:*( i'm gettin' rather sick of e kind of life i've been leading recently.
not doing much xcept go to places like lot 1 n such. i juz feel like i'm rotting away at home. cant stan being cooped up at home with nothing else to do besides watchin tv, using comp, reading novels or chatting. n there is only so much i can cook till i get bored too. e way i figure it? i've spent more(far more) than enuff Quality time with myself.
i dont noe whats e problem. or maybe i do. i have friends, yea of cuz i do. they're either in jc or rp or workin or dont like sports what-nots. i want to go out n have fun! no malls, they're sucha bore. so here's e problem. i cant seem to get anybody(suitable) or any thing(suitable) to do out.
n what i myself don understand is tt... i seem to shut out certain(well, most?) ppl recently. like everybody(most of 'em) seems to be rubbing me e wrong way! certain things they say or such turns on my "i-dislike-u-radar"; even those who r trying to get into my gd graces.
i feel so bad :*( so mean :*( n i so do not want to diss ppl like tt *esp in times like this wen i need a friend(well, some) to go out with me n all*
or maybe i'm juz too hard to please. But i wasnt like tt in e past? not as xtreme as i am now but still, i wasnt this way. :*(
i make myself seem, n feel so pathetic like there's nothing to do n i have no friend n all but when ppl ask me out or talk to me, i reject and tune 'em out again. i tell u, pretty soon imma gonna turn everyone off.
sigh~ what a walking contradiction. *:(
- feels like i've got so much more on my chest tt are begging to be let out yet i cant even seem to xpress myself in simple terms. argh!
p.s: those who dont really like me can now point ur index fingers at me n go "yes! hahaha! u're not happy now! i am SO happy!" yes yes, i'm turning into a sadist.