dreaded medication (but it helps me gawds)

sigh... of all times fer me to get so sick...


supposed to have done a lot of studyin these past 2 days but my fever n dizzyness just wldnt let me.. all i want to do is sleep, sleep, sleep and sleep. i pat myself on the back fer completing my 1st paper on friday when i felt lyke my brain was a jelly "glooping" here n dere. coincidentally, my 1st paper was partly about brain development -.-"

fever fer like 2 days plus alr n i hope i recover b4 mon cuz 3 other papers await me. speaking of which i have not much hope of studying fer.

i don even have any appetite these 2 days. my sore throat made it worse too.

this all scuks. i hope i am fully recovered tml so i can study studying fer my 3 papers on mon, tue n wed. please let me recover. sighs. off to bed.

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3:55 PM;;

hello there... (e angels from my nightmare, e shadows in e backgrd of the morgue~)

my projects have finally ended last fri! yes, my projects that have dragged on fer weeks n months n finally they have ended, pushin me nearer to my exams. *counts* exams are less than a week away! n of cuz, i haven started my revision.

Corina took my pencil! i wan my pencil back! *sits on floor and kick legs* ok la actually she borrowed it n i left class w/o askin it back (she was using anyway i guess). haha.. i wan my pencil la~ n i needa find belinda to sign ym excuse letter cuz i have skipped her module fer way too many hrs---i need tt letter to help me :x

on a side note, i SO SO SOOO miss my li'l kids!!!!

all the kids in e centre... esp my N2s, K2s... ultrasweet ziwei!, chloe, audrey, shy benjamin!, big appetite Chrislyn!, funny Rebecca!, chicky Xiao Ting!, Edward, Sweetie Queenie!, naughty Heng Xuan and brother Heng Yi!, smart Shi Jie, nice Kaycia!, Wan Ying!, superfrenly toddler Zenlyn!, guai Jefi, gordon, Joshua, Joyful Gallen and loads more........


ryan...

i will never forget all of you... my little angels......

you guys brought so much joy to my life (gees).. let me view the world in a different, more innocent n wonderful way.. e first set of kids i have ever taught.. first set of kids i have been attached to, taken care of.. thou my last visit to PCF Twinkle Tots Yuhua CC have happened, i will never, never forget you kiddos.. and of cuz, the teachers in tt centre -u guys are the best!!! forever so helpful n nice n smiley (now i noe y e kids love all of u)... yup,

i will never forget all of u! *kids, muz rem Teacher/Sister Shirley ok :*(

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5:17 PM;;

there's seriously sth wrong with my blog alr. my posts disappear/show up suddenly.. cant wait fer the end of my projects and exams so i can revamp my blog...


anyways, i have a few thoughts in my mind.. kind of hard to pen (type) them down... just... well.. its kind of a hard/down period fer me recently... i hope it'll pass soon... and from what my bro said, i'm sure it will.. tough times will pass.

i will wait patiently for that time to come. i wont grumble bout it, i wont.

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3:41 PM;;

its been a long time since i actually blogged bout sth..

'cuz i've been busy fer wayyy too long.. i dunno, since like a mth back? i rem my past few weeks as sch, projects, dance. "chionging projects" seemed to be a norm for me alr.. they're just like never ending la.. u never get to finish all ur projects, its like u finished 1, theres wad, 3 more waiting fer u? its so much that i cant even TRY to plan my time.

anyways, tts e reason y i decided to take a much needed/deserved break. just fer tonight. got home ard midnight and supposed to rush project but am too tired so i juz have to rush tml... sighs. nvm, tml will be ok :*)

so, to update bout my life,........... its kinda hard cuz theres juz too much i haven blogged about. haha... so well, lets juz talk bout recentli cuz tts all i rem now (brain's half aslp alr). my recentli is erm,... ydae? tts like all i can rem. craps. nra performed fer e openhse *was ydae right? i cant think* den aft tt we went fer e s&w fer hiphop loh.. dem erm, sumhow managed to slack till quite late. so Ann was like telling us tml (meaning today) this other grp performing (the grp me n a few frens r not in).. but if we wan to join them also can, juz need to learn e steps.

so we were like kinda excited can join ar! den we juz learn a bit of the steps. as i got home last night, i thought to myself "siao ar, i think juz now too cong1 dong3 decide wan to join. as if i can learn so fast. onli will go mess up other ppls' item" but i had to do project so i dint realli think bout it alr.. den morning i woke up late fer e 8am lecture so i cabbed to sch *ARR tt taxi uncle was dam IRRITATING. shallnt explain further but he really made mi feel frustrated in e morning. in e end, i juz shook my head and went "Tsk" actually, no i dint go Tsk Tsk. i juz gave a sigh n shook my head. whatever.

n i digressed. ya so i got to sch.. den i thought to myself, "most probably i wont perform today la.. thou i brought e clothes n stuff but i doubt i can do it. still not sure of e steps yet." tt was ard 8am. had James' 2hr Health n nutrition which i slept thruout -.-" sumhow i woke up at 10 n i was off to the studio with st n jess. haha.. kinda gan jiong n wanted to learn e steps bt onli had a short time...... very soon, it was time to perform. gawd, e butterflies in my stomach...... n i performed. n i fergot a few steps. i was SO disappointed in myself. i felt like crying. i dint la thou.. frens said its quite gd alr considering i learnt e steps so last min.. but it dint help a lot.. it wasnt a gd enuff xcuse fer myself. hai. but nvm, there was a 2nd performance. n i had mistakes again. i was like "fcuk." (pardon e word used but.. hai) quite disappointed in myself on the whole fer today's performance la.. dint even dare to watch e video. saw e mistakes i knew i made. had this terrible feeling in me. so disappointed. in myself.

gawd, my entry so sad. well, aft that tt nu ren PeiYi sumhow made mi feel better cuz she said sth like we were quite gd le so last min den learn still can perform.. dunno y we sae ourselves not gd. n then i thought, "actualli i dint even think i cld learn e steps on time n so wldnt perform. but i did. den its supposed to be a fun performance mah so wth. :)" thinking tt way, i felt much better cuz at least i mustered up my courage to go perform n stuffs la.. aiya, dunno wad i saying liao. haha.. ya la, so erm.. haha.. but seriousli, i cant help feeling so disappointed in myself when i cant catch certain steps sumtime, be it during dance lesson or wad. n erm, i cant ferget bout e mistakes i made during e performances today. i'm contradiciting i think, cuz i thot i said i felt better alr? arrrrr, what am i saying again? think i'm too tired. crapping alr...

hmm. stayed in sch till evening with py, st and erena den went to meet my sec sch frens. eh tis' weird. i mean i went to meet Bee, ching, serene, brian. went Bugis and stuff den there, i'm home! having my break from sch, projects, dance. i think its more of a break from PROJECTS. i feel so overwhelmed sometimes. wish fer this period to pass soon. e end of my projects, exams. i think THAT is when i can finally feel relaxed. ease, no remove tt awful heavy load on my shoulders.

this entry is super long. to make up fer lost time(entries)? gees.. shall go slp soon aft this. den do project tml ARRR tml cant go help out e attachment tingy fer e s&w hiphop ppl. hai. nvm... anyway, most prob aft i rush my project will go ser's hse bai nian *i noe a bit late ar* n perhaps play cards n mahjong. how i longed fer that time........... to be able to relax n have fun. no projects. haha.. oh well, till next time (which might be very long)! :)

-225am

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