh n i saw lin xiang ping tadae... dunno eve ttz her name.. she wuz wif sum frenz... lolx... n dint ged my yami yoghurt :*( cuz stayed far too long at Mango... shallnt describe in detail.. cuz i've gotta play "winning eleven" wif korkor... hahaz... i juz learnt how ta play... n gotta call back bee n 1 other fren called kiki... i'm kinda pissed at him... wan ta scold him liaosh... yeap yeap...

n tml will be fun i guess? pool wif my bro n his frenz n den wif my frenz den kbox den.... haiya, tml den update.. c ya!!!

her
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6:35 PM;;

hmmz... first things first. happi cuz... tadae's e "last" dae of work! "last" cuz free till nxt project in jan!!! can play alr!!! yet not cuz...... tadae's e Last Dae at Faber hse doing UOB card... so.... no more mr Policeman :*(

talked ta him tadae... hahaz... farnie... as usual, he gave mi thoze stoopid lookz... once, i wuz taking a sip from my peach tea (remember tt my roadshow n e bank's juz separated by a glass panel" n he juz use his hign signs again, saein tt he's very thirsty n wan a drink also.. den i pretend wif him lorz... i juz thrust outt my drink ta him n he pretended ta be slurpin from it.. wa, lame enuff? den e other time i wuz photocopying a customer's Nric n wuz lookin super shag i guess. so he juz sit on e sofa inside n give mi e look-at-me-i-am-so-blessed look.. *pengzZz* tiz kinda policeman also hab right.. plus pretended ta lie his head on e side n slp... grr... den Ser went fer ice cream aft which wuz my turn... den e policeman walked by again... n Ser said "my fren wan take pic wif u!" AR! i juz wan his pic, nott take wif him rite... butt e policeman wuz lyke "huh huh" he walked too fast so dint hear clearli... nvm loh..... felt so pai seh *blush* first time i wan a guy's pic b4... hahaz... admire him mahz... he's lyke 25yrs old alr so cant be anitin else kie dunch anihow tink...

den i went ta da toilet... juz nice he wuz outt fer a break ta smoke... n he stopped right in front of mi... he gave e stoopid look again n i dont noe how we started talking... tink maybe wuz i juz went "eh photo leh"... hahaz... n he wuz lyke "nah" butt he asked why... so i juz said itz our last dae at Faber hse doing e roadshow mah... den he wuz lyke "huh! last dae also ar" dunno wad he talkin bout lah, wad last dae also... ttz y i said "wad "also"?... juz last dae loh" n he went "aw... so sad" Purposely wan leh... mani timez nott juz once... "huh... sad hor.." butt he said later den take e pic... n i responded saein later cant cuz manager dere n stuff n he said can lah or nxt time n tt he will alwaez be dere... (i noe u wan ta smoke but...) hahaz... n i said "yea den i go UOB n knock knock rite" n he said "yea la!" pek chek liaosh lah... den okie loh i juz walked off... hahz... nxt time i go shoppin or drop by...
no more mr policeman... lolx... n Ser said sumtin tt bugged mi so much... i neva asked fer his name... lolx... wadevas.

okie. other topics... yay... can play... hmm... now wonderin wad ta do fer xmas eve n xmas... wan go countdown de juz town on sumtin... den yin go m'sia till 26th... hai. hab sum guyfrenz ta go wif butt i wan gerfrenz. n korkor n mummi advize mi nott ta go, itz a messy place... yeap yeap... so nowher ta go... dunno izzit fri or sat Wei yang ask mi ta go play pool wif him.. tink wif my bro n johnson, kai xiang maybe.. aft tt go another of their fren's party or sumtin... i'm considering it... hmm... butt wan a gathering wif mi frenz too... so much ta catch up on... wonder wad i can plan... tinkin of goin sentosa butt derez no link leh, xmas n sentosa? pool also no connection... maybe xmas eve go kbox? butt yin nott ard... den mi n bee meh? hahz... brain stormin--problem solving... n i needa ged xmas gift fer my family... wanted ta do sumtin fer my gd frenz too... yea rem jun lin said he wants also... butt tadae den break from work, too late... i'll c wad i can do... hmm...

maybe later tok on e fone... hai. policeman. hahaz.. even ser agrees tt he's gott tiz charm.... n he's malay... i'm a su*ker fer malays.... hahaz... yea... oh oh... fergott bout tiz... in town tiz few daes derez alr so much festive spirit in e air... i can feel it in my blood man... a lot of choirs singing xmas chorous n stuff... in haagen daaz even e crew's singing... feels so.... warm! cuddly! etc etc... Love is in e air~~~ tiz' e season ta be jolly~~~ lolx... n i gave outt a lot magazines fer free tadae cuz last dae at e roadshow so give loh... feels gd... rem 1 said "oh u're so kind, thank u v. much!" n sum lil kids said a sweet "thank u" while otherz juz smiled... makes my heart smile too... hahaz... christmas rawkz i guess?

