i need to drink, get drunk, go crazy and shout it all out. Maybe then, i'll be fine. and be able to move on?
I cant wait for the assignments to end. I need that one night of craziness. Im suffocating. I dont know what to do. I hate how things are now. I hate certain people. I hate that im paranoid. I hate my bad dreams. I hate myself crying. I hate that im not strong enough. I hate it that im losing control. I hate that im breaking down.
was i wrong?
i need to find a confidante. and a shoulder to lean on.