Talk. -such a simple word.
"Talk about it. Let it all out. it'll help, you know" thats what people say.



-but who's listening?

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5:53 PM;;

hello world. im so sick of school these days. all the assignments n lectures :( im late fer class everyday no matter how i try to hurry. todays e best i tell you. i reached class half hr late, half slept half highlight notes fer another half hour n slept the remaining 2 hours away.

... n my friends are the too nice kind who wldnt want to disturb my sleep. n would let me continue sleepin thou all the students have split into groups n are doing projects sumwher else. right. picture me sleepin alone on 1 table n the lecturer in front of me. all other students bent over tables/floors working on their assignments. TSK. 2nd time this happened alr. im sure e lecturers know me well now. im gettin worse at this school thing. am lagging behind in all my assignments (WHAT assignments? i really dont know bout all of them), nt concentrating in any class ecetera. wonder where all these would lead to :/

i sld stop rambling. shall go to bed soon and forget bout assignments, bout everything else. wld you lie with me and just forget the world.....

vodka redbull, my new delight (just noticed theres e word 'red' in it. HAH). helps in forgetting.


jiayou bah...

her
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5:56 PM;;

her
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3:16 PM;;

Nra Danzation was great. It is finally over. after months of training and being with Nra people everyday, forgo-ing school and spending little time with other friends and family.

i cant believe its really over. im so going to miss the times we had. am already missing them now :( this just keep going on in my head


this is what we dream about
but the only question with me (us) now
is Do I (we) make you proud......
stronger than i've ever been
never been afraid of standing out
Do i (we) make you proud......


hah... i wished my parents had been there. i wished i have asked everybody but i didnt. thats my only regret ok other than the fact tt i dint take enough pictures.. send me if u happen to see my face in ur camera ok! out of point. so anyway, im thankful to so many people.

thanks to NRA and Ann especially for this wonderful opportunity..
thanks to the people who went. i feel as if you guys are one step closer to me now..
thanks to my besties in Nra (Songting, Mingming, Py, Wilbert etc) for all the rubbish. lol
thanks to my family.. sorry for all the late nights n all.. hope you guys understood.....
thanks to Bee, Ching, Yin, Brian and the rest for being my pillar of support
thanks to my Ech clique for understanding, for planning project meetings and outings around my dance, helping do more of the assignments cause u guys know im too busy with dance, letting me sleep through project time in class
thanks to everyone and anyone who bothered to show concern for me during this period when im the most proned to emotional breakdowns. lol.
and thanks to so many others that i failed to mention..

seriously, i love you guys. HAH.

ANYWAY. i so want a video of e whole Danzation (though i tear each time when the video rolls on at the start and when daphne sings...) send me that and my pictures if u have ok! i'l be indebted to you. lol.

argh. i cant get over the fact that its really over... i sld be relieved now and feel happy bout having a 2 weeks break from dance. but somehow i just feel empty. i ended school today feeling lost. not gg studio, library to meet nra peeps etc. can i have another day of Danzation? please? just to relive the moment? :(

gettin so sad thinking about all these. grrfh. change topic. Bee! (and all others) you guys can ask me out these 2 weeks, i promised to spend time with all of you after my production so i will yea (: and to the normal civilian world, im back! hello world, hello my rotting blog. well hello PROJECTS and school. hello extra time. hello novels and archie comics. hello skirts back into my life (thou its been too long since ive worn them n i love pants now).

think i shall continue my lengthy entry another day as its 138am now and i haven done any assignments.


i wont forget this period of my life. thanks.


this is what we dream about.... do i? do we?

her
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5:45 PM;;

i just have to update sth otherwise my blog will just die and decay :(

i've been soooo busy recently i dont have time fer anything else besides school, dance and sleep. actually, im lacking a lot of sleep :( and now e IT lecturer is droning on and on again (nagging!) making me want to sleep. have been sleepin less than 5hrs a day and my eyebags are now bigger than my eyes. haha.... not funny. -.-

im so scared! Production's coming nearer and nearer.. 9 more days only! why is it coming so fast?! im nt even excited bout it cause i cant stop feeling scared. sighs. please turn out well please please please.. the weekend's gg to be crazy- training training and more training. i can forget bout my tests and assignments alr. its so boring readin this right :x but i just had to rant. ok back to IT class.

btw, im still sick YAYAYAY!! *i wan my mcflurry :(

her
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1:56 AM;;