sighs... i'm sick :*(
all e perfume n smokez gotten to mi... caused my terrible cold... plus sore throat, headache n such... e usual... n i've still gott work till tues. dont noe wad to do bout sundae. told Tricia long ago alr, sae sundae i'm off from work. den now sae i cant. wonderin eve i sld work till end of december or jan... heard tt jan e roadshows will be even more packed. now alr 9 daes no break so wad bout jan??? :*( *headache*
juz gott home awhile... aft work Enhua told mi ta go Tampines find him cuz he haven finish work yet.. havent gott a choice cuz ser's nott wif mi(she went fer band farewell) so i gott dere ard 11plus. had Mcdonalds n took a cab home wif Enhua... on e cab we chatted wif da uncle... cuz i wuz tokin bout how i envy thoze my age n nott workin, juz outt partyin each dae... den Enhua wuz lyke my bro, saein "work's like that. u've gotta adapt." hai.
i dont want. i dont want to grow up. i dont want to move on. i'm scared.
n Enhua told mi wad i dont want to hear, wad sum other ppl told mi before. "u have to, u've gott no choice. everybody's gott to move on some dae." cuz i wuz tellin him, how much i dont want to grow up. i dont wan to move on to e workin industry. shucks, i dont even wan to leave secondary sch. i'm afraid of moving on. n i hate changes. neva liked it since young. i hated moving hse 2 yrs ago. i cried n cried fer mani daes, hopin we wun hafta move. in e end we still did. i wld neva forget tt dae. my bro n i did sum stoopid tings. he knew how much i dont want to move n told mi to do sum tingz since ttz e last chance we have to do it.... we took sum pens, n wrote on e walls. i even reached outt my window n drew an arrow n said "my room (shirley)" i wuz so sad. i still am. yeah, how i hate changes. right now i am realli afraid of wad e future mite be lyke.
i think realli deep thoughts... n have often tot of e future. i imagine myself in e future, sumhow i am alone... dont u realize tt sec sch's e time ppl hang outt in grps, wif their true friends? as we move on, our grps gradually gets smaller n we started doin things alone. like work fer example. tears wld start to fall each time i tink of all tiz. wad wld happen to my parents...? damn it. i dont wan to go dere again. wld start tearing n feelin afraid. most ppl are anticipatin e future n stuff whereas i am kind of dreadin it. i just wish time wld stop right now. nott now as in now, butt now as in a few months back when i'm still studyin in sch. n all i hafta worry bout is e nxt test n so on... hahz... if only time cld stop..... if only......
okie gotta snap back ta reality. n think happy thoughts instead. lyke mr policeman fer instance. hahaz... Ser cant stan mi alr... he did thoze stoopid faces again. tadae stuck outt tongue at mi.(wad kinda policeman is tiz) lolx... ard 5 plus he left cuz bank closes ard 4. as he passed by our roadshow, he went "tsk tsk, go back lah go back lah" while shakin his head in tiz manner tt said oh-u-still-working?-i-finished-work-alr... lolx... farnie... oh, fergott ta mention tiz... he's tall, as in tall, tall. yeah... hahaz...
oh back ta e taxi uncle earlier... he told Enhua n i a lot of stuffz... itz lyke e kinda tingz u can onli hear, n learn from older ppl. with age cums wisdom i guess... he's nice... n charged us 19bucks wen itz actualli $19.60(or 19.40 i fergot) i paid first butt itz supposed ta be my Enhua's treat... lolx... he will pay mi back wen he geds his pay :*) now i'm koffing as well. tink itz his fault lah! took my drink n sae neva mind lah we both sick... hahaz... i'm sick butt no koff n he passed it ta mi... hahaz... nah... i sld stop blaming him... lolx...
aniwae, i'm so tired now... gotta save e tingz in my C drive in caze korkor remove tiz comp tml or sumtin... n will slp ard 3 again i suppoze... tml wake up ard 830... c ya!