I LOVE YOU ALL!!! ~***hhhmmmuaaaaaaaaaahhh***~

her
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4:55 PM;;

tadae is okie-okie dae... work wuz alrite, my sales were e most i tink... Ser n Tricia wasnt in e mood tadae... den bulli mi... Tricia sae since i tadae sales so gd ask mi keep grab den dey do e documents... wad e ^%$#&%$& i passed 2 of my sales ta Tricia ta do (she wanted ta do) den she did.... n wrote HER NAME........ *curses* alwaez lydat. plus she sit down do thoze den ask mi do sales. den wen she done wif e customer, she went "wei kuai dian leh, i wan more updates, too lil alr. kuai diannnnn" n i wuz lyke *eye rolling* n also her other line "i wan u to ask EVERY customer ok" so i wuz juz lyke a battery operated rabbit tt goes "hi mdm, Cashplus fer u? hi sir, Cashplus fer u, first yr free" n she juz sit dere n stone. :*(

saded. tadae e policeman saw mi at work again. n he wuz lyke having e eh-u-r-back-at-work look... plus gave mi thoze stoopid looks again... sad part is.... he dint walk outt e same wae ta leave e bank tadae... dint c him leave at all :*( hahaz... goin krazy alr... overwhelming admiration i have..... tml's my last dae workin at Faber House... wun ged ta c or share stoopid looks wif e policeman liaosh :x i bet Ser realli realli cant stan mi animore. hahz... hai. Ser's gott her bro's hp, gott camera de... eve i can muster up my courage.......... n eve e timing is right...... n if e situation is right too....... i will ged his picture. hahaz... but i tink i dont have e guts ta do it. n e situation will neva be rite. cuz, he's on duty n i'm working. he's off at ard 4plus n i off onli at 9plus. so dere wun be ani chance fer mi ta ask him fer a foto. n we hab onli said stoopid stuffs n shown stoopid faces butt neva actualli t-a-l-k. hai..... n even eve i ged e chance how m i suppose ta sae? "erm... u cum outt fer awhile? (using hand signs)" den "eh, can take ur pic, we tadae last dae, juz as a memento lah, can?" arg! hai. hopeless case. o.v.e.r.w.h.e.l.m.i.n.g-a.d.m.i.r.a.t.i.o.n......

wadevas.

yea, gott home a lil earlier tadae. ard 11plus reached alr. Danny called. yea my 10mth ex bf... he still wants ta patch aft more than a yr. normalli i ignore him butt tadae... saw him at cck n i juz walked on. den he called. i hesitated fer a while butt picked up in e end, mind set on gettin himta move on. hai. it doesnt work. i noe he's true. i mean, i'm nott lyke juz saein no n neva tink of giving him, us a chance b4. i tot of it, alot of times actualli. n e outcome is still e same... i dont wan ta go back. ta tt kind of life. we're from 2 diff worlds. he's willing to change n all, give up everyting fer mi. its nott lyke i dont believe... but. i mean, wads e use? nuttin is forever... forever doesnt exist in my dictionary... so e outcome wld still be e same... so y waste out time n effort n lett ourselves go thru it all again? shed tears all over again? right??? haiz... dont noe lahz...

hai. cant wait fer tml nite. aft work n i'm free fer sum time... gotta sort tingz outt, tink tingz thru... spend more than an hr on tiz entry alr cuz i'm watchin tv n bloggin... yea[ yeap, multi-tasking... haiz. kie... dont noe y bro wan mi ta call him... gd nite'

her
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5:26 PM;;

hahz... dint update ydae n e nite b4 i tink... gettin a wee bit lazy... e nite b4 ydae wuz fri bahx. yeapsh, wei yang stayed over at our place. watched la bi xiao xin wif my bro n i den we played *asshole daidee* itz a silly game wherby e 1st game ish juz a normal daidee game so we ged e ultimate winner hu will be "e king/queen" n e ultimate loser hu will be e "asshole" den e nxt round e asshole will hafta gib e king/queen 2 of his/her largest cards ta e king/queen in xchange of e king/queen's 2 smallest cards. hahaz... confused? nah, itz actualli quite easy... i wuz queen all e wae till e last 3 rounds i remained e "asshole" fer 3 consecutiveli rounds *juz cuz i dont noe how ta climb back ta e top* den we ended e game at ard 330 n we all tucked in.

ydae wuz sat rite... hmm... wad did i do... oh yeah, i slacked at home till ard evenin n met up wif Bee, chenmin, gabrielle, julian, linzhe, brian, kirby, hongsiong n 1 commonwealth guy. we went ta eat n played pool at timah. went ta Century n saw 1 of my outside fren... played till aft midnite... oh yea, i called Weisheng along too... Tim dint go :*( we were makin fools of ourselves man... laughin so loudli n stuff... hahaz... den aft tt all e rest went back xcept hongsiong, weisheng n i... i ate cheeze prata at e almeen<--fergott how ta spell alr. it wuz nott up ta standard ydae, cldnt taste or c e cheeze at all :*( aft tt hongsiong n i shared a cab back...

went ta work in e aft tadae cuz i lied bout having ta go ta my grandma's place so i cld report late fer work... hahz... met up wif Wei yang... he sort of accompanied mi ta work bahx... juz tt i alighted at Somerset whereas he alighted at Raffles place... strangeli enuff, i wuz on time butt he wuz a lil late... hahaz... tink my bro dont noe his gd fren met up wif mi ta send mi ta work :x n since i putt it here he wld noe it sooner or later... hahaz... wei yang u're so dead :*p

reported at work n.... yay! dere wuz no Tricia! hahaz... juz e other Shirley, Serene n Sherine... hahaz, yea Shirley, Shirley, Serene n Sherine... we juz need another Seline maybe? wuz having a hard time tryin ta promote tadae cuz i'm still havin tiz terrible sore throat n tiz cold tt keepz mi going *sniffsniff* n *sniffsniff* over n over again... butt managed ta grab a lot of sales in e end... Sherine wuz lett off earli.. we closed at ard 0915 n passed e target of 40... we managed ta achieve 45 sales... Tricia said "gd work gers, rest well" n a customer said tt i'm or we're dedicated n ttz gd... cuz he wuz kinda shocked tt we r still open at such a late time ash Roadshows nomalli end earlier.. n i juz said e truth, tt dere r quite a lot of customers so we had ta stay open... we sld close at 8plus n stuff de... lolx... feels gd doesnt it? (of cuz u wun feel it, onli e ppl involved will)

