sigh. i guess im not recovering from my stomach flu yet. my constant diarrhoea-s have just changed to feelings of puking. like every other second. no im not pregnant w a cute lil monster. ya after i eat i just feel nauseous and i have to keep telling myself it's not in the mind.
it's scary though, i began to doubt myself. after 1 whole day being this way (feel like puking and want to puke cause i think i wld feel better after it), i got really scared. if it's in e mind.. MAN. who knows how long it's going to stay. and i'll be like semi-crazy. i was afraid im becoming anorexic just now when i stood in a toilet cubicle halfway through my delipotato, gagging. but phew? im not. cause i really did puke. like everything i ate again. e bit of delipotato i had and a sausage waffle. swoosh. all out in a BK plastic bag (hyuk hyuk. now when you takeaway at Burger King, you'll feel just that little grossed-out ..). i shall spare you all the cute details.
this feel-like-puking feeling scuks. even more than e diarrhoea. sigh. i dont know how to make myself feel better. i cant eat all the food i want to eat. i tell you,i'm craving.
im craving wanton mee with the fried wantons from BukitBatok, the fried wantons from Bugis, potato gratin, cereal prawn, ice monster's mango sherbet, paddle pop, chocolate ice cream, potato chips, chocolate, frosted cereal, chips more and basically all other unhealthy and junk food. (like that how to do 6 lesson plans on the theme: "Healthy Eating" for my kids in the centre?) but i cant eat all of those. normally when i'm sick, mummy buys me the wanton mee. now she says it's oily and fried, i can't eat it. starchy stuff too cause it's hard to digest. and to tell the truth, im afraid to eat anything else too in fear of feeling worse than i already do. and when i feel like puking i dont feel like eating anything too. simply the thought grosses me out. so i can eat basically 3 three things:
congee. porridge. zhou1.
ya. these THREE. and they all come out of my system almost immed too. just that they dont have so much side effects. how pathetic can?!! .. and that i can type 3paragraphs+ just about it?! I HATEEEE IT. really, Stomach Flu, i scorn you. despise you. look at you with contempt.
ok no really i love you please go away.
ya. did a track event for NationalHealthGroup at ACJC today. going j.e then to nique's place fer project tml. till monday if my stomach allows. reschedule make-up session w mentor to tue and wed. friday 2 major projects due-(what are they about again?). sat event. 1 word. busy.
im tired. im sick. but im just glad im having my break from the daily centre visits. correction for last entry, besides it being the time you MISS your home, bed the most, it is also when you APPRECIATE your home, bed and freedom the most. ya. i love my bed *kisskiss*. now all i want to do is get well. i guess health is really the most important thing.
so, just be happy if it's a normal day for you. embrace it, carpe diem! smile and be glad. for you're healthy and you can do anything your heart desires. many of us tend to forget such small but important points as we go along. sounds cheesey and cliche-y. but really la ok. hahs.. love!