-edited on tuesday. mon after midnight actually. juz added some stuff i fergot to mention, right at e bottom. juz scroll down kae? or u can choose not to. u can choose not to even read at all. really.-

actually its not really 'cause i've decided to stop procrastinating. not entirely tt. its just that, (coincidentally), there's absolutely nuttin fer mi to do, at home, on e net etc etc n also nuttin worthwhile on tv fer mi to watch. no new junk food fer mi to munch on on e couch either. nothing. nought. zilch. nada. zero! so conveniently, i'm here to stop procrastinating n blog bout last Friday, which is actually 3 days back.

went to town with Ain dearest. we wanted to go rock climbing or East Coast or some sort instead of rotting in e same old malls but it was too late fer those n i thot if we planned earlier n had more ppl, it wld be more fun (funnier? :x) so off we went to town~

e day started out quite well...


i looked nicer in another photo (ain said so x)) but ain deleted it cuz she dint like how she looked. haha. anyhow, i look weird. think its my new n shorter fringe? whatever. who cares?

we window-shopped :x, *i seem to have forgotten all e details. tts e bad part of putting things off. oh well* talked n so on. it was quite a productive window-shopping thou *i know u're wondering how productive it can be cuz its window-shopping but it can* saw some potential bags i might want to ged fer school. but i felt quite proud of myself tt day 'coz i wasnt buying on impulse (like what i always do). i put 'em all on my mind n told myself to sit down n think thru carefully b4 acquiring anything.

remember me mentioning tt e day started out quite well? in between it got bad. i think it was cuz of this $&#^%*$^&%&)($%&$&# *curse n swear* uncle.

he came to us holding out this badge thingy (like those officers or wad to prove their identity) n asked if we noe bout wad CIP or wadeva crap. acted like he's one of those officers juz taking surveys from youngsters to help out n such. he stood in front of us, n cut us abruptly, in a way wherby we cld not help but stop. he started off by asking if we smoke n all n den "Congratulations u dont!!" n shook our hands. n e similar things went on like "Are ur parents divorced? no? Congrats! u live in a normal family!!!" n shook our hands. Ain was like smiling while i was lookin uncertain so he went on with e hand-shaking n thanked Ain fer her Beautiful Smile fer him n me, fer being Pretty. asked fer our e-mails n sirnames *we figured we werent gonna get tricked into paying or wad cuz its juz e-mail so wth n anyway, he wasnt give us any leeway to NOT do what he wants us to. u wont understand cuz u have to be dere*

he spoke really really fast n u have to take an xtra moment to digest whatever he's saying. den he thrusted some Merlion badge thing to us each n talked bout foreigners having to buy it fer $9.90 but DONT WORRY, he's not asking tt of us. at tt instant, we were feelings a li'l confused at whats actually going on. btw, we were juz done with writing down our e-mails n i stared at tt piece of paper. n saw sumtin like "e sales person will get $2 out of every..." n i was in a state of, u might say, shock.

it really came as a shock when e guy stopped talking n said "ok, FIVE DOLLARS each" he wasn't like "5dollars please" or those other normal salesperson "donate lah.. 5dollars only.. can lar.. u 2 share lah..." NONONONONO! he was "FIVE DOLLARS EACH". no please, no nothing. n he had e AUDACIY to look at us expectantly. he also wasnt any like e normal salesperson wherby u cld try n walk away. sumhow, he was like Forcing us to give him our money n wont let us go if we dont give it to him. *really u wldnt understand... like my dad? u wld all think, juz walk away lah. but he's like THERE n we were these 2 shocked l'il girls*

so we gave him e money n walked away, dumbfounded. ppl ard us were like giving us "THE LOOK". we were in e mrt area at Taka sumore. we felt SO CHEATED. i mean u wld sae "5bucks only what". e thing is not bout e money, *well maybe a li'l BUT*, its bout being Cheated. after crapping so much, we had no idea WHAT we were donating fer! OR IS IT NOT EVEN A DONATION?! n i bet tt badge/id thingy was fake or totally irrelevant!