hahaz... my throat hurts... *sniffsniff* btw, i dint c e policeman tadae :*( e bank's nott open on sundaes... hahz... Ser said he looked at her ydae n she wuz wonderin eve he wanted ta ask y i', nott ard... lolx... lame ar ser :*p oh n ydae Jason n Daniel went fer work... Jason DINT tell mi! he tot i goin ta work mah... stoopid... neva ged ta c Daniel... hahaz... Daniel wanted my number n dey (e other Shirley n Serene) betted wif him... sae eve cld ged 50 sales or wad den gib butt he dint reach his target... Ser said he wuz lyke jumpin ard tt he cant ged... hahaz... farnie... tink Jason told his bout my type of gerz... sia lar wad my type... my type onli hab mi 1 person... hahaz, bhb alr. Shirley told mi he lyke thoze cute cute n stuff de so suggested mi n Ser den Jason sae i more Daniel's type den Ser. hahaz... den tadae met up wif Jason at Paragon... sent him my pic cuz he wan ta send Daniel... hmm... wonder how he looks lyke... eeyer... i'm nott so pathetic kie Jason! don keep matchmake mi lah u pipi!(Ser , Shirley n Jason) do all tiz stuff bhind my back wen i'm on leave... hahaz... at least Ser told mi... Jason wasnt intendin ta tell mi i tink... :*p

n yeah Marc called mi wen i wuz workin n aft work cuz he wanted ta go back wif mi... butt i wuz still in town wen he wanted ta go back so he went back first... hahz... i'm so bad ta him, alwaez neva pei him... heck lahz... :x

my ulcer's hurtin as well.. yea story of my life rite... hahz... aniwae, i cant wait fer Tues nite... den i'm free fer a few daes! :*D den can go shop shop n stuff alr... tml still hafta work... heez... policeman :*p byeee bloggy!

her
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5:36 PM;;

ar! i'm sick! bad sorethroat, headache, cold.. etc... feel lyke crap... onli gd ting is........ i'm free from work! dint work tadae! went ta e doc's n took mc... :*) hope tml no need go also.. my manager dint reply mi... i hab 2 daes mc... heck lah :*p butt i dint exactli make full use of my dae... dint go outt... i gott home aft seein doc at ard 12... den i slept all e wae till evening... :X junlin supposed ta wake mi up, butt dint succeed i guess? lolx... wasted 1 dae... neva mind, later can watch la bi xiao xin :*)

*koff koff* oh xcuze mi :*p

hai... feels so uneasy man. n wonder wad ta do tml... don tink i wld be going ta work... bad ting ish i cannot ged my pay tadae... dunno wen den will ged :*( tink while i wuz slpin i received a lot of smses... from junlin, ida, tricia, bee, joseph, jinxuan, etc etc... butt i wuz too blur, dunch remember wad dey sent, juz noe tt dey msged mi... lolx... i'm so bored... hope tml i can slp till aft den go outt play... heex... nuttin much ta sae alr, itz been quite some dae...

her
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12:35 PM;;

sighs... i'm sick :*(
all e perfume n smokez gotten to mi... caused my terrible cold... plus sore throat, headache n such... e usual... n i've still gott work till tues. dont noe wad to do bout sundae. told Tricia long ago alr, sae sundae i'm off from work. den now sae i cant. wonderin eve i sld work till end of december or jan... heard tt jan e roadshows will be even more packed. now alr 9 daes no break so wad bout jan??? :*( *headache*

juz gott home awhile... aft work Enhua told mi ta go Tampines find him cuz he haven finish work yet.. havent gott a choice cuz ser's nott wif mi(she went fer band farewell) so i gott dere ard 11plus. had Mcdonalds n took a cab home wif Enhua... on e cab we chatted wif da uncle... cuz i wuz tokin bout how i envy thoze my age n nott workin, juz outt partyin each dae... den Enhua wuz lyke my bro, saein "work's like that. u've gotta adapt." hai.

i dont want. i dont want to grow up. i dont want to move on. i'm scared.

n Enhua told mi wad i dont want to hear, wad sum other ppl told mi before. "u have to, u've gott no choice. everybody's gott to move on some dae." cuz i wuz tellin him, how much i dont want to grow up. i dont wan to move on to e workin industry. shucks, i dont even wan to leave secondary sch. i'm afraid of moving on. n i hate changes. neva liked it since young. i hated moving hse 2 yrs ago. i cried n cried fer mani daes, hopin we wun hafta move. in e end we still did. i wld neva forget tt dae. my bro n i did sum stoopid tings. he knew how much i dont want to move n told mi to do sum tingz since ttz e last chance we have to do it.... we took sum pens, n wrote on e walls. i even reached outt my window n drew an arrow n said "my room (shirley)" i wuz so sad. i still am. yeah, how i hate changes. right now i am realli afraid of wad e future mite be lyke.

