and when she speaks
Thursday, December 07, 2006
i have so much of work to do now but yet i dont feel like doing any of it. i dont feel like going to school, i dont feel like studying.
right now, im not really looking forward to dance too.. i hate the feeling of going there alone, ending class and going home straight, alone too. (today seriously scuked.) no more late night suppers, chilling, catching the last bus. no more getting high over the same songs cause we learnt the choreo together. no more meetin up to slack till training starts together. it's just too weird. i know i have you Erena, wilbert, angel.... but it's no longer the same. im sure u guys feel it too. see erena u've influenced me too. Hah.... here's emo me part 2 :/it's the first time i cant seem to be able to express myself.the first time i feel so lost and confused.the first time i feel so alone in a sea of people. and i dont know who i can talk to. it doesnt matter though, cause it's also the first time i dont want to talk about it. seriously, i have no idea what's going on, what im doing. just let me hide away, leave me be (but then again nobody's there for me to stop me from hiding away. haha.).dont know why im getting affected by these small lil things recently. i really hate to be. i DONT WANT to be. .. im sorry to be ranting here (but i doubt many's reading so it doesnt really matter) but this seems to be my only outlet. hi Blogger, my new buddy. thanks fer being here. anyw, i'll still be like the same ol' me when you guys see me ard sch or sth so dont worry, i wont go all weird on you. i've mastered the act of feigning nonchalance or simply, the act of acting. it's a skill you need, you know. the feeling's unbearable. really unbearable.
her
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4:11 PM;;