at first we really thot its some Voluntary work thingy. like do social work lah. maybe a grp of Teens go help out ppl or wad. n juz not sure y ppl ard us kept giving us "THE LOOK". we so wanted to complaint to e Mrt personnels becuz we were sure they are not supposed to do tt in mrt areas but yea, its juz 5dollars so we let e FREAK getaway. *i shudder when i think of him going on to 20dollars or such* aft tt i was thinking i sld have said i have no money on me or sumtin but we were really too flabbergusted to think lah can?! *u really wldnt understand...*

i used to get those donation-ppl cuming to me n asking mi to donate but i have never felt so cheated. after my job as a credit card promoter(cuz i c e diff ways ppl ignore/reject me?), i have learnt how to reject these ppl. i noe how to walk away n/or snub them just e right way or juz smile n say a polite "thanks but nah" to those who appear nice. BUT tt %*$^%(*&^*%$$ UNCLE! i was so pissed at myself n him. but really.

i'm even too pissed at him to take a picture of tt *darn* Merlion thing n post it here.

n tts what turned our day into a dark one. we were restless n unhappy. went to Delifrance n e service was REALLY slow tt day. they dint even have e garlic bread fer my soup *ran out of it so gave me a plain bread. pointless, i wld say* but after our meal we got into a better mood cuz we played wif e food :X. Ain cld sumhow turn her leftovers into a butterfly. talk bout TALENT. haha. no lah, we did it together. we both have TALENT. *smirks* hahaha. i am so Deluded.

while playing, i thot bout all e stuff i've seen n contemplated on what to buy, finally settling on a bikini top at NewUrbanMale. hahz. half e store is fer males while e other fer females lah *what were u thinking?* its onli 15bucks anyway. e matching shorts costed 30bucks. dint geddit so i wonder what i'm gonna match e top with. something is disturbing me. hahz. e tag on it was "bra top". found out last night n was like "wth?!" but i guess they juz call it tt thou its obviously a bikini? i mean, juz look at e store. its so "beach-y". y wld dey sell lingerie in dere? e rest of e stuffs r all swimsuits n all..... *but a nagging thot keeps reminding me "can u imagine if u were actually buying a bra? tts y e man in e shop acted weirdly"* but i think i'm being paranoid. i'm always paranoid anyway *shrugs* but yea, e store consisted of only Men really. n they really acted weirdly. *Ain said they r potential sissies(plural fer sissy?)* well-built n gd-lookin sissies i might say. lol.

fergot what else happened tt day lahs but i managed to have a nice day (no thanks to e &^%$%$$Uncle) on e way back... *ard 9/10 if i'm not wrong. to think i wanted to be home really early cuz my kor's booking out n i haven seen him fer quite some time. but its still considered early as compared to e time i normally go home :x*


waitin fer e train... lalalalaa dodododoo~


what were we thinking?!

juz realized most of my entry is bout e stupid Uncle(btw, Ain was cursing e uncle all tt day). grr.. cldnt help it. all e stuff juz flowed out like that *snap fingers* nono, sld be *types furiously* ok nvm. :*l

since this entry is bout going out with Ain, i might as well mention my Hiphop classes since i take' 'em with her n Von.


my ex-dance studio. sobs :*( tts ain's hands btw.

yup, had my last class 2 wks back. time really flies.... *look dazed fer a moment* hmm~ learnt quite some stuff dere but i have forgotten almost Everything. such a waste of $ right?! if onli i had a Camcorder or sth i cld have recorded it down. but nvm, i'm sure it will help mi groove to e music some day :*p


found this in my images so wth, i sent in in too. taken on dunno-what-day.
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1 other foto i took with Ain. i think its our next-to-last HipHop lesson n we were waiting fer e train while listening to her mp3 or sth.

ok i'm almost done *smiles happily* actually i'm not all that happy :*(

'cuz i want to go out. i want to go Sentosa. i want to go swimming. i want to go East Coast n cycle/rollerblade. i want to have fun. i dont want to be cooped up at home with nuttin to do besides eating junk food on e couch, reading novels, watchin tv, blogging or chattin on e net. i wan to 'njoy e rest of my short holiday left b4 sch starts. but i aint got a friend to do it with......