i think realli deep thoughts... n have often tot of e future. i imagine myself in e future, sumhow i am alone... dont u realize tt sec sch's e time ppl hang outt in grps, wif their true friends? as we move on, our grps gradually gets smaller n we started doin things alone. like work fer example. tears wld start to fall each time i tink of all tiz. wad wld happen to my parents...? damn it. i dont wan to go dere again. wld start tearing n feelin afraid. most ppl are anticipatin e future n stuff whereas i am kind of dreadin it. i just wish time wld stop right now. nott now as in now, butt now as in a few months back when i'm still studyin in sch. n all i hafta worry bout is e nxt test n so on... hahz... if only time cld stop..... if only......

okie gotta snap back ta reality. n think happy thoughts instead. lyke mr policeman fer instance. hahaz... Ser cant stan mi alr... he did thoze stoopid faces again. tadae stuck outt tongue at mi.(wad kinda policeman is tiz) lolx... ard 5 plus he left cuz bank closes ard 4. as he passed by our roadshow, he went "tsk tsk, go back lah go back lah" while shakin his head in tiz manner tt said oh-u-still-working?-i-finished-work-alr... lolx... farnie... oh, fergott ta mention tiz... he's tall, as in tall, tall. yeah... hahaz...

oh back ta e taxi uncle earlier... he told Enhua n i a lot of stuffz... itz lyke e kinda tingz u can onli hear, n learn from older ppl. with age cums wisdom i guess... he's nice... n charged us 19bucks wen itz actualli $19.60(or 19.40 i fergot) i paid first butt itz supposed ta be my Enhua's treat... lolx... he will pay mi back wen he geds his pay :*) now i'm koffing as well. tink itz his fault lah! took my drink n sae neva mind lah we both sick... hahaz... i'm sick butt no koff n he passed it ta mi... hahaz... nah... i sld stop blaming him... lolx...

aniwae, i'm so tired now... gotta save e tingz in my C drive in caze korkor remove tiz comp tml or sumtin... n will slp ard 3 again i suppoze... tml wake up ard 830... c ya!

her
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5:30 PM;;

hurhur.. dint update ydae cuz cum home too late n i wanted ta spend sum time watchin la bi xiao xin. my goodness. version 3, disc 2, first story. ttz e lamest xiao xin show i've ever watched. my bro watched wif mi n we were lyke -________-" butt quite farnie also lahz :*p

aniwae, i forget ta mention. 2 daes ago wuz my 1st dae at Faber house Orchard doin UOB credit cards rite.. i saw Steph Song! wa, gorgeous! *envy* she wuz wif e mother-in-law from Achar! n ydae i saw 1 chineze celebrity..(u tink i noe his name meh) n tadae i saw VJ Denise! wa, v.cool, nice figure n.... aiya, 1 word, "wow" *envy* hahz...

heex... our roadshow ish juz directli in front of e bank.. den derez tiz malay policeman. damn cool :*) dashing as well :*) ydae while i wuz photocopyin a customer's Nric, i juz looked in de bank (nuttin ta do mah) n e policeman wuz dere. n he started doin a lot of farnie faces at mi. (tiz kinda policeman also hab) hahaz... fer example, he scrunched up his face n all tt.. den pretend ta take e chair n stuff ta mi (wif hand signals of cuz) n i wuz laughin alr. bank closes at ard 4plus so aft which he walked by our roadshow... n he did those faces again n said "byebye" lyke purposeli cuz he's off from work alr. -_________-" den tadae wen he left e bank he did e same ting.. so i started laughin again---juz as e other policeman walked by... n he wuz lyke -_____-" n giving e u-siao-ar-y-laughin-to-urself look. :* *paiseh*
lolx... n yea i tink e malay policeman's so cute :x i fa chun (i don realli noe wad tt means) liaosh... n Ser cant stan mi alr. hahaz... i wuz attendin ta 1 customer n she tapped mi on e shoulder, hard. n pointed at e malay policeman. den e customer turned ta look also n wuz wonderin wadz goin on too... liewz...

okie, i sld stop bout e policeman. hahaz... but he's realli cute. n i have a thing fer malays.... *rubbish*

tadae sales gott worse i tink. :*( so it wuz realli tiring cuz no sales = no sittin down n fillin in forms so i stood most of e time. added on Tricia wuz naggin (as usual). n i'm having a runny noze cuz our roadshow ish right bside OG nm they're havin tiz perfume sale outside. i wasnt able ta stan too much scents since young n it wuz overwhelming. n Faber hse is an open place (unlike tampines mall n lot 1) so derez a lot of smoke ash well. itz wuz unbearable. n my noze goes v.red each time i squeeze it... i wuz sneezing fer e whole dae. **or maybe someone's missing mi, tinkin bout mi, or talkin bout mi?** wad rubbish. furthermore, i'm cumin down wif a headache...

i dont feel so gd... n i've still gotta work........... :*~~~( tired. so tired.

i shall stop feelin down.

yay! ida's back :*) cant wait fer tues ta cum n we go outt, shoppin n so on :*) n wher's my gift? huh??? hahaz...

btw, tiz past 3 daes been goin back wif Enhua... he's juz my sista lah wad u tinkin? :*p he finishes from work at ard 1030, juz in time ta catch e same train aft Ser n i slack ard Orchard... so he juz acc mi all e wae ta my bus stop n wait fer 307 ta cum each dae... :*) tadae wuz fun.. he wuz searchin fer devices on his hp fer ppl wif bluetooth on.. ta check fer Ser's actualli, butt found outt derez another person. i felt mischievous n grabbed his hp. n juz send thoze mms ta tt unknown person on e train. he/she accepted n replied wif a lot of other mmses. realli A LOT. n he/she sent a msg askin my sis ta xchange. butt we were too busy searchin fer e unknown person. as we reached cck, we got down n searched fer devices agai, hopin e person gott down too. butt no leshz... he/she's still on e train cuz aft we gott down we cant reach e person alr. lolx... kinda dumb butt it's fun man...

