and when she speaks
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
wanted to simply juz blog bout today.. but saw a bit of this chinese serial my parents watchin.. this guy died so yea, thought bout something i always wanted to talk bout. yea, sad stuff cuz i think deep thoughts.....it might seem very cliche but aint it really the case that time seems to fly by so quickly? like juz in a turn of the head or perhaps the snap of ur fingers? whenever i think bout this i get really sad :*( ppl look upon the future with happy thoughts but more often than not, there is still 1 sad thought lying in the back of my mind.ppl live, ppl die. At every moment a child is born, somebody else dies in another place. *i know, morbid right.* so i think, i wld really want for time to stop. i dont want to grow up n be this lady with my own family (meaning my own children n spouse) n other significant ppl have left me. i dont want that. i want to always be this little girl who can just look up to the ppl ard me to seek comfort whenever i need it. i want to be this little girl with no cares of the world, no worries at all. n that all i have to worry about each day is about gettin mummy n daddy's attention or about toys. nono scratch that. i want to stop when i'm in Secondary sch. 'cause i am able to think alr, thou not more important stuffs. more like i am able to understand the things that are goin on ard me, yet i want to stay there.
it often appalls me that ppl wld want to be somebody else when they c that ppl have beter things than them. Not Me. mark my words, NOT ME. i am always happy about who i am, where i'm at or simply, just happy and glad with my life. i was really happy to be in my secondary sch thou some were reluctant to be there in the first place, i wasnt. i feel n know for a fact that i am v.blessed to be in my this life, to be erm, in my own shoes? haha. ok nvm. yup, as i was sayin b4 i rudely interrupted myself :*l, i am happy to be me. thou i am not born with a silver spoon in my mouth, thou i have my flaws :*) *actually quite a lot of flaws ok nvm*
oh yea i digressed :x i really wish time wld stop at times. 'cause i hate changes. hate it loads. truckloads. when i think about changing esp in future *like duh of cuz we will change in future*, i get upset.
i think that's probably y i am always happy with where i'm at. i have always told myself to cherish the ppl and things ard me but at times, ppl do make mistakes. when i realize tt i have said or done sth to hurt somebody i love, i wld regret it a lot n try my best to make up for it. *n maybe tts also y i always end up being the 1 apologising, be it my fault or not* i wldnt want to spend my time stayin at loggerheads with a person, i want everybody to be happy together *cheesy smile* i cant stan the aftermath of a quarrel, the awkwardness after one, the stillness u can feel, as if u can cut the tension with a knife. *sharp knife, not blunt one. eh blunt? James blunt. u're beautiful~ u're beautiful, its true :x*
yup, lets all treasure the people and things ard us and not regret only later ok? sheesh so cliche. i think there's enuff deep thoughts for today, if u want more, look back on my other entry entitled, insignificant; what's left of us. also somewhat like what i talked about today, thou maybe more sad?
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hmm.. i'll juz cut short on today then. went for my field prac as per normal. was at e centre e longest today -from 840 to 1plus thou we just have to be there from 9 to 1230. love my kiddos :*) ate at delifrance again den was supposed to meet Mr Hey-Ho-Lets-Go to chill at J.e library but i was late so he had to go for class alr. was goin in when he was goin out. lol. hate being alone but the lure of novels drew me in. hahz.. saw frens der anyway. n borrowed 3 novels.. 2 from this writer i love...
Lurlene Mcdaniel! Her writing's darn gd! if only i could write like that... journalism... *bubbles formin up image on the top of my head* rubbish. haha.. thou it seems kinda morbid cuz her bks all have ppl dying like u c the titles:The girl death left behind, till death do us part, too young to die, when happily ever after ends or no time to cry, they are really nice cuz they wld make u treasure ur life n things like tt. i think tis' e onli writer tt makes me tear every time i read her bks cuz normally ppl juz cry over tv, not a bk. i have read many of her novels :*) here's one other novel by her i was supposed to return but decided to show it to a fren first cuz its just soooo gd: 
the novel: Time capsule :*) *so cute right c e pics when those 2 were young. they're twins btw :*)
talk bout it some other time. ok yea...
MAN! lets talk bout J.E library! call mi slow but its e first time i have been to tt teens area! its so darn cool can? e nicest library are fer teens i have even seen! they have those big big round sofa *red in color still* tt u can sit ard n chill with ur frens, beanbags too, small table so u can sit on those beanbags n do ur work, n music! they have cds for borrowin i think so u can listen der n even a stage area which i have no idea wad for, maybe its even to the extend tt u can perform? there's also vendin machines yea n i saw ppl eatin in dere. the couchs, floors n all are highly grafitti-ed too so i think its ok to do tt? oh i saw ppl slpin dere also. haha.. MAN! we're talking a bout a LIBRARY here. sounds more like a hangout for us teens isnt it?! so cool! its quite opposite from most libraries as in typical ones, u cant sit ard, listen to music, much less talk. n e grafitti n food n stage thing.. not sure if e grafitti n food thing u can really do but theres so much of it as if u can do it n even if u cant, i doubt e ppl wld catch. weeeeee! i lurve tt place. so many novels sumore. as compared, what is Lot 1 library? *smacks head*
ok think tis' like a super loooong entry. shall go chat or sth alr :*) tata!' -so much time n effort spent here *tired*-
her
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