*sigh* its not tt i dont want to go out with or am discriminating my outside or not-so-close frens, but i hate awkward moments n am afraid tt it wldnt be fun or as crazy with 'em. *u think i'd rather stay home n rot?* hell no, i'd rather go out with anybody. but no, i hate awkward moments! *Look left, under my dislikes. go ahead, i urge u to. or even under my profile in frenstar. -i juz realized its not under my blog hates. gonna add tt in soon but go check my frenstar lah. i tink i wrote bout it dere. i really think so-*

hai~ my other friends are either 1)in jc, or 2)in rp, or 3)still in sec sch or 4)working or 5)doesnt do sports n stuff. tell me, am i going to rot at home staring at e LuoHan beside me everyday? n no. please dont tell me to go out alone. i'm not one of those ppl. i cant stand being alone; *check under my dislikes again* there's nobody to talk to, luff with, or share thoughts with. i feel pathetic n friend-less when i eat alone (tts what i really hate to do; EAT ALONE) or walk ard w/o a fren. a shadow just doesnt qualify as a friend u know? oh n when i eat alone, ppl ard me tend to all be couples n grps of frens anyway. do u know how alone tt feels? huh? do u do u do u?! i wld juz end up yakking on my hp all day n look equally pathetic.

this blog is finally feeling like a real diary to me. i'm talking bout my insecurities? or is it just letting out what i'm thinking all these while? wth, i dont care, but it feels rather gd to let it off my chest. that's it. too much fer a day.


ps: i bet u can tell tt i'm trying different colors fer my text n it turned out drastically... worst. i am so bad at colors. i shall stick to my normal colors e next entry onwards. really. i think.


(lazy to color)
fergot to mention, i got to know this weird guy when i went out with Ain. name's Chris. yea, he's really weird. like e way he talks n stuff. looks too? hmm~ but yea, we went to Sports Connection cuz Ain wanted to check out tents den he juz kept on talking to me. a lot qns n all. when Ain was on e fone he kept askin fer my no. but i was like "er, dont need lah". Ain wasnt of any help cuz she thot i was helping her bargian -_________-" n when she put down e fone n it dawned on her tt e guy wanted my number, she juz blurted it all out. so... yea *Shrugs* (btw e guy was like.. u going poly right? *he knew this from e many qns he threw at me* also will make frens mah den now also making fren same what..) he called me tt night anyway. i made some silly xcuse n put down e fone. my bad.

yea, n since i'm on this topic, i got to noe another guy from kbox. i know what u're thinking but no, i dint give my no. to him. somebody else did. or so i thought. said he's Q.F's fren n all so i figured qf kept my no. w/o asking me. den ydae qf msged me n i was sayin y dint he ask i n such but he was really confused. said he dint n was like "wtf. tt idiot take my hp n steal number" oh well, aft knowing this, i felt a li'l disgusted with e new guy, lets call him wh. i mean, juz taking a no. w/o asking is so stealing n wrong n he even led me to think he Asked fer my no. confronted him lahs n he was kinda shocked i asked him tt so he seemed really messy(u noe like not sure what to say n such). den sae he get from another guy called steven which i dont even noe hu. n said he tink steven Asked from qf. bah! n whats worse, qn said he saw my foto in his hp. i mean, wth is MY foto doing in HIS hp? swimming? i dint even sent him my picture. think he dl from frenstar or wad. a li'l sick, no? oh crap. nw i'm afraid he wld c all these i typed out. heck. yea anyway i'm not really replyin him alr so *shrugs*

tts e problem with blogs. bah~!

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