hmm... work again tml... ser work half dae onli cuz gott band farewell party. she said hui ching's goin down ta find her also. hmm.
kept rememberin wad Evon told mi bout some ppl.. bout friends n such... aiya, wadevas.

feelin sick wif tiz headache n cold... gonna hit e sack soon... n mite nott be using comp fer sum time aft tadae or tml cuz we're changing comp n such (finally)... kaes, till den........

her
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5:45 PM;;

hmm... update on ydae evenin... dint ged ta watch blade trinity cuz e timing wrong... ate yami yoghurt n bought la bi xiao xin vcd den slacked at coffeebean wif Marc. aft which, my bro's fren ask mi ta go over ta Johnson(another pf my bro's fren)'s place fer bbq. i hesitated butt wen in e end.

n i got lost.

hahaz... a veri nice indian family led mi ta e Dew(johnson's place). kinda creepy lah b4 e indian family help mi... itz nite time den i'm lyke tiz onli ger (e rest lyke all those indianz...)walkin on e streets feelin' lost. 2 daes in a row eh? :x plus e weather wuz chilly... nearin e Dew i saw my korkor's frenz loh.. Kai Xiang <--dunno how ta spell n Wei Yang. *whew* finalli sum familiar faces. wuz kinda bored dere at first cuz i cldnt quite fit in *obviousli* aft a while it gott better cuz i got ta noe tiz ger called Xiao Hui(my bro's fren's gf). she's v.nice i tink :*) n she's pretty too :*) she doesnt look 19, more lyke 17 lydat. we hit it off quite well :*) while every1 else played bball, Xiao Hui n i chatted. she told mi stuffs bout her, my bro's fren n so on n i cld share stuffs bout mi wif her easily too. wa liews, envy leshz. her first bf den sho mani yrs liao........ aft it all, Xiao Han n Wei Yang came over our place den i watched la bi xiao xin :*) ard 1 plus dey proceeded ta play tt soccer game n i Attempted ta slp. *attempted*

Recoyl called n we chatted fer a lil while n i suggested chat other dae cuz he's gott sch n i've gott work da following dae. tt wuz ard 2. ended up i tossed n turned till ard 3 i fell aslp. butt woke up ard 5. n i cldnt slp at all aft tt. :*( tt feelin su*ked. itz lyke i noe i need e sleep, i wan to ged ta slp, But i CANT. finally cant take it n juz gott up at 7 lydat. go ta work lyke zombie lydat.

oh yea work. Tricia wore office clothes in e mornin n i wuz sho happi cuz i tot maybe e manager in charge tadae ish nott her. *butt it was* aniwaes, no more HSBC credit card. now UOB liaosh. sellin Cashplus(main card, debit card) n lady card n minicard n another dunno wad card also. itz quite easy ta sell i tink, definitely much easier ta HSBC. finished work ard 10 n ate at moss burger wif ser.
Enhua called n we found outt tt he juz finished work too, butt at Tampines. we met up halfwae at Cityhall ta go back tagather. he acc mi ta wait fer my bus too. nice of him hor, tiz kinda sis gonna xtinct liaosh. :*)

suddenli remembered wad ser n i wuz tokin bout e other dae... wad i tink lah... wldnt it be nice eve u hab a bf ta pick u up aft work each dae, wherever e roadshow is at? juz maybe go wait fer u ta finish work a few mins b4, bring u fer dinner n juz pei u home. wa. v.sweet horz............. *gosh* (dreamin liaosh).............. fer ser is juz e guy buy her dinner can liaosh butt i've gott a more vivid imagination i guess :*) okie gotta snap myself back ta reality.

workin at e same place tml, Faber hse dere right bside Orchard Emeral <-- spellin seems weird. :x hope i don ged insomia(<-- dunno correct notx. my English is failing man... hahaz... ) again tonite. *yawnz*

oh n i'm feelin farnie, though i dont noe y (';')

wadevas. nitez world. tuckin in ta bed soon. *dreamin......................*

her
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5:20 PM;;

aloha! dint update ydae, too lazy plus gott home quite late. finalli tried yami yoghurt aft work ydae n went fer supper wif Ser n Enhua(my ex-sis?). he gott back from work n juz nice bumped inta us den go eat tagather.

c sho mani ppl at lot 1 during work. tadae work half-dae but alr saw Beelian, Noman(pri sch fren), Lichong(pri sch fren, suddenli bcum sho gd-lookin :*p) n Angeline ta name a few. Uncle Marc(my sentosa fren) stopped by also ta chat fer awhile butt cuz of work n erm Tricia, i cldnt tok much ta him. oh yea saw hongyi kor also. Eddie wuz waitin fer mi ta finish work ta accompani mi fer lunch. he waited bout 2hrs man, poor chap. saw sum of his frenz hu cum tok rubbish a bit. i ate e new Grilled Chicken Foldover (minus lettuce, tomatoes n garlic). hahaz... e mcdonald statff wuz lyke -_________-" den wen she ordered e other staff turned ta look at mi. 1 cute guy went "u mite as well buy e meat can alr". hmm, n Tricia ci wo qian again. i stopped work at 320 butt signed off at 3pm! feel lyke catchin a movie later butt Marc wan ta catch e blade trilogy or sumtin.. i wan catch Incredibles leh, seemz lyke everybody catught it alr. :*(

finalli i hab 1 dae free tml. but aft tt mondae till sundae i will be workin full daesz! no break! n i tink itz in town. OUB credit card i tink. no more HSBC :*( gdbye HSBC! (aniwae HSBC so hard ta sell, onli 1 yr waiver. Ser gd lah Manhattan card 3 yr waiver) ooo yeah n i ate Yami yoghurt again tadae. *yummz*

wonder eve i sld go outt tml or slack at home cuz sho long neva slack at home liaosh. butt needa make full use of my 1 dae break also. maybe ged Evon or hu ta go swimming(i wan ta go sentosa...)? hmm... or sld i go shop? planning ta ged xmas gifts fer my mom n dad n my bro... nott too sure wad wld be gd...

