and when she speaks
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
geez... i'm gettin' sooo lazy to blog... but at least my last entry wasnt too long ago... :*l
hmm... few tings on my mind... juz recentli i seem to have lost respect fer sumbody whom i used to have a lot of respect fer, n whom i look up to. as i've stumbled on some stuff tt i sldnt have n wish i hadnt. <--?is dere such a word? *wadeva but i'm sidetracking* back to e topic... yeap... haven told anyone bout tiz... its kind of eating me alive... but i noe i sldnt spill e beans to anyone... seem to be contradictin as i'm saying it here... but nobody noes hu or wad i'm talkin bout so... *shrugs* no harm done. hai... n cuz of tt, i've lost hope in certain things n ppl as well.
n also thinkin bout somebody too.. not actualli thinkin bout e person but i guess e thing itself. dont noe eve i sld go back to e past, give things another try, give another chance. perhaps it wld be fer e better but who knows? it mite not work out again. so y put ourselves in all tt misery n regret all over again. tiz sld be a new yr, a new chapter fer mi. not some recollection of e past or wad. dont noe lar. *sighs*
everybody's been so busy these daes. realize its gettin' hard to find just 1 person to accompany u when u do need somebody. or maybe there is but e person is not suitable. or perhaps its juz me? its alwaez been like that. questions n questions w/o answers. so sick of it all. n i mizz sch so much it hurts. sec sch life is e best... really do hate changes.
but lookin back, i also found out that my past few yrs in life have been utter childishness. what i thot was true, wasnt. sld stop wasting my time away like that n start growing up. just really really hope that i can.
p/s: hope to ged my pay tml. they've been delaying it fer quite some time now. grr...
her
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5:15 PM;;