i wan ta ged another set of la bi xiao xin's vcd... sudden urge ta watch... maybe i'll ged it later.. btut den again, i dunch realli wan ta c my colleagues leh, dey at lot 1 still. (actualli juz don realli wan c Tricia :x) tink Ser still workin at Taka...

Work gives a Whole new meaning ta e word Boredom.

sum words ta u peepz:
-Ida, hurry up cum back leshz :*(
-Evon, wen u nott workin? y do u work on my off daes n nott on my work daes?
-Sweeyin, hurry up cum back from chalet.
-Bro, wen u fre pei mi shop.
-Eddie, dunch so fast start work leh.
-Uncle Marc, catch Incredibles lah...
-My Pay! wher r u???!!!

okie, tiz ish rubbish. lett mi find sumbodi ta go outt wif later. i need ta make full use of my time man........

~*...True by Ryan Cabrera...*~

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10:20 AM;;

hmm... ydae nite wuz a krazy 1. wuz late ta meet Recoyl fer movie at woodlands. he watched incredibles alr butt no choice i win so he watch wif mi again. literally. he had sum sort of emergency (his fren lah) n had ta go even b4 e show ended. it wuz a 2155 show so it wuz lyke quite late wen e movie ended. he wanted ta ask mi along butt felt bad cuz i wldnt be able ta finish watchin e show. ttz y he had no choice butt left by himself.

ttz e first time i ever watch a movie by myself. i kinda su*ked. i wuz desperateli lookin fer ppl ta acc mi cuz i haven eaten n e time wld be too creepy fer mi ta go back by myself. den.
-Bee cant n tot i joking wif her
-my bro wuz outt at a chalet
-Junlin replied late cuz of dunno wad fight n wad police :*
-Andy hei wuz cycling ta toh tuck
-Sweeyin wuz also outt at chalet
-Uncle Marc wuz in e middle of a moive also n it wuz at a further place
so i juz kind of freaked outt bahx.

firstli, it wuz embarrassment. i mean, damn paiseh lorz. e theatre wuz filled wif families, couples etc n i wuz alone. ALONE.
aft which i experienced fear liaosh loh. i mean, it wuz 12 lydat at woodlands n i'm all by myself. neva experienced such *aloneness* b4 lohz. sumore i'm nott familiar wif e place. i came outt of e cinema n it wuz packed wif grps waitin fer their movies ta start. den i took e life down alone. downstairs, derez another grp. den i walked from e mall ta e mrt. chilly weather den gott a few guyz smokin here n dere. scary. creepy. oh yeah, luckily Enhua came ta my rescue. he had ta quarrel wif his dad ta go find mi. *feel so bad bout it butt i wuz super desperate. throw mi a Steven or a Jonathan n i wld want too* hahz... i toked ta bee on e fone all e wae till i reached cck. Seein Enhua wuz lyke seeing God. indebted ta him liaosh. Junlin wuz lyke saein eve he replied earlier n gone ta acc mi he wld be my God instead. hahaz.

my gd old sis acc mi ta eat again at e kopitiam bhind lot1. left at 1plus, oh yeah, saw chonghong. he chat a bit wif Enhua n we left. no more bus so Enhua walked mi home. *thanks again sis, of cuz i neva ferget u tiz sista* gott home n felt so safe again. :*D

watched tv a bit n went ta slp ard 3 plus. tadae woke up in e aft, so song. goin catch e Blade trinity wif uncle Marc later. n i'm gonna be late again. itz 330 now. i'm meetin him at 350 n i haven bathed. btw, incredibles wuz nice :*) i'm gonna buy la bi xiao xin vcd later. byeee :*)

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7:30 AM;;

hurhur... tadae's quite a nice dae... juz gott home awhile wif my bro n his fren, wei yang. wanted so much ta eat yumi yoghurt tadae butt in e end it wus too late wen i finished work. Tricia(yea i dint ged Zito :*( ) gott her ba gua n ser gott her long john's butt ash fer mi... :*( ended up i bought 2 slices of ba gua fer 4bucks :x aft work i accompanied ser ta long john n i saw my bro! he wuz dere ta look fer mi cuz he said wei yang wanted ta treat mi ta dinner. lolx... wuz gonna play kpool butt itz too ex so we juz went ta e coffeeshop bhind lot1. drank heinekein <-- dont noe how ta spell. :*p wei yang drank e most n his face wuz kinda red. aft which we walked home tagather. saw a dead bird on e wae, damn gross.

my foot's hurtin so badly :*( blisters. feel so gd tadae maybe cuz gott ppl pei mi aft work n tml i start work onli at 5pm instead of e normal 10plus in e morning. :*) (my manager beta dunch ask mi ta go down earli man)

btw, i tink i saw quite a few ppl tadae. i went ta work too earli n juz nice i saw Eddie (my gd sis from unity sec) :*) he loitered wif mi fer a lil while den went ta look fer fren, aft which he came by again. den i saw April (my junior in svps n bvss) hu xchanged hp no.s wif mi n came by a few times later too. den i saw my Bro in e aft, Shumei jie too. den i saw Jiawei (chua) also. nxt i saw Recoyl (gott ta noe him quite recentli). hmm... hu elze... tink ttz bout it. oh no, i saw mrs Yvonne Ong too. i tink ttz all... Lot 1 mah sure a lot peepz i noe de :*p n er, i saw guo long ydae? etc etc... Tricia wuz lyke saein mi ask my frenz cum down, wad e.. i dint wadz.. but she;s lydat lah. i juz cloze 1 sale den e customer juz left so i still had sum documents ta fill n she went "wei kuai dian kuai dian, so slow! i wan sales!" n i wuz lyke -_________-" den ydae Zito also anihow pack up, tadae end up i kena nag by Tricia saw we cannot do tingz properli, etc etc. haiz. neva mind, alls gd :*)

no hard feelings dere. wells, nott much aniwae :x

right now my bro n wei yang playin tt soccer game tt guyz lurve. n shoutin vulgarities here n dere... hahaz... hmm................. my bro..... hmm.......

aniwaez, i cant wait fer my job ta end n i ged my well deserved pay den i can go Party liao. not literali Party lah, i'm onli 16. my bro wld kill mi eve i go clubs n so on. i mean shoppin n such. plan sum klaz outingz too cuz i missed 1, will be missing another tml. n missed 3 chalets. keep cumin back ta tiz, cant keep it outt of my mind. rite now waitin fer a phone call, sumbody said wld call n chit chat (yay i can slp a Biiit later tadae) n hafta go check outt ser's blog **she asked mi ta** heex... tml den' :*)

ps: right now i'm krazy bout e song True by Ryan Cabrera. last song i wuz krazy bout wuz Nobody's home by Avril. ciaoz'

her
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5:40 PM;;

heez... tdae can update blog cuz reached home at 10! ttz lyke 2hrs earlier than normal? u noe y? cuz tadae Roadshow at Lot1!!! n my manager tadae ish Zito!!! (whu ish much nicer than Tricia...(my normal manager) doubt she wld c tiz... heez... Fer instance lah, Tricia's nott on time, she lett off much later den take breakz veri hard cuz she herself dunch take. den she keep wan us push sales den loh, relac 1 min also cannot.. den muz ged how mani sales eve nott cannot go back, i mean wad e heck? my contract no sae target mah n i no commission wad so ever... :*p Zito, on e other hand, ish on time (ttz y tadae sho earli plus ntt at tampines lah) den will auto lett us go breaks n can lac a bit de loh. he also easy cum easy go de. plus plus tadae gotta noe Sherine(yeap yeap, derez serene, mi n another shirley n now derez Sherine) Sherine's nice ta tok ta, we chatted quite a lot n slacked a bit tagather. we gave outt flyers n ended up toked ta tiz guy also cuz he's sellin those $5 tingy. he's cool. looks 100% malay but he's chineze! Sherine n i were shocked he spoke in chinese ta us... lolx. sherine lykez yumi yoghut btw :*) i wanna try it too :*)

tml sherine nott cumin down :*( juz mi n probably Tricia or Zito (please plez plez!!!) Shirley's (so weird sae my own name) on attachment cant work. hope ser can work wif mi (don bhb sae i mizz u, hahaz). plz be Zito tml...

sian leh. i missed 1 chalet last wk cuz of work. now gonna mizz two more. plus 1 klaz outing... *saded* my footz hurtin too cuz lot 1 Veri lil sales den neva ged ta sit down fill in forms...

oh yeas, tdae saw wei ann, he accompanied mi fer lunch a lil while cuz he went ta look fer sia..... sia n sooyin workin at seiyu :*) den saw yin n florence also... n erm, danny n so on.......

yeah... btw,
-ida's in aus
-melvin's in jap
theze 2 ar, beta remember my gifts! :*)

kie lah... sianz, update tml eve i'm in da mood. lolx... plz be Zito :*)

her
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3:45 PM;;

hmm... sentosa tadae wuz lyke a wasted trip... cuz of da stoopid weather... beta fer sleepin in... wuz damn cold n shiverin de whole dae... joined my bro n his frenz at da beach fer a stoopid card game... den aft awhile dey went off left mi n yin. dere wuz tiz grp of guyz tt went "wai tao tuo diao tuo diao..." cuz yin n i haben take off our clothes mah (got bikini n stuff underneath of cuz) damn farnie lahz... den my bro got ta noe a grp of guyz also n dey were takin thoze kinda pics...... dey went under water n took off their shorts n wave it in da air den nxt, dey pull off their undergarments too n showed their butts at e cam... damn gross lah... n i fell aslp on da monorail. wore a quite short shorts on da wae back n tiz uncles were like..... :*

haiz... dint ged ta tan at all obviousli. den went da coffeeshop bhind lot 1 fer oyster :*) e chilli's nice. saw Ben. oh yea, saw weiliang at long john earlier n erm da korkor in e mornin... small world isnt it?

oh wells, back ta work tml... sian leh... hai. now watchin bo li xie... nice... touchin n sad show leh... e lil ger veri ke ai... n now veri cold... my hands like ice... hahz... back ta work... tiz guy i noe at work, Jason. stoopid, sae nott gonna work le butt on my workdaes he will cum pei mi work. den tml, thur n fri he cant make it (he in poly mahz) eeyer, liar! sian liaosh... dunno can chat n slack wif her cuz ser's manhattan n no work tml :*( maybe gott da other shirley... hope ar... dunno still gott hu do roadshows de...... n doubt i can blog fer da nxt few daes...

brr... damn cold... feelin' dizzy... muz sleep earli tadae eve nott tml gotta rush again... adios'

her
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3:22 PM;;

heex... went town tadae... finanli bought a two piece... e bikini top wuz alrite butt e bottom a lil too big lahz... butt checked wif e salesperson n found outt ttz e onli 1 left everywher... no choice butt ta ged it... oh yea, gott it at flash n splash in heeren fer 59bucks... quite a steal i guess :*)

e skirt i lurve so much... itz purple wif a lil pink threads. straight n den opens outt wif a flair... left size M, wae too bigg fer my puny arse. hahaz... damn it... no more stock aniwher else n wun have it animore... saded :*( y tadae all e size wrong de?

oh btw, i went escape wif bee, yin n her cousinz ydae. nott bad lahz... played wet n wild quite a few times... den at nite went timah eat n saw my klaz guys...

tml goin sentosa wif yin fer tanning... 2 ppl quite pathetic hor? neva mind lah, muz make full use of my 3 dae break from work mah... :*) jzu need more slp........

heex... need ta lett tiz other ting in my mind outt. tadae i saw 1 of e CUTEST indian guy man. cant believe it. he's lyke ah beng indian, cute n cool :*) quite regret dint gib him my number.... i went up bus 307 den he wuz sittin bhind his fren. he wuz pissed at tiz couple of gerz hu were damn noizy n told dem ta shaddup... lolx... den i took outt my hp ta sms n he went "sms ar" butt i tot he wuz tokin ta his fren so ignored him. As he wuz goin down at e nxt stop (wher i ged down too) he said "goin down also ar" n left mi wonderin eve hez tokin ta mi... den we gott down n he said "bye!" n i realized he wuz tokin ta mi all along so i juz smiled n he turned back ta look, twice. n he went "eh give mi ur no. lehhh" den i kept walkin n smiling n he went "gib mi ur no. lahhh" n i crossed e road, creatin distance.

aw... den i look back a few times lah he did also butt we juz walked on... dint gib him my no. wasted. heex... alwaez lydat. last time i dont gib my contact ta ppl hu ask fer it outside den i missed giving a cutie n regreted so i start makin frenz. den few wks ago i gott ta noe sum gangsters n dint realli lyke it so told myself nott ta gib le.. den now regret again. *pengzZz* wells, at least i learnt tt dere r cute indian guyz ard...... (normalli i'm juz obsessed wif malays) lolx... till tml'

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4:30 PM;;

tadae's nott sho bad... went ta work den off earli at 730 den shop ard... tampines mall a lot shops man butt nobody pei mi shop nott sho fun... :*( heex... aft tt met up wif swee yin at lot 1 ta slack... nice seh, own free time :*) hurhur... 3 dae break... tml goin escape, mondae goin shoppin n tue sentosa i tink...

juz 1 bad ting.... i wun ged ENUFF SLEEP! planned ta rest 1 dae butt bee ask ta go Escape... seems lyke so long neva slp till shuang shuang den ownself wake up liaosh... den slack whole dae... i wish fer tt man... right at da top of my wish list *praypray*

now i noe man... studyin ish realli sho much better than workin... tink i shall juz look ffw ta my paycheck :*) wadevas lah work... hahz

kept flashin back ta wad evon told mi bout sum frenz stuff.... seem ta be gettin' true... dont noe wad ta do...
maybe, juz maybe.. itz time fer a change...*i hate changes* butt i tink i sld make sum....

ida's goin aus fer holidae *envy* which means
-1 fren lesser ta acc mi on my breakz (which cumz 1 in a million yrs)
-1 fren lesser ta complain ta
-etc etc (u tink i will list everyting outt ar?)

tanite can chat chat on fone... :*D butt tml muz wake up earli again butt neva mind lah, itz nott fer work butt play :*) aniwaes, i owe van a bdae prezzie butt i noe wad ta ged liaosh... juz need c wen free we go sentosa tagather den pass it ta her bahx... kie lahz... tml' :*)

her
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5:50 PM;;

arRr... feels so outt of touch wif everybodi's lives, comp n so on... my mind ish constant li work stuff (nott tt i wan to of coz).. tink i'm too pressurized maybe so everyting juz link mi back ta my job e documents n such (c rite now wad m i tokin bout) wad i hate most bout my job cld be e breaks... half hrs but will ged cut short n WORST part, hafta EAT ALONE! ttz lyke e first time i'm doing tt.. itz so pathetic... cant even ged proper mean in so short a time so i can juz perhaps buy a sandwich n find those empty benches in e mall to eat... wallet in a hand, food n drinks e other.. u juz picture ee scenario lah :*(

n derez a looot of other tingz i wan ta complain man... butt nott tadae cuz hafta slp n wake up ard 7plus tml fer work... so cham... work at tampines take lyke 2 hr to go home aft work... hai.

guess i'll juz wait fer e first pay cheque n c how.. i'm goin shoppin man, no matter wad! (no matter wad dey sae....) hahaz...

i juz wish fer 2 whole daes ta relax n e nxt dae no work... sighs... will update tml eve i'm nott too tired from work... ciaoz'

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5:20 PM;;